Thread 82908724

I will kill myself tomorrow night in a motel. I'm 29, never had sex and I'm glad I never did.

>>82908724 (OP)
Go to a motel to bang a hooker.

I'm almost 35, weakling

>>82908736
I won't bang any hookers I'll just rent a room so my parents won't have to deal with the shit

>>82908737
I couldn't survive that long, I guess I'm a weakling but idgaf

>>82908724 (OP)
You will die a worthless cuck then. How sad

>>82908724 (OP)
Btw if you need someone to talk with, I can send discord

Same age, also male

>>82908746
>clean it up decon technician

>>82908906
Why do YOU keep living?

>>82908918
Mostly because I am friends with a bitcoin billionaire and I will get to go to Peru in a few months.

>>82908724 (OP)
Are you going to kill yourself because you're a virgin?

>>82908724 (OP)
at least wear a aesthetic outfit

same 29 male never had sex. i will live on for you and take your pain.

>>82908897
Thanks but I'm way too depressed and anhedonic and I feel like you'd hate talking to a boring braindead zombie like me and I don't wanna do that

>>82908941
No, it's just my mental health problems that never got resolved even after years of treatment. I never really cared much about sex anyway, though it would've been nice to have cuddled with someone.

>>82908878
Yeah, but it doesn't matter to me lol

>>82909005
were you molested as a child

what do you think caused your problems

>>82908908
lfmao I hope I don't traumatize them too much. I'll kms with an overdose so it probably won't look gruesome or anything

>>82908724 (OP)
Pills? Rope? Gun?

>>82908724 (OP)
I'm close to that age and considering it, 27
I wish I had someone to cuddle, too
My mom would be sad so I'll wait, but I've almost given up entirely
I get heart palpitations thinking about my loneliness like a fight or flight
I'm tired of feeling

Dude, listen. If you can still get hard, you NEED to fuck a hooker. Some hookers will let you fuck RAW, you just need to know where to look. Don't cheap out, find the prettiest hooker you can find, cum in her raw, then reconsider your actions. don't rope. if i were to do it, i'd at least find a hooker to rawdog

>>82909058
>just fuck a prostitute
kill yourself

>>82909068
>kill yourself
>christfaggot
i hope you aren't OP.

>>82909026
I wasn't molested but grew up with an extremely sadistic and violent father which really fucked me up. That and all the drugs I've used since I was like 14 which only made things worse, especially the opioids

>>82908724 (OP)
I've tried dozens of times to kill myself, shotgun barrel in mouth, safety off loaded finger on trigger. even sobbing, crying for hours trying to get my finger to move one iota and depress the trigger I was never able to. I couldn't overpower survival instrinct, free will doesn't exist.

Just be warned you might not be able to. Good luck but you may be trapped on earth for 70 more years of torture like me

>>82909024
What a pity tsk tsk and I really wanted to help

>>82909074
>christfaggot
what the fuck are you even talking about, stupid nigger?
and no, I'm not OP
what does that have to do with calling out your shitty suggestion. what the fuck is a prostitute going to change? they leave at the end.
are you fucking brain damaged, retarded monkey? how do you think this will help mental illness or loneliness?

>>82909045
Some leftover isotonitazene that I'm gonna shoot up. I already OD'd once and survived so I already know what to expect.
>>82909058
I can't get hard at all, when you have depression and anhedonia the last thing you can do is have sex.

>>82909085
why do women breed with violent men? while a nice guy like me gets nothing

>>82909100
>how do you think this will help mental illness or loneliness?
if you are going to rope, why wouldn't you try shit you always wanted to try? if op can get hard, he should do it.
>>82909110
>anhedonia the last thing you can do is have sex.
fucked up. well, i really hope you don't do it, anon. you should uh, just become a bandit or something

>>82909053
I'm really sorry to hear that anon, I feel your pain. I hope you can have better luck than me and find a way out
>>82909094
I understand that, the survival instinct is very strong but I've already had an overdose before and that made me much less afraid of death. I think I can do it again because it wouldn't feel like anything new because I've already crossed that barrier once.

>>82909139
Overdosing does sound nicer than blowing your upper palate apart. What are you using?

>>82908724 (OP)
Which motel? Im going to rape you before you do it so you don't die a virgin anon

>>82909145
>What are you using?
Isotonitazene. It's a synthetic opioid you can buy on the darknet. It felt 100% peaceful last time I overdosed so this is a great way to go.

>>82909094
>I couldn't overpower survival instrinct
Why didn't you try getting drunk?

>>82909139
>I feel your pain
I've abused a bunch of drugs my whole life too. I don't know how I kept waking up. I'm never overdosed but there's been a dozen times where I was one sleep turn away from hendrixing myself, waking up in my own vomit. Since I was a NEET I never had access to enough to actually overdose.

>>82909192
Been in the same boots, if he was being serious he wouldve got drunk, guys do it sober most of the time for a
>god where the fuck are you
Type thing, I got drunk and accidentally pulled the trigger, whether im dead and this is hell or I actually did miss I will never know

>>82909215
I tried, even getting drunk to the point of passing out I couldn't pull the trigger

>>82909094
why would you kill yourself your life is pretty good

>>82909042
cringe. make a mess to fuck with the normies one last time. Imagine dying well knowing that you traumatized Stacy one last time with your gore.

>>82909278
It's not my fault that I don't live in a country where there's legal euthanasia for people with mental illness so things like this don't have to happen. Besides I'm going to a shitty motel in the crime-ridden neighborhood I live in so I'm sure they've already seen a lot of stuff already

>>82908724 (OP)
>never had sex and I'm glad I never did
Based. Don't listen to all the retarded normalfags telling you to go and fuck a hooker. Just crabs in a bucket they are.

>>82908925
And by billionaire, I mean 1 billion, not 10s of billions or anything like that. Trying to keep my power level on the low.

I still remember when Wumpagoniac George killed himself in a similar way, except unlike you he had plenty of sex, though never in his life did he get someone's consent first, he knew that being an involuntary celibate in the modern world is like being a starving man with no money at all in a grocery store with fake cameras and no guards, sure you could just grab something off the shelves real quick but modern men are too pussy to realize this . The death of an American hero.

>>82909341
Hey anon, so something for me and don't kill yourself :)

>>82908724 (OP)
just 1 more year and you will acquire magic powers

>>82909817
I wish I didn't have to do it, but every day is just an unbearable mental torture and it feels impossible to go on like this and while also having to meet life's demands. We're all gonna die anyway, I'm just doing it sooner.

>>82909791
>never in his life did he get someone's consent first
That's very horrible because he's causing his victims life-long trauma and driving them to suicide. I don't want anyone to have to suffer the kind of psychological suffering I'm going through and end up like this.

>>82909880
I just really don't want you to die though :/ at least not until you get to see what future you could have. even pain and struggle is a part of life that is an experience to take with you when you die. maybe it won't always be bad but you won't find out if you don't stick around

>>82908724 (OP)
Have you tried opioids yet? don't kill yourself if you haven't, it feels like all the love you needed.

>>82909915
I have. I was an IV heroin addict for 3 years and it was fun while it lasted but it got to the point where I couldn't keep up with the addiction anymore so I had to quit

>>82909931
Oh, then yeah, if your life truly sucks, I have nothing more to say, I hope your way out is comforting anon.

>>82908724 (OP)
I'm proud of you, its hard to go through with it

>>82909907
>you won't find out if you don't stick around
I stuck around for a long time and tried everything I could like therapy, medication, exercise, for many years to get better but nothing's worked. After so many years it just becomes exhausting and it feels like staying alive any longer only prolongs my suffering. Why should I prioritize my future self anyway when my current self is the one suffering and wants out?

>>82909964
>>82909975
Thank you anons, I'm very relieved knowing it'll all end soon. I hope you guys get to live a very good life.

>>82908724 (OP)
I will see you in the virgin afterlife. I am 40 in November and have never even held hands with a woman. I enjoy keeping fish and reading so I dont mind staying alive.

can i have all your money please anon donate it to a europoor

>>82910082
>virgin afterlife
Incel in afterlife too?

>>82908724 (OP)
Don't do it brother, you'll regret it

>>82908724 (OP)
Are you leaving a note?

Whenever I felt suicidal I always thought about leaving something for the people that will mourn, or a revenge note to cause psychological harm on those who've done me wrong growing up.

The effects people have on how epigenetics are expressed while your young and your brain is developing makes you who you are. Your behavior by yourself, how you interact with other humans, how your thoughts are formed, how you perceive them etc.

I believe consciousness is something unique to organisms.

Our curse or blessing as humans is knowing we exist while we are existing. Compared to the ant who just rather exists unknowingly. These levels of awareness are go down or up I suppose. I believe you'll just be reduced to atoms. Just atoms, in a motel room, that will be used for many a few more decades before it gets refurnshed or demolished, turned into something else through hundreds of years, eventually after earth becomes inhabitable, we'll have reached the stars or have killed ourselves too. The sun will expode. The universe will die a slow death. Time will repeat itself. All while experiencing less then the ant. I hope you find peace in that.


If you leave one, is it a revenge or a goodbye note. If revenge, for your father? Will you leave one at all? What do you believe happens after death, if anything?

Goodbye anon. Farewell to nothing

>>82908724 (OP)
Do you have any last words?

Bro please instead go and get fucking wasted drunk and let the night go where it may. You may end up getting that cuddle you want at the end of it, you will lose all inhibitions, have a great time, and forget you ever felt like this. If you're intending to die, what's to lose from another day of life where you get to go wild and do what you want?

Please.

>>82910010
I hope to be able to go through with it like you before I'm 22

>>82910222
>If you leave one, is it a revenge or a goodbye note. If revenge, for your father? Will you leave one at all?
No, I won't leave anything because I think it's better if I'm forgotten as much as possible. My life never really mattered and has no value at all. I'm very angry at my father of course but I try not to care too much since I won't even be alive to see the aftermath and find out whether he really regretted his actions and what they led me to or not. At this point it doesn't matter to me anymore and I'm way too mentally exhausted to put in the effort to write a note for him or do anything significant like that.
>What do you believe happens after death, if anything?
My bet is on something like an eternal, dreamless sleep, like being in a coma forever and never waking up. But I don't really have any strong beliefs either way and I'll just have to accept whatever happens. The only thing I can know for sure is that staying alive will only bring me more pain that I shouldn't be forced to endure. I can't know while I'm alive what happens after death, so there doesn't seem to be much point in thinking about it.

if you don't mind maybe tell us the town or a way we can identify you after the deed is done anon?
>>82908724 (OP)
Death is something we avoid instictively and logically. yet here you are being fully ready to jump into it. could you share your story please

>>82910311
But I've already spent years as an alcoholic and drug addict. I've been sober for nine months now and I don't wanna go back to that again, it caused way too many problems for me and everyone around me. If I stay alive I just risk having to suffer through more and more years hoping it will "get better" one day but it may never will, especially considering how much I've already tried to heal and how nothing has worked so far, I've run out of options. Still, thanks for caring anon, you seem like a sweet person and I hope you and the people in your life get to have a nice life.

>not debtmaxxing first
Cringe

>>82908724 (OP)
If you could go back in time and engage in conversation with your younger self to attempt prevent this, at what age would you choose to communicate with him and what pieces of advice pertaining to yourself would you pass on?

>>82910419
>could you share your story please
It's not too interesting, I just went through a lot of trauma since childhood with my abuser getting away with it all. I was never able to fully heal no matter how much therapy, medication, spirituality, or exercise I tried and things have only gotten worse over the years. I think part of what makes it so hard for me is my messed up neurology which makes me very sensitive and prone to experiencing emotional pain too intensely all the time. I wish I had never been tempted to take drugs to deal with my trauma, because it's only made things far worse than they could've been.

>>82908724 (OP)
you have to let the owners know somehow, otherwise your decomposing oils and bacteria will sink into the floor. Leave the door unlocked

or just don't kys, takes as much effort to kys as to fix whatever your problem is

>>82910503
That's a great question. I would've told him to talk to someone about the abuse he's enduring even if it's uncomfortable and to do everything he can to move away from my father as soon as possible. I'd also tell him to start EMDR therapy and stick with it for as long as needed to fully heal before trying any psychiatric medication. And to stay away from all hard drugs, no matter how tempting they might seem at first and try to find other ways to cope like finding healthy relationships with people who love and appreciate you for who you are and don't hurt you. Those things could've really helped me back then, now not so much.

>>82910565
I'll only rent a room for a few hours because I won't take too long, so I don't think the body will be too decomposed when they find it. I hope.

>>82910580
>I would've told him to talk to someone about the abuse he's enduring even if it's uncomfortable and to do everything he can to move away from my father as soon as possible.
I hate how much I relate.

>>82908724 (OP)
you should probably just hold out for robot girls
eventually everyone will have access to robot wives

>>82910565
>takes as much effort to kys as to fix whatever your problem is
Unfortunately mental health problems can sometimes be really tricky to treat because psychiatry isn't very advanced since the brain and mind are so complex, and some conditions like treatment-resistant depression don't resolve easily even with treatment or lifestyle changes.

>>82910787
>eventually everyone will have access to robot wives
When?

>>82910846
5 to 10 years
they will be here in 5 years but they wont be 100% believeable. you will be able to tell they are robots, but they'll be smart enough to do housework and jerk you off and cuddle with you

in 10 years they will be extremly convincing, like talking to a real girl

in 15 years you 100% wont be able to tell, they will look exactly like this

>>82910888
Such bullshit. None of this is happening

>>82909988
Go be a pathetic coward and kill yourself. If you do you will forever be remembered as a worthless worm who was too much a bitch to hack it

If you really wanted to kill yourself you would do it. You wouldnt be making a post about it. Either do it or dont, by languishing you are only extending your suffering.

>>82912170
Why should I care how I'm remembered? That's just vanity, I don't want their approval. Besides most people in my life failed me terribly not just myself, so it doesn't matter what others say, especially once you're dead.

>>82912193
I have to wait until tomorrow to do it, but I want to do it right now because the pain is constant and unbearable. Don't worry I'll make sure not to pussy out

>>82912434
Yeah right, you disgust me. You should get buried in a different graveyard to all the normal people. You should realise you have nothing to actually be sad about, other than your weak attitude. People used to give birth while half of their children died, people used to run straight into war without knowing whether they would survive. Theres people out there who have horrible diseases. And you think you have a right to be sad? Bad attitude.

>>82908724 (OP)
godspeed fren. i envy you

statistics show the job has been getting less and less good over time

>>82912554
I'm not sad, I can't even feel any emotions at all. I'm just in a lot of pain that's mental but is so strong it feels almost like physical pain. I don't know if I can explain how this feels and how much suffering it's causing me.

>>82912554
I'm not sad, I can't even feel any emotions at all. I'm just in a lot of mental pain but it's so strong it feels almost like physical pain. I don't know if I can really explain how this feels and how much suffering it's causing me.