Thread 83033852

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

put your hands up edition

hey
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

hiii
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

You should add a QotD to these threads.
>>83033852 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Pretty good. Today is rest day so I woke up at 8AM instead of 6. Calm.
>Any plans for today?
Studying for my test tomorrow.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
November of last year.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
Lack of direction.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Had a dream that pissed me off this morning, but I'm good now.

>>83033945
Hello o/
>should add a QotD
whats that?
>Today is rest day
good to hear you have some rest days
>test tomorrow
D:
good friggin luck!
>dream that pissed me off
hope it won't bother you for long

Hey gamers, it's me again.

>How are you doing today?
A little better, but still a lot of crying. I managed to fight the urge to contact her today. I was rewarded by two signs of life, so I can at least stop worrying about that. It has calmed me down a lot. I suspect she's been quietly keeping tabs on me too, she might even be in this thread.
I also called my sister for a while and it was nice to talk about stuff with her. We played a bit of vidya after, too.
I should have that therapy appointment next week. Hopefully it's worth the cash... If not, I'll spend that money on frivolities I guess.

>>83026560
>i often ask myself why i do things and don't really have an answer besides that it's the objectively right thing to do
I think that's a good reason to do stuff, albeit not the best motivator. It's why I try to do random acts of kindness where I live, since it's not really the culture.
>but all you can do until then is to stay strong and keep trying
Yeah. For better or worse I'll wait for her. I know she still loves me. Or am naive enough to think she does.

>>83026829
>Not deep rooted issues, so can't really do much more
She's trying her best but I think she's ill prepared for this sort of thing, I think. I initially got her for bereavement, thinking that her attempt was successful but then I called her in hospital the night before my appointment.
>you play(ed) yugioh at all?
I used to play a lot of Master Duel, but I've not touched it in a while. I used to use a Live Twin deck.
I still have all of my childhood cards, but they're all at my parent's house.

>>83034137
>Hello o/
Hallo
>whats that?
Question of the day.
>good friggin luck!
Hopefully I won't need it. I got lucky flukes for all my tests in this course. Not complaining, but shouldn't make a habit of it.

>>83033852 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Woke up at 11 and got nothing done so far other than a light workout.
>Any plans for today?
Study, put water to filter, and try to find cloth masks somewhere in the house though I'm pretty sure they've all been sucked up by the dryer machine fairy.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
It's been years but having a hard time not getting back into it atm.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I wish my hunger signals weren't so retarded, I'm so jealous of people that have a small appetite. The more I workout the hungrier I get, so basically starving is the only way I can lose fat. I've been having only 2 meals a day and just going to bed very early so I don't have the chance to eat more, but I don't have as much energy now. Don't understand how people can lose fat...whenever I lose 2 kg I just gain it back by cravings.

>>83034233
>Hey gamers
Hey boss
>little better
that's great
>signs of life,
so at least you don't have to worry about that
>might even be in this thread.
I'm not sure how likely that is but do you think that would be good or bad things?
>nice to talk about stuff with her. We played a bit of vidya after, too.
aw that's sounds very nice
glad you have someone to do that with
>Hopefully it's worth the cash...
maybe it will, I'll be crossing my fingers :]

>>83034248
Heya
>Question of the day.
honestly I don't think I'd be able to come up with an interesting question every day desu lol
my brain is not working well
>Hopefully I won't need it
too bad you get the good luck whether you want it or not ^^

>>83034564
Hello
>and got nothing done so far other than a light workout.
hey, good job for doing something
>Study, put water to filter, and try to find cloth masks
hopefully you manage to accomplish all of that
>fat...whenever I lose 2 kg I just gain it back by cravings.
that's super common I've heard and it super hard to deal with become your brain will do anything to get you to eat
Wishing you best of luck on your journey!

>>83027272
>Real pussy is a lifetime experience that not everyone gets to enjoy. Hmm perhaps I should upgrade to hookers
fair assessment of the situation. hope it's worth your money.

>i tend to listen to the same tracks on repeat.
i've been doing that for about 20 years now. (^-^;) i just don't have the motivation to go and search for music. guess i'm just not that passionate about it.

>>83027450
>I had a ride home this time, if I stayed for my last machine I'd miss it.
i see, i see. at least you got something done.

>If it's singleplayer I'll try next week.
it is and cheap enough that you won't regret it.

>The fact he's one of like (two?) bald saiyans is pretty funny
i think i only know him. haven't watched anything dragon ball related in years know. doesn't he grow a beard as a super sayian?

>I can't cosplay any of the ones I picked without looking retarded save for Tosen atm, but I'll get there.
i suppose it's part of the fun.

>It's absolute kino and my favorite Manga of all time, don't even want to spoil the synopsis. Read it. If you don't care to read it though
maybe i will. i read the synopsis, but i'm pretty sure i'll have forgotten it by the time i get around to read it. still have to finish witch hat atelier.

>>83033852 (OP)
>put your hands up edition
\o/

>hey
hey, friend. what's up?

>>83033945
hello, anon!

>Studying for my test tomorrow
hope you have a good study session and good luck for tomorrow!

>>83034233
hey, dude!

>I managed to fight the urge to contact her today.
good job!

>not the best motivator.
agreed, but i don't really have anything else right now, so it'll have to do.

>It's why I try to do random acts of kindness where I live, since it's not really the culture.
that's sweet. would be nice if it catches on.

>For better or worse I'll wait for her. I know she still loves me.
let's hope that's true.

>>83034753
heyoo
>\o/
that's right
now you better be having a good day and if not, tell me who ruined it
>what's up?
had some classes, been annoyed but not much
watching a movie and after that I'll watch some gta sa spooky stuff
what's up with u?

>>83034660
>I'm not sure how likely that is but do you think that would be good or bad things?
I think she's almost certainly in the other one we post in since it's where we met and she did it last time.
Good because she'll know I care, bad because she might be feeling guilty over me being a mess.
>glad you have someone to do that with
Me too. My sister is basically the only person I can talk to about anything.
>I'll be crossing my fingers :]
Thanks.

>>83034753
>good job!
Thank you!
>so it'll have to do.
I wish you luck in your fitness endeavours in any event.
>would be nice if it catches on
I don't think it will, but my actions seem especially appreciated because of that.
>let's hope that's true
Thanks. If it's not I'll be devastated.

>>83034660
>don't think I'd be able to come up with an interesting question every day
Post em when you got em.
>too bad you get the good luck whether you want it or not ^^
Thanks, I'll save it for a rainy day.

>>83034753
>doesn't he grow a beard as a super sayian?
He never goes super saiyan in any official media afaik so no. Lots of fan art of him like that however.
>i suppose it's part of the fun.
Definitely is. Wonder if there are any hardcore cosplayers that do insane transformations like Bale did for movies. Picrel.
>maybe i will.
Re-reading it rn. Kino punch...

>>83034819
>now you better be having a good day and if not, tell me who ruined it
sadly it wasn't very good. work was complete chaos and it left me sad and frustrated. tried to play some games, but that doesn't really help, so i just put on some stream, went to the couch and i think that'll be my evening.

>had some classes, been annoyed but not much
sorry to hear that. :< can you at least chill now?

>watching a movie and after that I'll watch some gta sa spooky stuff
what movie is it? and how does gta sa get even spookier? :0

>what's up with u?
not much. it's been a rough day. at least i can rest now.

>>83034915
>I wish you luck in your fitness endeavours in any event.
same to you. i'll try to keep it up. at least in the long run.

>I don't think it will, but my actions seem especially appreciated because of that.
at least there's that. usually people just get suspicious or take it for granted.

>>83035050
>He never goes super saiyan in any official media afaik so no.
i think it was the official "what would have been"-scenario by the creator when he was asked, but maybe i'm just making stuff up here. he got nuked way before that got relevant. ^^

>Wonder if there are any hardcore cosplayers that do insane transformations like Bale did for movies. Picrel.
would be cool, but also pretty insane. there's some truly dedicated people, though.

>Re-reading it rn. Kino punch...
have a good time (^-^)

>>83034753
>hello, anon!
Hallo. Just got screwed over by the crosswalk lights, bus number I needed passed me twice over before I got to the other side. Kms.
>hope you have a good study session and good luck for tomorrow!
Thanks thanks
>>83035309
>been a rough day.
What happened?

>>83034915
>where we met
oooh that makes more sense them
but it's not a relationship general so I'm not sure she'd expect you here
>because she might be feeling guilty over me being a mess.
I dunno but she probably hopes you get better soon
So ig t can look at it as getting better for her sake and not yours though that sounds super unhealthy
>basically the only person I can talk to about anything.
aww that's so sweet
>Thanks.
np :D

>>83035050
>Post em when you got em.
aight
>Thanks, I'll save it for a rainy day.
np

>>83035309
>work was complete chaos and it left me sad
grr where does that "work" live at? I'll give it a visit
>can you at least chill now?
yep, chilling rn actually :o
>doesn't really help
ig at least tomorrow's friday :<
>what movie is it?
I was finishing the gangs of new york
>and how does gta sa get even spookier?
I'm watching this
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5ibIzHRo51s
I'm nostalgic about that stuff desu
When games had basically folklore made about them, now people just search through game files and reveal everything, no mysteries
>at least i can rest now.
good
but I hope you manage to get a little better

>>83033852 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Pretty good, just got my kratom in a package.
>Any plans for today?
Did shitton of work with the codebase today. Now I'm gonna play some fps slop.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Haven't burned or cut myself in two years despite that I have constant urges to do it.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
Dopamine. I'm unstable - most of the times I've hurt myself I was not sane. quetiapine does gods work. I couldn't regulate my emotions before in any other way than harming myself or drugs.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
not really, life is great and I hope for you it will be too frens

>>83035503
>bus number I needed passed me twice over before I got to the other side. Kms.
that sucks. :/ how long do you have to wait for the next one?

>>83035589
>grr where does that "work" live at? I'll give it a visit
rent free in most people's heads. not sure you'll be able to get to it there. ^^

>chilling rn actually :o
always way ahead of me :>

>at least tomorrow's friday :<
true. weekends haven't been very relaxing lately, so hopefully this one will be different.

>I was finishing the gangs of new york
oh yeah. you didn't finish it yesterday.

>When games had basically folklore made about them, now people just search through game files and reveal everything, no mysteries
true, true. we had that with pokemon back in the day. usually it was just stuff someone made up on the playground or schoolyard, but yeah. there's a lot less mystery these days. not sure if i'd want to go back to pre-internet gossip, though.

>I hope you manage to get a little better
thanks. just lying here has taken of the edge a bit.

>>83035309
>i'll try to keep it up. at least in the long run.
Ganbatte!
>usually people just get suspicious or take it for granted.
That's always a risk but fortunately it's not backfired horribly for me.

>>83035589
>but it's not a relationship general so I'm not sure she'd expect you here
I know she likes poking around the catalog here, and she self-harms so I figured she's probably been here a few times.
If you are here, I apologise for slipping into a safe space of yours.
>So ig t can look at it as getting better for her sake and not yours though that sounds super unhealthy
That's one way to look at it, but I need to get better anyway or my life will start going really badly.
>aww that's so sweet
Do you have any family like that, /cat/?

>>83035793
>Ganbatte!
had to go to work a bit earlier today, so i skipped, but i'll try to make up for it tomorrow. o7

>That's always a risk but fortunately it's not backfired horribly for me.
that's good. what kind of stuff did you do? if you want to go into detail that is. you don't have to.

>>83035981
>but i'll try to make up for it tomorrow. o7
Here's hoping you don't forget.
>what kind of stuff did you do?
Nothing too big - just stuff like holding doors and elevators for people, getting up so old people can sit down, letting people go ahead of me. That sort of thing.

I'll go sleep pretty soon tonight
I haven't been getting much sleep lately

>>83035663
hey anon
I'm glad things are looking good for you

>>83035746
>not sure you'll be able to get to it there. ^^
I'm not sure I have this many bullets
>with pokemon back in the day
unfortunately I didn't watch pokemon as a kid, somehow I always missed it on tv and wasn't interested in it at all
But I can imagine it
>less mystery these days.
yep I think that kind sucks
>pre-internet gossip,
well now there is internet gossip

>>83035793
>probably been here a few times.
oh it is possible then
>family like that, /cat/?
no, I basically only talk to you guys

>>83036297
>Here's hoping you don't forget.
it's not really about forgetting and more about if my mental state allows it. should be alright if i work out in the morning.

>Nothing too big
small stuff like that can go a long way and make someone's day. you're doing good.

>>83036317
>I'll go sleep pretty soon tonight
don't let us keep you up. you deserve a good night's rest, too.

>I'm not sure I have this many bullets
no worries. it'll all sort itself out sooner rather than later.

>always missed it on tv and wasn't interested in it at all
i'd say go and just watch the first episode. i think you'll still understand how kids in the day didn't stand a chance. there just was a lot of bullshit about the games floating arounf. how to get mew, that you should press down+b while catching pokemon or the whole missingno thing.

>well now there is internet gossip
true, but for some reason i find that easier to ignore.

hey everyone, finally got round to painting my minis again. rn i js lay in bed cus i cleaned my piercings

>>83036393
hi chev!

>finally got round to painting my minis again
let's gooo! :D made any good progress?

>i cleaned my piercings
definitely something you need to be diligent with the next couple of weeks. good luck. o7

>>83036317
>no, I basically only talk to you guys
I'm glad you can get comfort from these threads then. Anons can be very friendly and helpful when they want to be.

>>83036379
>more about if my mental state allows it. should be alright if i work out in the morning.
I see. Usually starting is the hardest part for me, so if I can remember to do that I can usually see it through.
>small stuff like that can go a long way and make someone's day. you're doing good.
I try my best. It's what I'd want people to do for me.

>>83036393
Like Warhammer figures?

>>83036463
hey man
>made any good progress?
started doing a bit more of the blue, also picked up that night lords kill team cus they're cool
>diligent with the next couple of weeks
i'm trying, luckily it's only twice a day on clear timestips

also i just found out abt the word otokonoko and idk how to feel

>>83036488
>Like Warhammer figures?
yeah exactly, a space marine to be specific

12 hours later I'm done with work, but I honestly have no idea what I ever did today. I don't think this can be efficient, but is something, just don't know what.
Talk to everyone later, struggling with words now.

>>83036488
>if I can remember to do that I can usually see it through.
thinking about it, i have to agree that in the last couple of weeks i often just forgot it was a workout day. just sat there and when it crossed my mind it was usually to late and i had to get ready for work. not much you can do when body and mind just agree on not letting you do it if too much fatigue has been building up.

>It's what I'd want people to do for me.
we'll get there eventually. one nice deed at a time.

>>83036579
>also picked up that night lords kill team cus they're cool
that they are. i still got the og nightlord upgrade kit of the og plastic chaos space marines lying around somewhere.

>i just found out abt the word otokonoko and idk how to feel
why would it make you feel anything? just a play on words that's become another label.

>>83036687
hey, dude. just get some rest, ok? eat something bice and let the world be the world for today. you've earned it.

hey everyone
today was so tiring
the doctor wasn't there, so my session is on saturday now
i was preparing myself all the time, you know, it's hard to feel okay talking about most private things to someone in real life, i needed alot of time to feel a bit confident
and at the same time i was so happy that i'll finally be able to talk to my best friend after the session, well no that didn't happen
i almost had a panic attack when i heard i'm not having the session today lol
my heart started beating like crazy and i felt cold asf and i felt like i wanna cancel the session, but eh i'm not cancelling it.
i had to talk to another online friend i know, it kinda helped me.
i didn't relapse because honestly i felt lazy and didn't want to clean the mess, lol

good night everyone, sorry but i just can't stay up.

>>83036897
hey rem!

>the doctor wasn't there, so my session is on saturday now
man, sometimes i wonder why they think stuff like that is ok. they've been letting you wait long enough. >:[

>that didn't happen i almost had a panic attack
understandable. it's hard enough to deal with blows like that any given day, but under these circumstances they should be a bit more considerate.

>i'm not cancelling it.
good decision. fingers crossed they'll show up this time.

>it kinda helped me.
that's good to know. what did you talk about?

>i felt lazy and didn't want to clean the mess, lol
a wins still a win. ;D

>>83036937
good night! talk to you soon!

i'll head to bed, too. good night, everyone!

>>83037019
sorry for not replying yuanon, i'm tired i'll sleep soon, i'll reply tomorrow and thanks for your kind words ^^

good night everyone

>>83035746
>that sucks. :/ how long do you have to wait for the next one?
I got on the bus when you posted, so not long.
>weekends haven't been very relaxing lately
What's ruined yours? I'm spending all my weekends studying for tests I got on weekdays. Fun...

>>83035589
>games had basically folklore made about them
I've heard people reminisce about it before but never had it myself. Before my time I guess.

>>83036297
>Nothing too big - just stuff like holding doors and elevators for people, getting up so old people can sit down, letting people go ahead of me. That sort of thing.
That's not standard???? I'm not too familiar with customs outside my country but that sounds super depressing. I don't like cold people, a cold country is something else. Good on you for being the change.

>>83036579
>also i just found out abt the word otokonoko
Try saying it 5 times fast otokonokootokonoko
>and idk how to feel
Neutral? afaik it just means males that look feminine to the point they look female

>>83036687
>Talk to everyone later
Cya tomorrow. Just clocked out the long day factory too, expected a short day...