Thread 82977279

she's never going to come back I won't ever get to talk to her I will never see her cute face again, it's over there's no reason for me to live anymore no woman will ever compare to her, she was perfect.

My BPDemon threw me away yesterday and I'm feeling pretty much the same.

>>82977279 (OP)
please kill yourself at the earliest convenience anon
you are a cancer to any woman that has the misfortune of stumbling upon you
you will forever be alone

>>82977287
feels like every day on here some bpdemon abandons a robot. theres not that many bpd women. youre all probably talking to the same 5 girls

>>82977279 (OP)
cheer up bucko, im sure some other man will talk to her and see her cute face eventually
shell be fine

>>82977287
mine threw me away back in april, I haven't recovered yet, I don't think I ever will
>>82977292
you don't even know me
>>82977299
:( why do you do this to me why do you want me to feel worse?

>>82977296
I think basically everyone woman here has it. No sane woman would be on /r9k/.

>>82977301
>mine threw me away back in april, I haven't recovered yet, I don't think I ever will
That sucks anon. I don't understand how they can do something so cruel, and I don't understand how we're too blind to see that and desperate want them back in our lives.
I hope I'm not missing mine seven months later, but I know I probably will.

>>82977318
>That sucks anon. I don't understand how they can do something so cruel, and I don't understand how we're too blind to see that and desperate want them back in our lives.
>I hope I'm not missing mine seven months later, but I know I probably will.
worst part is that I wasn't looking for a gf but she started talking to me and fell in love with her and then she ghosts me after 3 almost 4 months of talking 24/7 AND she even said she would never ghost me, honestly I should be fucking mad at her but I'm just sad.

and I was already in a point of my life where I was comfortable being alone and then out of nowhere (on valentine's day btw) I meet her. I shouldn't have talked to her, that was a huge mistake on my part

boohoo lol

i wish i could get a bpdemon/schizo gf. we could scribble nonsense on the walls in the dark or go outside to see the plants and animals without a care in the world about what other people think. or just hold each other and say the fates will be woven in our favor

>>82977279 (OP)
you fixed her for the next guy bro domt feel bad

>>82977287
>>82977301
mine threw me away about a month ago and i still think of her every day and dream of her. i shouldve seen the signs but i trusted her. i was a fool.

>>82977341
I wasn't trying to fix her though and I don't think I fixed her.
>>82977337
this is all I ever wanted too,
>>82977342
the first three months I couldn't get of bed or eat anything, hey at least lost weight!

>>82977279 (OP)
>she's never going to come back I won't ever get to talk to her I will never see her cute face again
I know that feel. I haven't seen her since 2018, and that was the first time for years

>>82977342
>and i still think of her every day and dream of her
yep, to this day

>>82977332
That's very similar to what happened to me.
I made a big move to another country, almost completely isolated from everyone and for the first time in a very long time I felt happy. Then she showed up, I felt loved for the first time in my life, had a nice six months together, and out of complete nowhere she leaves me. And to top it all off it was all online so I'm still a KHHV. I feel like she's taken my innocence and optimism, and stolen a lot of love from the next person (if there even is one). There's no way I can be vulnerable around anyone now.
But despite all that I just want her back. I feel like a heroin addict.

>>82977342
We get hooked for a reason. Don't feel too bad, anon.

>>82977384
it feels like se took my soul with her, every day now is as joyless as the last.

yeah there's no way I will be able to open up to anyone anymore I just can't fuck I don't even know how I opened up to her I wasn't thinking now when I look back I wonder how the hell did I do that ?

Ougi makes me realize how pathetic I was when I was younger.

well not even bpd whores like me

>>82977402
>don't even know how I opened up to her I wasn't thinking now when I look back I wonder how the hell did I do that ?
Their brains are wired in such a way that they do it intuitively. Making you open up, I mean. Even if they hide away themselves. They probably don't even realise they're doing it.

>>82977279 (OP)
I got apathetic to mine who tried to lovebomb me so hard, but after having her split/disappear on me 20+ times I couldn't bring myself to care.

>>82977428
it's too cruel :(
>>82977442
I wish I could stop caring but I just can't

>>82977428
i think you guys need to get out of the mindset that they dont realise the pain and damage they cause, because they do. they just dont care in the moment, and its easier to forgive them for treating you this way because they lovebomb you afterwards , they fill the void of care after they hurt you unlike narcissists which makes me hate them even more.

>>82977287
>>82977279 (OP)
it took me 14+30+25 days to get over mine.
69 days to write in my journal that i dont care and the memories of her dont bring me pain as they did, or even comfort or joy.
69 days to return to a state of normalcy, where I no longer think about her first thing in the morning though i often dream of her at night.
give yourself 70 days where every day you remember how awful she made yoy feel, and youll get better. its only 1/5 a year.

>>82977470
but she never made me feel awful, well a couple of times she did but it was mostly nothing but good times.
anyways now I really do have a good reason to hate valentine's day

>>82977478
anon stop gaslighting yourself, you remember how much she hurt you deep down even if you keep telling yourself about the good times, you sound like a beaten wife excusing her husband

>>82977279 (OP)
i bet that she's cuddling with another man and telling him that she loves him right now.

>>82977467
Have you considered going to Co-Dependents Anonymous?
I would but there don't seem to be any meetings in my country.

>>82977468
>they just dont care in the moment
Mine told me she knew how fucked up it was to break up with me over getting laid off, but did it anyway and called herself a bad person. I just don't understand how anyone could operate like that.

>>82977470
She never really made me feel awful, just worried. I spent a lot of time worrying about her safety. Then she broke up with me out of nowhere which just made me more confused than anything.

>>82977332
Wtf this happened to me too except it ended on Valentine's Day rather than starting on it. And she briefly came back a few months later.

>>82977482
I mean yes she hurt me when she left but before that she left she didn't hurt me I swear she didn't
>>82977504
why are you like this? why do you hurt me anon?
>>82977512
>Have you considered going to Co-Dependents Anonymous?
no I haven't didn't even know that was a thing honestly.
>>82977514
I met her on valentine's day this year at around 4 am.
I really hope it wasn't the same girl

To every girl reading this post SEND SOMETHING TO YOUR MOID RIGHT NOW DONT GHOST! we are sensitive beings and deserves some attention dont play with us it hurts to much

>>82977547
>no I haven't didn't even know that was a thing honestly.
It might be worth looking into. I spent a few hours talking to another anon about getting discarded and it felt like it helped a lot. I imagine doing that thing in a big group would be even better.

>>82977580
this!
>>82977588
but then what if I become co-dependent of these people? hell I already became co-dependent of my new friends I met shortly after she ghosted me

>>82977580
Like they care. If anything it makes them happy to know we're hurting over them.

>>82977599
>but then what if I become co-dependent of these people?
I suppose it's a risk, but I think the point is that they teach you healthy coping mechanisms as well so you stop being codependent on people.

>>82977613
I don't get it though, people always say you need to have friends, but I'm not supposed to be co-dependent?

>>82977641
Co-dependency is just enabling self-destructive behaviour.

Underhanded conniving manipulation is pathetic.

I have faith in her over you in every way.

She is coming home to me

>>82977724
oh not you again

>>82977739
Oh not you again too

>>82977739
>>82977763
Oh not you two again

>>82977763
you don't even know who I am mike

>>82977767
Depends on who you are.
Identify yourself and I'll tell you what I know

Maria and I are each other's home. We complete each other. I know all of her just as knows all of me.

>>82977796
that's cool man but I'm not talking about maria

I know her because of the time as spent together. How it feels when we hear each others voice and look into each other's eyes. How we complete each other's thoughts, feelings, perspective. All it takes is each other's voice and we fall into sync with each other. There's a reason she feels my words makes that anyone elses

I know her because of the time as spent together. How it feels when we hear each others voice and look into each other's eyes. How we complete each other's thoughts, feelings, perspective. All it takes is each other's voice and we fall into sync with each other. There's a reason she feels my words makes that anyone elsess

>>82977874
my ex used to say the same things to me

>>82977874
Mike kill yourself you fucking faggot, nobody cares, keep your retardation to the letter threads.

i hate this mike nigger so fucking much
everytime he said something in my threads it died hes literally the cause of all my threads dying mike you fucking faggot this is why maria left you

>>82978339
I'm still here, lurking. Is there anything you want to talk about, OP?

>>82978339
Yeah we're still here so, say something tard

>>82978363
that guy is not OP. I'm OP

How likely is it for someone with BPD to come back?

>>82978615
I don't know :( from what I've heard, it's very very unlikely and if they do come back they might leave again

I'm sorry but if this was all from r9k or 4chan women most of you deserve it, we warned ya
>>82978615
They're supposed to come back within a couple hours after blocking you
If not then within a week and if not within a week she's not coming back

>>82978791
>If not then within a week and if not within a week she's not coming back
Last time she came back after 2 days. It's been about one and a half so far. I'm not sure if I even want her to come back but I still miss her.

>>82978791
I wasn't even looking for a gf she started talking to me and said she wanted me

>>82978363
are u fucking retarded
i literally said i hate you faggot
kys

>>82978974
I'm not him, just an anon who's in a lot of pain after a BPDemon left him

>>82979012
oh my bad
its okay anon! u will find someone better preferably not another bpdemon you deserve better

>>82979028
I hope so but I don't think I will. It took 27 years to find a girl that liked me and that ended in me posting in this thread. I'm not exactly in high demand.

>>82979046
You can do it :)
The fish is full of the sea or something like that. Im not good with saying

>>82977279 (OP)
iktf anon. It's excruciating.
I've been lifting and improving my situation but it feels empty because she is the only one I want to share my life with.

>>82979046
You still have time, I have 11 years on you and it feels very over for me.

>>82977279 (OP)
>>82977287
>Rekindled with an old longtime friend who has it earlier this year and caught all the feelings we had for eachother again
>Met up, and lost my v-card to the only woman I have ever loved
>She spiralled shortly after and took her own life a bit ago
Dared to love someone who was broken, and paid the price. Jokes on me, I guess.

>>82977279 (OP)
Mine didn't have BPD. She was from New Zealand. An innocent Christian girl I could pick up with one arm. She helped me better myself. Her name was Abbi. I couldn't go with her. She laughed at all my jokes and was a pleasure to spend time with, we got along so well. Life is cruel. She also was a speed demon in the car though, had me panic a few times.

>>82979158
Fuck that hit me hard in the feels anon. It's too early for my day to be ruined like this.

>>82979272
Yeah, it's something of a modern tragic tale. Just saying I know how it feels. BPD is a fucking bitch. Especially when it's comorbid with trauma.

I miss her so much it hurts, wish she would've ghosted me after our first day talking, it would've been less painful

>>82979479
I had a diary entry saying "I lost my internet gf of two days". It would have been so much less painful if it were true. Instead she ended up in hospital for a month and was completely obsessed with me once she got out.

>>82979900
I just don't think mine will ever come back, it's been several months since I last heard from her

>>82977287
did you got a bit of pussy put of it? or was it a wate of time?

>>82979953
Just some phone sex and lewd pictures. She was about a month off from visiting, so it stings extra hard.

Limpwristed manipulative spineless
I have no respect for you

Can't scrape you off my show fast enough

Op is a manipulative lying Turd chewer