Thread 82982311

Tldr severe GAD
I'm really worried and paranoid now that I've submitted it. I don't want to have to do this humiliation ritual, and I'm concerned about if I answered the questions properly. I don't have access to some of the information on the form so I just put in the best I had.
I wish I wasn't so paranoid about everything. It prevents me from finishing documents like this and makes me procrastinate constantly. I forced myself to submit it, I wonder what will happen now.
It will probably take a bit of time for this guilty failure pathetic feeling to pass. I hate being like this.

I had no idea they handed disability even to anxiety disorders

yooo where in O are you? links me

>>82982527
When its labeled with "anxiety" then yeah it looks really shallow and a simple issue because people associate anxiety with something thats normal and happens all the time and is not a life changing issue. Which it is.
Except when it becomes severe to the point where it paralyzes you and makes you borderline psychotic and makes you feel a constant petrifying terror 24/7 with seemingly no solution to make it stop whatsoever.
Thats what I deal with, its pretty retarded and I don't know why it happens to me.
>>82982541
Scary

>>82982311 (OP)
You are a pooner.

>>82982733
Weird takeaway

>>82982311 (OP)
I really hope you don't get it. I'm so fucking sick and tired of the government stealing my income to pay for people who don't fucking work.

>>82982743
I gandered that from the image. Pooners love that game for some reason. That's definitely pooner art too lol

>>82982753
Trust me, I wish I could work, I don't like feeling like a leech, the alternative is literally just suicide. You could make the argument that the world would be a better place if all the people you considered to be weak just died off but I don't believe value comes from how capable you are stocking shelves.

>>82982731
>Except when it becomes severe to the point where it paralyzes you and makes you borderline psychotic and makes you feel a constant petrifying terror 24/7 with seemingly no solution to make it stop whatsoever.
Thats what I deal with, its pretty retarded and I don't know why it happens to me.
Tbhdesu I had that happen before so can't say I don't understand, I wouldn't have been able to keep up had it been permanent

>>82982731
>Except when it becomes severe to the point where it paralyzes you and makes you borderline psychotic and makes you feel a constant petrifying terror 24/7 with seemingly no solution to make it stop whatsoever.
Tbh I had that happen before so can't say I don't understand, I wouldn't have been able to keep up had it been permanent

>>82982942
What made it temporary? What triggered it?
The duration I was working it triggered horribly and after I got laid off it slowly dissipated, only continuing on for aspects other than work. I'm not paralyzed or petrified at night these days, just kinda miserable occasionally.

>>82982753
This.

>>82982779
This is just an emotional manipulation. You don't need to kill yourself, you just need be helped and given mental support that will encourage you to work and earn money for yourself. Handing you money out of other people's pockets so you can stay home and do nothing is only going to keep enabling this behavior.
You are not the only person on ODSP. Many of them are leeches. And this is causing a lot of resentment from people who work for a living and have to see nearly half their salary go to fund lazy retards who threaten suicide whenever someone refuses to hand them free money.

>>82982983
I can't explain why exactly, probably just cumulative stress until it burst, the most intense part of it was temporary but as you said it lingered and moved onto other things. I'm lowkey dysfunctional right now but not because of it, I don't think mine is that bad currently

>>82983029
>you just need be helped and given mental support that will encourage you to work and earn money for yourself.
Obviously I am doing this first and foremost, I've exhausted a lot of my options but I'm quite literally doing everything in my power to help myself join society. The last thing I want to do is give up and just skip to the leach option.
I'm not doing this so I can sit at home and do nothing, I'm doing this so I can get help and get better.
I'm not trying to emotionally manipulate or threaten suicide, I say those things with informative intention, not pity intention.
Lets say I magically live rent free, free food, basic living needs etc. I'm not gonna just sleep and eat all day. I will spend my time building up my skills and being productive in those hobby fields.
>>82983089
>I don't think mine is that bad currently
Me neither, not the anxiety, just the depression has replaced it and making me miserable. Maybe that's what's going on with you right now?

>>82983240
>I will spend my time building up my skills and being productive in those hobby fields.
I hope you will. I'm just giving my take on it as a taxpayer. People on ODSP have earned their bad reputation and this money will eventually run out too, so if you get it make the most of it to get yourself back on your feet and don't get addicted to it

>>82983283
>People on ODSP have earned their bad reputation
Yeah, most of the humiliation ritual is the worry of being like them.
Of course I am extremely grateful for the working man's sacrifice and want to honour it by putting out my own worth, however that will end up being. I just really need to get better first if possible.
In truth, the reason I've resorted to ODSP finally is because all of my other attempts to get better have so far failed. Medicine shows no improvement, doctor suspects personality disorder, try cbt and am willing to try it for the rest of my life if thats what it takes. But I'm worried what will happen if I'm stuck at this baseline and unable to overcome this, I really hope not.