>>83053664 (OP)
Not a day passes where I wish I did things differently. But at least I didn't get into drugs, alcohol, gangs, or any of the really bad shit.
32, NEET (I did some courses, like forklift license, etc, but I can't find a fucking job), lost all friends, and I know I'm just a burden to my mom. I wanted to kill myself for years. At first I thought that if I didn't get a job by 30, I would do it, but I'm too much of a bitch, I guess. I also don't wanna do that to my mom, she's bipolar, I think, so I don't know what that would do to her.
Do grades matter? If you want to get into college, I guess. I think you should go to college only if you really want to do something that requires it, obviously.
I don't want to blame anyone but myself for how my life is, we can always do better, but I think part of what made it like this is where I live, which is a tourist trap of an island (I won't say where, but it's not USA). I don't really have the option to just jump in a bus and go to a different state and try my luck there, or whatever. Not like I would have the drive to do that, probably. I really should just kill myself.