Thread 82956549

randomly remembering i had plans to run off with a 32 year old man at 16

>>82956549 (OP)
Lol dumb bitch. Glad you still have that cringe memory haunting you. Women are so stupid.

>>82956549 (OP)
Well why didn't you? It would have been sick.

>>82956549 (OP)
You just barely dodged being kidnapped, raped and murdered
What a fucking moron

>>82956549 (OP)
average bpdemon behavior

>>82956549 (OP)
You and every other 16 year old woman.

Didnt that Miyoko girl actually do this?

i'm a 32 year old man and my 16 year old fembot is going to move in with me when she turns 18 because she's getting abused by her single mom.

he was the only man who could ever love you

>>82956688
no miyoko just went to hotels to bang 30 yo dudes but didn't move in with any not sure if she has now that she is an adult
bee did kind run off and move in with her 30 yo bf but her mother knew or didn't care so it wasn't really a run off

>>82956709
It truly did feel like that. I just miss the feeling of security and love I felt with him

>>82956549 (OP)
>randomly remembering i had plans to run off with a 32 year old man at 16
foids do this shit then when they're 32 seethe about some guy doing the same shit

>>82956698
mine BPD sabotaged our relationship and ever since she's just been slipping deeper and deeper into BPD chaos, skipping college classes and becoming increasingly more drug addled and less stable... it's really hard to watch but she made it clear she doesn't want my help so there's nothing I can do

>>82956742
mine is kinda self destructive but when it makes sense when her home life sucks so much and she's getting bullied in school. The day she turns 18 I'm taking a road trip and bringing her and all her shit up here to live with me. It's gonna be better for her up here because I'm gonna give her more respect than her family ever did.

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>>82956765
anon please be careful, don't underestimate how badly she can hurt you

>>82956658
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>>82956732
why did you throw it away nonny

>>82956765
anon you are such a dumb fuck

>>82956732
>It truly did feel like that. I just miss the feeling of security and love I felt with him
dont you have a world of your own to live in

>>82956808
Because he never truly cared about me, no matter what he said. He was a grown ass man and I was a lonely, dumb kid that didnt realize he was preying on my innocence until he blocked me

>>82956886
holy hell you sound so retarded

>>82956886
>until he blocked me
what'd you do nonny
you're leaving out important details

>>82957008
He just stopped texting me one day and eventually blocked me

>>82956886
>I was a lonely, dumb kid that didnt realize he was preying on my innocence
Take accountability you dumb whore

>>82956549 (OP)
When i was 16 i was playing minecraft, why are women like this?

>>82956549 (OP)
girls would rather fall in love with 32 y.o. pedos luring them online and trying to rape them than date me

>>82956886
>>82957072
Why do guys who do that always have no problem finding girls but I keep getting ghosted over and over again :(

>>82957091
Brought me really depressing memories, being a 14 year old teen not realizing the female friend you have a slight crush on is whoring herself out and the guy made her block you, just for him to get bored and leave her and she comes back to you crying like it wasn't all her fault
And all you feel is pity and disgust

>>82957112
predators are really good at spotting prey

>>82957117
Yeah I guess that is how it is women don't want honest caring men :/

>>82957115
i didn't have any friends so i'm immune to that kind of pain, i guess that's a positive? my childhood sweetheart married some older guy for stability, that was pretty brutal, almost killed myself over that

>>82957140
just marry an younger woman now and be like the old man she married

>>82957146
I'm fucking 19, i'm not gonna marry elementary schoolers anon

>>82957091
>>82957115
i hate women
worst thing in existence

>>82957083
Yeah, it was pretty much my fault too, I chose to talk to him knowing who he was. I broke down and had a whole episode when he blocked me. I guess I just really wanted validation from someone, I didnt really care who it was. It sounds really stupid now that I think back to it

>>82957187
How do you find women like that to marry?

>>82957187
how old are you nowadays?

>>82957149
>i'm not gonna marry elementary schoolers anon
and why the fuck not!?

>>82957216
Im 19 now anon

>>82957282
What do you even do about life nowadays? we never get to hear about how people who make bad decisions live after
>>82957231
because that's gross and i'm into women with thick, full beautiful bushes and body hair and those who fit that profile are usually 5-10 years older than me

>>82957282
have you tried making alts to talk to him again?

>>82957292
My life is somewhat okay, I think. I have a part time job and Im doing well in school. My head is a little fucked up though, I feel so old, like im rotting and it genuinely feels like im mentally stunted

>>82957361
Glad to know you're somewhat better, and that is stress, i feel that daily and i assume any robots who still bother to try do too, wish there was a pause button irl, try to not get groomed anymore

>>82956698
good luck on that, nonny

>>82956549 (OP)
This is unironically a canon event for many women online.

>>82957187
Then don't try to victimize yourself

>>82957443
It's a canon event for pretty much all foids that aren't a stacy posting bikini pics on Instagram

>>82957361
Want another old dude's attention who's less shit but still horrifically stunted and you'll look back on in a few years and make a similar thread about?

>>82956549 (OP)
Come on over!

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>>82957091
Yeah it's a huge blackpill to think about, that when you were playing video games and basically just starting to have sexual thoughts, the girls were all fucking guys way older than them for drugs, like in my middle school the girls were fucking some 20 year old high school dropout guy for weed, this is legally pedophilia, and nobody really cared, and you would have been called jealous if you rightfully thought it was fucking disgusting. Now those same girls will judge you if you ascend out of inceldom later in life and start dating/fucking girls in the 18-22 demographic, because you "can't get a girl your own age"

>>82957509
No.

>>82957591
I dont have bpd. Does it seem like I do?

>>82957606
how about the attention of another 19 year old?

>>82957606
>No.
Ok but if any other fembots are interested I'm not picky just be older than 20

>>82957619
Im not ready for a relationship. I have lots of issues and I dont want to be anyones burden. But I hope you find the right girl for you, anon (or whatever youre looking for)

>>82957663
Fair enough, have a good one fembot

>>82957663
I'm the old guy I don't want a relationship I want you to traumadump while I give you emotional support

>>82956549 (OP)
When I was 16 I was writing malware and had a silent crush on this sickly-pale quiet pale girl in my Spanish class.
Now I'm 22 with an ever so slight drug addiction, living a pseudo-neet lifestyle but making decent money.

>nah bro women hate age gaps! They want somebody their age! I swear!

Truth is, if he didn't block you, you'd be jumping on his cock happily now. Stop coping.
No idea why he did. Maybe he's one of those guys who jumps from girl to girl.
There's some old men who don't do that and genuinely just talk to 1 young girl and stay with her.

ie. me

we met on discord when I was 29 and she was 15. (legal here btw).
We were online until she hit 18, then met up and now she's living with me.

>>82956765
Waiting for someone to turn 18 is literally grooming. You better hope FBI don't find this.

>>82958115
>(legal here btw).
Legal in what sense? Age of consent is 15 where both of you live?

>>82956549 (OP)
i know at least 3 girls from here with the same fucking story. they are all american edating some 30 year old fucker from yurope and are considering moving in with them

>>82956549 (OP)
order a hot pizza with pepperoni and jalapeno and forget all your troubles

>>82958476
It's literally not grooming, you should learn the meaning of words before you use them. WAITING for someone is almost the complete opposite of grooming, where you are DOING.

>>82958519
I'm a 30 year old fucker from yurope. How do I find such a girl?

I had a 15 yo chill on my couch cause her dad kept beating the fuck out of her
Wonder what happened to her

>>82957697
Elliot? Is that you?

>>82959082
I'm pretty sure there's nothing against the law about talking to a 16 year old and not soliciting lewd images. I also think there's nothing even morally wrong with planning to get together when she's 18 if you're intention is a long term monogamous relationship.

>>82956549 (OP)
Why do women do this? Or are you just a middle aged man larping?

>>82956549 (OP)
It's never too late for this. I could run off with me and become my wife. I'm early 30s as well and building or buying home within couple years.

>>82956742
Have you tried spankings?

>>82957072
Oh so his wife found out

>>82957115
Yeah I was talking to a girl who was regularly looking for hotties she said when she was 11-14. 20-30 yr old guys. They would pay for everything for her, even flights out to hotels. Never told anyone else, had a normal job at McDonalds later and went to Uni.

>>82960004
My 16 year old is high functioning autistic. She's bullied at home and at school and wants to move somewhere else desperately, and my state is a lot better than hers for certain reasons. As for us, she posted draw threads here for a while, and lied about her age a few years ago. I found out a few hours after I added her on discord that she was underage, 14 at the time, and I backed off and treated her platonically, just giving her advice and encouraging her art. I didn't talk to her that often, and then earlier this summer I was looking through old chats and was wondering how she was doing since I last talked to her, and then she started talking to me every day after that. She asked me if I would have her as a roommate because she wanted to get away, and it came out later that she was in love with me. I like her a lot too, and I want her to be happy and to keep going with her art. I like art girls. So when there isn't a criminal code waiting to punish me for it, I'm gonna go get her and give her a loving home.

>>82957292
>i'm into women with thick, full beautiful bushes and body hair and those who fit that profile are usually 5-10 years older than me
Okay so what you do is find a hot milf you really like and date her daughter, who will look like her eventually. Let's call this 'investment' instead of 'grooming'.

Apparently there are enough people that do this that single mothers worry about people dating them to get to their kids.

Will this get you lynched? Oyakodon't worry about it.

>>82960129
Here on r9k or here on 4chan?

>>82960359
Here on r9k. Maybe you can guess who but I don't want to post anymore identifying details for the sake of our privacy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmljreTAgYI
Remembering Albert from Almont that wouldn't date me because 16 was too young and all his friends and family said it would be fucked up. I cried over him for weeks lol this was "our" song

>>82956549 (OP)
well you can dm on dis if bored
anon3564683546854685893444258679

>>82957674
this sounds like actual hell

>>82961804
For me or for them? I love it.

>>82957282
Im 19 too, nona. If you wanna talk about it we can. Wishing you the best

>>82962410
nta but why would you love something like that.

>>82956549 (OP)
he would have treated you right unironically (provided he had a decent job)

>>82962462
I don't have a good answer for you but basically I don't want friends or a gf, I just want a pseudo relationship that blurs the lines and doesn't mean anything to either party.

>>82962494
If you put it like that I can understand. Telling people that dont mean shit all these heavy things can help :)

>>82962552
Yeah and I'm numb to all the trauma stuff so it doesn't bother me when they tell me about whatever shit happened to them. I find that people who have been through a lot seem to like disposable relationships that they can exit at will without consequence, so it seems mutually beneficial.

>>82957509
>>82961804
>>82962410
ahaha you two should make a shoegaze spotify playlist together and share earbuds while feeling each other's pulses

>>82957697
What does your family think of you?

>>82962581
I do like telling trauma stuff but I just cant see how its nice to listen to all of it. Or maybe I just dont like whiny people.

>>82962601
It fakes closeness. You wouldn't tell a stranger about those things, a close friend, a confidant, a lover maybe.

>>82962621
Fake closeness is only nice if both know it fake otherwise it just feels mean :/

>>82962630
I always say what I'm looking for either here or when we start talking. I let them decide when to leave too. I don't think I've ever hurt anyone with this.

>>82962649
Thats good I just try to imply it without directly saying it

>>82962665
Do you prefer fake closeness to real?

>>82962731
no I like both but online fake closeness and you?

>>82962760
I prefer fake because it's easier for me. I don't think I'd be capable of real and attempting it would just cause pain so I avoid it. Is real closeness easy for you offline?

Probably would've had a fulfilling life with lots of children.

>>82962785
Yes it is but its also more stressful because you have to maintain it. Why would it cause pain?

>>82962828
Do you have a lot of people in your life?
It causes pain because the person I'm trying to connect with is expecting me to be able to connect properly to them. At some point my failures become obvious and as much effort as I may make it still hurts them that I'm not able to love them as they love me. It's not fair to pretend to reciprocate those feelings and even if I'm like this I'm not a psychopath and I try to avoid causing harm as much as I can. I've been in long relationships before where my counterpart put up with my oddness more than they should have, but I could tell it always hurt them that I meant much more to them than they did to me. Playing pretend just isn't enough.

>>82962897
No just a few and even that is to much but I know self isolation is not good for me.
Its good that you recognize that its a issue but dont you want to connect? Or is it something you are incapable of

>>82962940
I'm the same, I self isolate but it's very bad for me. Having people in my life gets overwhelming, it's a real catch-22. Are you hikki or do you get out of the house often?
I want to connect but my ability to do so is very limited. If someone was actually fine with how I am that would work great, but I don't see how anyone could really want that. People sometimes say that they're fine with it, but after being with me a while they get annoyed or depressed, start trying to get more out of me than I'm able to give.

>>82962973
I have to go outside but outside of that not very often it gets a bit too much for me and drains the life out of me. Are you hikki?
Then those people where never fine with it in the first place. Thats just something people say to have you longer because the idea of losing you hurts more.

>>82963033
I'm mostly hikki. It's very draining to go out and interact with people. Speaking of which, I have to do so now so my next reply will take a bit. Has life gotten easier for you over time?
Yeah, or they thought they'd be ok with it until they experienced it. People do tend to get attached to me and then want me to change instead of finding someone more suitable. That's part of why I like temporary from the start relationships, no one is ever under the illusion that anyone is going to stay or change for them.

>>82963072
my life hasnt been that long but some parts have gotten easier. Other things like speaking have gotten harder. Do you know why people tend to get attached to you?

>>82963138
Things seem to get easier with age. How old are you?
I don't really know. I think because I'm nice to them and don't judge them for how they are or the things that happened to them. I end up being something safe and reliable in their life. That and I don't ask for anything in return or pressure them into doing things.

>>82963612
I used to hear the opposite about how life becomes more stressful and such. Im 19 wby?
Its important for others to have such a person in their lifes but it can be a burden sometimes

>>82962649
>>82962731
>>82962760
>>82962785
THIS right here is why i like actual friendships over 'therapists'
you both should read 'I sold my life off for 10000 yen a year' since it deals with this stuff

>>82963722
I'm 33. From what I've seen people find it easier to deal with their problems as they age. The younger you are the more intense everything feels but as you age you get numb to a lot of it. Or that's what I've observed anyway. What about people drains you so much?
It comes naturally for me so I don't feel it as a burden. It's when they start wanting more or try to violate boundaries that I get distressed from it. That doesn't happen so often when everyone knows the deal up front, thankfully.

It's a big risk. For every guy who'd kidnap and rape a fembot with good intentions (ie for a long term noncon relationship) there is another who is dangerous or even some murdering sicko. Maybe I am overly negative and most guys are in the first camp but how is anyone supposed to know which is which?

>>82956549 (OP)
So you're saying that there's stilla a chance for me?
t. 30 year old man.

>>82963800
It just all feels like a big performance outside. Thats why I even like talking to people I know online it makes it less air sucking and physical. But what are you supposed to do if someone is really depressed and negative but you cant change anything? And they wont even think for me that part just feels like a burden.

>>82956549 (OP)
I am a 24 year old man hoping to convince a 19 year old femanon to run off with me (at some point)

>>82963761
Dont you think you are being a little hypocritical?
Telling you like actual friends over therapist and then recommending a *deep book like some kind of therapist.

>>82959499
No u don't do it anymore. You'd be surprised how many adderall abusing threat actors there are in the wild though.
>>82962587
They have no idea I actually committed any crimes. They just think I'm really good with computers. My mom keeps asking me when I'm going to find a gf/wife.

>>82963872
Outside is just a performance for me too. It doesn't feel like there's much point to it. I only talk to people online because of that. Have you always been like this?
That's difficult but as long as they're willing to interact it doesn't really matter to me even if all they do is complain. Usually people that depressed can't hold a conversation so we end up not talking at all though. Stuff like that really doesn't bother me, I've talked to people who were constantly suicidal and most of our interactions were me talking them out of dying. There's just something missing in my head and I don't get affected by that.

>>82963937
I don't do it anymore*

>>82963947
Yes I have always been like this but the older you get the more you are expected to perform at least it feels like that. Cant really imagine this going on for much longer. Do you think you want that thing that is missing? Or do you think that the missing part is what makes you you?

>>82963888
nah not at all i'm tryna recommend a SHORT MANGA not a deep book and it's something you could read TOGETHER alternating lines
and this isn't what a therapist would say at all; i've actually tried to serve as a mediator for people to help them form and maintain relationships; that's what i call being a good friend

>>82963989
For me the older I got the easier it was to get into the performance. I just developed scripts and personalities. It's still draining but it's more automatic. What do you mean by not being able to imagine that?
I would like it to some extent. I feel empty often and I'm a very non-functional and distant person. At the same time, lacking that piece insulates me from a lot of pain. I think mostly there are just moments where I'm lonely and that's when I wish I was more normal and capable of connection.

>>82964056
Yeah I have the same some parts are automatic now but what makes it harder is that the performance that I have to make gets harder and complexer. I can not imagine a further where I have to do this all. If life now feels intense how will it feel for me when I have to have a 40+ hour job and do it all. At some point it isnt seen as acceptable to fake it all sadly.
I relate to that but I dont mind something missing if we would have it all we would all be the same but I do dislike it when I dont feel certain things.

>>82964151
Working is simpler in a lot of ways. No one really cares about you as a person, you're just a cog in the machine. They make small talk and pretend to care but even the normies are acting at work. Unless you're in a very social job you don't even have to have a personal conversation very often. What do you think you'd do instead?
It is nice that not everyone is the same, but it makes life difficult to be too different. I don't mind most of how I am and I'm happy most of the time at least.

>>82964217
In my idealistic scenario I wouldnt have to work but otherwise I would do some kind of health government job. Housewife could also be a option but I dont think that is a smart way of living quite dumb actually. What will you do with your remaining time?

>>82964282
Not working is my preference as well. Housewife seems like a vulnerable position to be in, men can be very destructive and housewives have to sacrifice some amount of independence for their financial security. Have you considered going to school to make getting that kind of job easier?
Remaining time makes it sound like I'm dying soon, I'm not that old anon. I don't have any plans, just continue on how I have until I can't any longer. Life is enjoyable as it is.

>>82964330
yeah thats why I will never do something like that I wont put my self in that kind of position. I go to college but mandatory parts like midterms so I think its manageable to get that kind of job. lol sorry I didnt know how to phrase it differently.

>>82964372
Probably for the best. Having independence is a good thing. Have you had bad experiences with men before? It seems like most women have. I suspect that if you get a job like that you'll find it easier than you expect. How is college going for you?
It was funny, I didn't think you meant anything by it.

>>82964477
No i have never. I just think its not smart to be financially dependent on a person only based on if they love you or not. Have you had bad experiences? college is going nice how is life going for you?

>>82964544
That's also a good reason not to want to be a housewife. I've never had bad experiences with men, I just interact mostly with people who have. College can be pretty enjoyable, good that you're liking it. My life is going pretty well all things considered.

>>82964603
I meant have you ever had a bad experience with women? That sounds nice hope your life goes the same direction.

>>82964654
Women have always been nice to me. I've come closer to bad experiences with men than anything else. Thank you, I hope your life goes well too. You seem somewhat similar to me psychologically, have you ever been diagnosed with anything, or do you suspect you have a disorder?

>>82964694
Might have autism and bipolar but havent really had the chance to check it out. How about you?

>>82964747
Autism mostly for me. What makes you think bipolar? Getting treated for that might be worthwhile, it can get serious.

>>82964771
Just that I get intense sometimes really happy and then some time later it feels like the whole world has changed. Its also kind of in my family :/ did you always know you where autistic?

>>82964785
Sounds like bipolar. Does that cause a lot trouble for you? Sometimes I wish I was able to be more intense but mania seems difficult to handle.
I was a weird kid but autism wasn't really a big thing back then. I always knew I wasn't normal though.

>>82964806
It has not that much effect on the people I interact with at least that is what I think because I dont like it. Otherwise it does cause some trouble. Its like everything you believe about yourself and your world including relations with others will intensify but some time later it will all become the opposite and life is dull again and more meaningless. Mania can be nice but its doesnt last forever thats the bad part. How did you knew there was something not normal?

>>82964836
That seems really difficult to deal with. The constant changes must get really tiring. Would you want to be on meds for it? How often do you get manic?
I was always very solitary and didn't like playing in groups. I would just observe the other kids like they were animals and try to figure out why they were doing whatever they were doing. I didn't make friends until I was in my later teenage years and even then I always felt like there was something separating me from them.

>>82964875
After some point you just get used to it but it can be tiring. Its not that I dont believe in meds but I dont really think they will do much. I get manic like 2 maybe 3 times a year. Right know im kind of in the middle of it. Did you learn how people interact through observation or did you just think they where fascinating?

>>82964925
Meds in general can suck to be on anyway so if you don't need them it might be better to stay off. How long does your mania last? I wouldn't have suspected you were manic at all. Are you more social when you're manic?
I did learn through observation but mostly I was just confused as to why they were running around playing with each other. It didn't look fun or interesting to me but they were all enjoying it. I have always been kind of fascinated by people though, I think that's part of why I like when people complain to me or dump their problems on me.

>>82964955
It can range for few days to almost a month with short dips. Yeah im way more social need like 4 hours of sleep and run on happy energy that comes out out nowhere. Just cant stop giggling and because a different person.
I like that too. Usually you can suspect why people think or behave a certain way but to see it up close and hear them describe everything and there way of thinking is just fascinating. thats why I love hearing totally different opinions.

>>82964980
A month is a long time and 4 hours of sleep is kind of crazy. I need 8-10 or I feel dead. I'm a little envious of you, I never get anything like that. Do you pick up new hobbies or anything when you're like this?
Yeah exactly. Learning about people is really interesting. Even if I disagree with someone completely I still want to hear what the thought process is they're putting into their opinion. Getting to know people on a deeper level is nice too, learning about their interests or plans or just how they approach life in general. It gets difficult when they want to be proper friends or lovers though and start to create a shared thing, that's just very hard for me.

>>82965009
I get that but I want to sleep longer but I cant I will always wake up at 6 with or without alarm. So know sleeping out in the weekend for me. No i dont but I do go more intense into the hobbies I already have. Thats also hard for me. I dont mind the idea but when a proper friendship/ relationship is happening I just remove my self from it.

>>82965066
I really like sleeping. Even just laying in bed is nice. Being so energetic that I couldn't do that would actually upset me I think. Do you spend a lot of time on hobbies typically? I kind of oscillate between spending most of my free time on them and spending most of my time here.
What do you mean by remove yourself, like actually end it or just check out mentally?

>>82965092
I dont most of my time goes to studying or laying in my bed as well. You seem resenable hoe can you stay that way after being on here for so long? I usually mentally check out and after that ill make it clear that its not them that is the problem but that I just cant love someone like that. How do you do it?

>>82957102
>girl is 16
>means man is a pedo
grow up, american. pedos arent attracted to 16 year olds. learn the difference between a pedo and a pervert.

>>82958115
damn, living the dream, anon.

>>82965160
Studying is productive so that's not a bad thing. I don't know how I've stayed reasonable, I think a lot of it is just that I've never cared to have a group identity so as much as I interact with robots I've never felt a need to really be a robot. Do you worry that being here for too long will make you angrier or more depressed?
That's more or less how I do it but I don't usually check out. I can tell what they want from me and I start trying to find a way to make them understand how I am without causing too much damage. I haven't done a real relationship in a long time and I haven't had a traditional friendship in even longer though. Do you think you'd enjoy a fake friendship or relationship like what I try to do, or do you prefer just being alone?

>>82965222
Im not a a angry person Im a passive person but this place has made me rebound in somethings but I have accepted those things and know im the one doing it at the end of the day. Yeah I like it but only if the other one want the same otherwise its stressful but I like lots of things. how about you?

>>82965272
What kind of things have you rebounded on, if you don't mind me asking? It might be you doing it, but being in certain environments can make it worse. It's good that you're self aware about how you are though. When my mood is low I try to avoid 4chan because it just makes me worse.
I can enjoy lots of things as well as long they're not stressful, I tend to be very flexible and just go with whatever makes the other person happy. What's the optimal friendship or relationship for you?

>>82965332
things like cutting but I stopped for a month :)
What kind of things do you enjoy?
Something that makes me happy small conversations doesnt have to mean anything deep or serious. wby?

>>82965365
That's great that you stopped for so long, try to keep that up anon. Has it been hard to stop?
I mostly like relationship type things as long as everyone is on the same page, but I've done everything from friendships to being a sort of therapist.
Yeah I like when the conversation is easy too. Sometimes it's just very difficult to talk to a person, nothing in common or a mismatch in personalities, and it becomes very awkward. For me the optimal relationship is intense while it lasts but not very deep or meaningful and with me more in control if that makes sense. For a friendship I like it very arm's length and where I'm sort of anonymous still. That's just optimal though, I'm not really picky as long as it's mutually enjoyable.

>>82965448
No I stopped for some years but then got back at it this year but its not something I do often it comes I waves. What do you like the most relationship, therapist or friendship?
I like the same as you do but I dont mind having nothing in common somehow I can still work with that but I agree what the most important thing is that both people thing its enjoyable

>>82965365
>>82965481
Stay strong and get well friend. Try to not hurt yourself, it's never a good choice. <3

>>82965481
Does anything trigger it or is it just random? I used to self harm a little but I've stopped. For me there was always a trigger.
I like relationships most, I think I crave intimacy and that's easiest in a relationship. Therapist would be second favorite. Do you have a favorite?
Nothing in common can work but it's harder for me. I find it difficult to start conversations sometimes so a shared interest helps a lot. Yeah, I don't like when the other person isn't enjoying it. If it's not fun for us both I don't want to do it.

>>82965510
You too anon, stay strong! It's good you don't do it anymore. <3

>>82965510
Yeah people encouraging me and telling me meaning things like kms but that doesnt happen that often. There was this one person encouraging my delusions but I cut them of. I also like relationships the most and after that friendship. Why do you have that order?
>>82965506
Ty :D

>>82965544
Thanks anon
>>82965550
That sounds like a miserable person, good thing you cut them off. Some people are just terrible. What kind of delusions do you get? If that's too personal I get it. No one would be encouraging that though, sorry you had to deal with that person.
Well relationships are just very nice when they work and I like the role I usually play in them, somewhat paternal. Therapist is interesting because you learn a lot about a person and help them a little but there's no messy part where they start seeing you as a friend or a lover. Friendships are more difficult for me because I can't really be affectionate in them like in a relationship and I can't be more distant like in the therapist sort of deal so it just occupies this weird spot for me that I never really feel comfortable with.

>>82965617
Just that its good to cut and that im right in situations where im clearly not. I like the same as you do but I dont mind having nothing in common somehow I can still work with that but I agree what the most important thing is that both people thing its enjoyable what do you like about a paternal rol? Like playing a father/ wisdom. Why cant you be affectionate in friendships?

>>82965656
Those kinds of delusions can be hard to fight, especially if someone is encouraging you. Stay safe out there anon.
I think I'm just naturally kind of suited to the paternal role, I like offering advice or helping people out, giving them a push in the right direction. Usually the people I get into relationships with want some kind of father figure so it all works out well.
Being affectionate in friendships just kind of blurs things. Being too affectionate sends mixed signals which can make them uncomfortable or make them think that we're doing something different. It's hard for me to pick a balance between no affection and too much affection so I go with none.
I have to go soonish, I'll be back in a few hours if you want to keep talking or I can give you my discord and add you before I go. If you don't, that's fine though no worries.

>>82965727
Yeah you seem nice to talk to I have to go to but. I can add you what your tag?

>>82956549 (OP)
As a man in my 30s I literally NEED a teenage fembot gf to start a family with.

>>82965745
It's htrrykk. You seem nice to talk to as well.