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/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83053455 [Report] >>83053855 >>83054822
/cut/ - Cutters General #649
Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

happy caturday

nyalo
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83053465 [Report]
hiii
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Anonymous No.83053747 [Report] >>83053793 >>83053855 >>83054822
I'll bump with a proper reply when I'm done my lat pullsowns. How's your evening been /cat/?
/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83053793 [Report] >>83053855 >>83053943 >>83053974
>>83053747
hello
>I'm done my lat pullsowns.
what's that?
>How's your evening been /cat/?
pretty good, I worked a bit on a map and now I'm watching videos on youtube, I might watch some movie in a bit but desu I don't know what to watch
maybe I'll watch the ring or maybe I'll start watching cowboy bebop because I feel I might like it
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83053855 [Report] >>83053974 >>83054831 >>83057254
Didn't get burgers after all, but an Italian sub which thought was even better. Man I love subs. Had that, got some milk tea, and played games a for a while. Can work up quite a sweat playing those. But I'm back home now.

>>83053455 (OP)
happy caturday cat! How's yours going?
>>83053793
>cowboy bebop
oh you haven't watched it? :o That's one of those ones even if you're not sure feel is worth seeing once. Not my top list of all time, but worth it for it's importance to anime as a whole.

>>83053747
hey anon!
>lat pullsowns
have fun! Was doing my pull ups/chin ups again today. I love those but it's also the one work out I feel the most because when I'm out always get the strange locking sensation where I can't move my arms for a sec, then goes away. Usually consider it a good thing since it's not so bad to be worrying, but only happens when progressing.
Discarded Anon No.83053943 [Report] >>83053974 >>83054440 >>83054822 >>83054831
Had a pretty sad day again. I miss her a lot but I held strong and didn't contact her. Even if the weekends are the best time to call...

>>83053793
Cowboy Bebop is worth a watch. If I was cooler I'd feel like Spike.
Anonymous No.83053974 [Report] >>83054440 >>83054831 >>83054857 >>83055005
>>83053793
>what's that?
GIFrel.
>pretty good, I worked a bit on a map and now I'm watching videos on youtube, I might watch some movie in a bit but desu I don't know what to watch
maybe I'll watch the ring or maybe I'll start watching cowboy bebop because I feel I might like it
Good that you're good. What kinda map are you working on, send a pic. Also cowboy bebop is pretty good but I dropped it before the last 5 or so episodes when I watched it, no idea why.

>>83053855
>hey anon!
hallo officeanon
>strange locking sensation where I can't move my arms for a sec, then goes away
Which feels awesome, definitely a good thing. I feel squats the most and my legs feeling like jelly on the way home is amazing.

>>83053943
Hallo discanon
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83054440 [Report] >>83054822 >>83055005
>>83053943
> sad day again.
sorry to hear. I'm guessing weekends are harder because more free time?
you have anything you were looking forward to about the weekend?

>>83053974
> feels awesome
One of those things people who don't work out don't understand how satisfying it is to get to the point after just increasing weight again for time in a while
>feel squats
legs are the one thing I never really much from. I don't have the best leg day routine and kinda skimped on it for a while. Not wildly disproportionate, but one part of my routine that's always been lacking.
Anonymous No.83054822 [Report] >>83055005 >>83055242 >>83055242 >>83055376
>>83053455 (OP)
>>83053747
>How are you doing today?
Pretty great. Weekend so I'm not stuck in a bus for 2 hours. Also finished working out.
>Any plans for today?
2 minor assignments and working on a DnD character. Might watch anime or game with my brother too.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
November of last year.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
Frustration with my lack of direction.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Beyond the usual, no. Still can't cut my chest, and I still need to get my money up.

>>83053943
>didn't contact her. Even if the weekends are the best time to call...
Keep up with it, and keep yourself busy too. Weekends are only the best time to call cuz you got nothing to do, so get something to do.

>>83054440
>satisfying it is to get to the point after just increasing weight again for time in a while.
Pretty real.
>legs are the one thing I never really much from.
What's your routine then? Also shouldn't skimp out on it, a developed upper body with chicken legs just looks kinda silly...
/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83054831 [Report] >>83055005 >>83055150 >>83055376
>>83053855
>Didn't get burgers after all,
nooooo D:
>
>Italian sub which thought was even better
crisis averted \o/
>some milk tea, and played games
sounds like a pretty good day
>How's yours going?
just chilling
basically what you read in that other post but also I took a warm shower now
>oh you haven't watched it? :o
nope
>worth seeing
I'll watch it tomorrow though I kinda feel like watching a scaryy movie now
What kind of vibes does that anime have btw ?

>>83053943
helloo
>strong and didn't contact her.
good job \o/
>weekends are the best time to call...
no
weekends are the best time to chill out and not worry
>worth a watch.
thank you ^^
do you have any other similar animed yud reccomend?

>>83053974
>GIFrel
okay
how many of those did you do?
>What kinda map are you working on, send a pic.
sure I'll send a pic in a sec
>no idea why.
maybe it's time to rewatch it
/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83054857 [Report] >>83055150
>>83053974
>picture
heres the map it's not finished yet but I'm just making a little old store
Discarded Anon No.83055005 [Report] >>83055150 >>83055242 >>83055376
>>83053974
>Hallo discanon
Hello!

>>83054440
>I'm guessing weekends are harder because more free time?
It's more that it would be the easiest time to contact her.
>you have anything you were looking forward to about the weekend?
Not really. All my days kind of blur together.

>>83054822
>Weekends are only the best time to call cuz you got nothing to do, so get something to do.
Weekdays are like that too because I have a terrible work ethic. The temptation is there because she's probably off work too.

>>83054831
>do you have any other similar animed yud reccomend?
Not off the top of my head, I tend not to watch stuff like that. It's not similar at all but I'm watching Eva again.

Thank you for the encouragement, everyone. I've bothered this poor woman enough.
Anonymous No.83055150 [Report] >>83055242
>>83054831
>how many of those did you do?
34 of them.
>maybe it's time to rewatch it
True actually. I'll watch some today and tommrow and talk about on the Monday thread.
>>83054857
>heres the map
I thought you were doing a physical map of a location and drawing that not a game map lol. What's it made in and what's it for? Looks nice so far, but I'd make the inside view of the window consistent with the outside. On the outside you see veggies but on the inside its covered by coolers.

>>83055005
Welcome.
/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83055242 [Report] >>83055365 >>83056403
>>83054822
>>83054822
>Weekend so I'm not stuck in a bus for 2 hours. Also finished working out.
glad you can chill a little bit and good job!
>2 minor assignments
best of luuck ^^
>Still can't cut my chest, and I still need to get my money up.
any plans to get that bag?

>>83055005
>but I'm watching Eva again.
have fun
I may rewatch it one day too, to see the dubbed version
have you seen the rebuilds?
>Thank you for the encouragemen
you're welcome ^^

>>83055150
>34 of them.
good work :>
lots of people gere are gymmaxing
>and talk about on the Monday thread.
have fun
>map of a location
nope
>What's it made in and what's it for?
it's made in hammer editor and it's for half life too but I want to look like a hl1 map
It doesn't have much of a purpose
I just like making little places
I also made a small autumn forest not long ago
>On the outside you see veggies but on the inside its covered by coolers
the windows actually aren't transparent and I'm not sure if I want to leave it like that or change it, older games or like halflife mods usually for some reason avoided transparent windows
And the veggies are actually big stickers that are on the windows and from the inside I made it so you can see their white backside but it's not really visible in the pic
but thanks for the suggestions
Discarded Anon No.83055365 [Report] >>83055860
>>83055242
>have you seen the rebuilds?
I have. They're pretty divisive but they've grown on me over the years.
I managed to catch a screening of 3.0+1.0 at my local cinema a couple of years ago, which was a nice surprise. I'm slightly afraid to watch it again because I have a horrible feeling that seeing Kensuke and Asuka will remind me of what I had.
Do you like the rebuilds??
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83055376 [Report] >>83055594 >>83055860 >>83056403
>>83054822
>What's your routine then?
for legs? honestly pretty simple since I use a home gym with free weights i'm kinda limited. I do some sets of squats, rdl, and calf raises. I think the big thing is like I said, haven't been as consistent. Do about once a week and didn't start till about a year and a half after I started training overall.
>developed upper body with chicken legs
I hear you, why I started doing the workout more consistently in the end. I don't think I'm that bad. I'm pretty lean since I like keep low body fat and would rather just go slow, so I'm not comically disproportionate, just a little behind still

>>83054831
>crisis averted
I was saying burgers are one my faves yesterday, but got getting sandwiches at local italian places is always the actual best
>hat other post
sounds like you had a pretty decent as well
>What kind of vibes
space western. Obviously old anime feel. Very episodic with mostly self container episodes revealing more of the overall history of characters over time. Keeps you waiting to guess and see what happened later type of deal. Been a while since I watched it but that's the gist of what I'd say. I liked it. It's one of those iconic anime that everyone loves and I think that can get your expectations up if you don't hold those back a little but it's very good overall.

>>83055005
>discanon
I need to take to calling this as well from now on
> All my days kind of blur together.
hmm is that a recurring thing even before things with her? Or now after?
>bothered this poor woman .
I mean, it's good to stop, but don't need to be hard on yourself. It's not poor her being disturbed by you doing something horrible. It's understandable you want to, nothing wrong, weird, or inherently negative about that considering your attachment to her. I think you should try to think of it terms of not messaging her because you don't want to bother, but because it's better for you not to as well. Can't keep putting her first
Discarded Anon No.83055594 [Report] >>83056172 >>83056403
>>83055376
>hmm is that a recurring thing even before things with her? Or now after?
My life's always been like this. Mostly because I work my own hours, usually from home.
>I think you should try to think of it terms of not messaging her because you don't want to bother, but because it's better for you not to as well. Can't keep putting her first
I know I should be living for myself. I guess I just sick of doing that for so long and swung too far the other way.
/cat/ !!SgPoFc5Qpgy No.83055860 [Report] >>83056172
I'll be heading to sleep
sorry for not being active much

>>83055365
>divisive but they've grown on me over the years.
interesting
>afraid to watch it again
maybe in a few months, not don't have to do it now
>Do you like the rebuilds??
eh not a big fan, don't really like how they look

>>83055376
>places is always the actual best
I guess getting supposed like that could make them taste even better than some dumb borgars
>pretty decent as well
yep I also forgot to say I bought some sardines and I might eat them soon
>very good overall.
okay, thanks :]
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83056172 [Report]
>>83055594
>because I work my own hours, usually from home.
what do you do if you don't mind me asking? I'm in software development but have a full time regular job which is what keeps me somewhat on top of things even if my schedule is a bit screwy
>I know I should be living for myself
easier said than done for me too. Always cared too much about others, what they thing, etc..
>just sick of doing that for so long and swung too far the other way.
well, the one thing about experiencing both extremes is hopefully now you can work towards getting to the happy(ish) middle point

>>83055860
>aste even better than some dumb borgars
aha very different meals. I like sandwiches with peppers and flavorful meats like italian cuts. Burger you're just gettng the grease and fat, not necessarily bad but simpler
> bought some sardines
ah you like sardines? One of those things that people feel very funny about here, but I don't mind
>thanks
do tell if you end up watching
Anonymous No.83056253 [Report] >>83056347 >>83056403
Just relapsed after not cutting for a good 2 months
Started spiraling around a friend and for the whole hour long journey home after leaving I knew I was going to do it.

Said friend is also clearly annoyed at me for getting upset despite claiming not to be.

sry for ventpost anons
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83056347 [Report] >>83056540
>>83056253
hi anon, ventposts are always welcome, how most of came here in the first place
>Just relapsed
make sure you get yourself cleaned up first and foremost. disinfect the wound and all that
>Started spiraling
what caused you to get that way?
>whole hour long journey
those are always the worst. Alone with just your thoughts, think it accelerates risk of doing stuff sometimes..
>clearly annoyed at me
not necessarily. Sometimes we perceive annoyance, but it could be just your friend doesn't know how to respond. I think most people feel that way and it's hard to judge other people when we're feeling down.
Anonymous No.83056403 [Report] >>83056540 >>83056983
>>83055242
>any plans to get that bag?
Whatever minwage work funds me till I graduate.
>older games or like halflife mods usually for some reason avoided transparent windows
Would leave it as is then.

>>83055376
>do some sets of squats, rdl, and calf raises.
Basically same but with leg curls/extensions tagged on.
>better for you not to as well. Can't keep putting her first
Very true, positioning yourself just as some inconvenience to her is the worst and won't help the whole feeling of being discarded

>>83055594
>I know I should be living for myself.
Can live for more than that. I live for my family and friends more than myself even. Think about living and doing well for your sisters sake, in the case she needs your guidance/assistance/example etc.

>>83056253
>sry for ventpost anons
This is the general for that if there was any, sorry about your friend. What'd you spiral about? Also nice kawoshin, post more if you got it.
Anonymous No.83056540 [Report] >>83056742 >>83056983
>>83056347
>what caused you to get that way?
I couldn't even tell you, I think I was just unstable from a combination of factors and got set off by something small. Then it was only made worse by having someone else around.

>>83056403
>nice kawoshin, post more if you got it.
Iv'e got all the kawoshin you could ever want and more, bbg (best ship oat btw)
Anonymous No.83056742 [Report] >>83056795
>>83056540
>best ship oat btw
Up there, of all time is pushing it.
Anonymous No.83056795 [Report] >>83057182
>>83056742
Me and a guy I knew in high school who got me to watch eva used to half-jokingly role-play kawoshin (me as shinji, him as kaworu) all the time so I might be slightly biased hehe
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83056983 [Report]
>>83056403
>leg curls/extensions
i do miss going to a real gym for one off machines like for that. Just not worth it for legs alone when my home gym suits me fine for everything else

>>83056540
>got set off by something small
usually how it is I suppose. That's okay. Hope you're feeling a bit better now at least. Take it easy
chevalier No.83057100 [Report] >>83057159 >>83057182
hey everyone, hope you're all doing well. i was kinda to sick to post in the thread earlier but now im feeling a bit better
officeanon !!m/DoCe8ZrNn No.83057159 [Report] >>83057182
>>83057100
think mostly everyone has gone to bed this point. I'm about to crash myself as well. but glad you're feeling a bit better. Keep taking it easy still and see you soon
Anonymous No.83057182 [Report]
>>83056795
Cute.
>>83057100
Was super sick this morning too, had to miss my usual 6AM wakeup.
>>83057159
Nights then. Might post the thread tomorrow myself at 1PM if /cat/ doesn't themselves.
white gator No.83057254 [Report]
the weekend's have been so depressing, It's like a reminder how i used to live, totally alone with no one to talk too

>>83053855
>Italian sub
what makes a sub Italian