Thread 83065248

Before you an hero try throw yourself at psychedelics. I used to live on this board and make my entire identity being a mentally ill shut in NEET. Just existing used to cause me to ache and for many years I would abuse alcohol and try destroy myself to cope. I know many people who feel as I couldn't help feeling are here and I wish I felt I could help, I know that even if you do try hard tripping you may not heal and that is a tragedy but I was healed and it wasn't after my first trip nor substance.

I started with DMT tea which helped but salvia divinorum is what flicked a switch and killed my bad feels.
I started slow with salvia btw.

Keep up the struggle bot bros and gals

i fear if i do shrooms i will transform into an obnoxious teetotal vegetarian homosexual

>>83065248 (OP)
i took psychadelics a few times and still am suicidal and want to die , didnt help lol

>>83065248 (OP)
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>>83065268
>i took psychadelics a few times and still am suicidal and want to die , didnt help lol
Yeah so did I, I get it- for me I started to slowly experiment with salvia and I started to notice I could change habits of thought and behavior and then I started getting invited to the other side and I met this loving maternal Goddess which showed me love and I stopped being depressed and learnt to manage my anxiety better by listening to the lessons as best I could.
I know it sounds far fetched but its true.

I know many people use salvia and don't get healed but I have seen others with similar stories to mine.
I think the salvia entities would like channers because we can be mischievous and they like to playfully troll too.
>>83065385
I used to advertise my shitty discords just fine 24/7 here lel

I did research chemical tryptamines back in 2016-17 along with massive amounts of shrooms and it just made me brain dead. You think you're on the cusp of some great revelation but the day after you realize you were just tripping balls and thinking nonsense. It's just another poison along with alcohol, weed, ecstacy and all the other bullshit. And I know because I did all of the above. Not starting any of it is the winning move.

>>83065727
Also I've been sober since 2019, sobriety is the ultimate trip because you witness and conceptualize all the manmade horrors of the modern-day with 100% clarity, it's some demonic shit. No wonder everyone is high.

>>83065727
I don't blame you for thinking I am just a fool puffed up with the temp[oral steam of drug a drug induced "realization"/delusion but this isn't that.

I have been changed for just over a year.
From trying to order SN to being unable to fathom wanting to bring harm to myself because I truly love myself.

Don't think I am someone who looks at the world and thinks I see good,
I think we are obviously within a hellish realm.
we may be all there is here just constantly brutalizing ourselves out of ignorance or perhaps the vicctim of a demiurge like being and have to find a way to escape. I don't think the world is good. Life is a perpetual motion machine fueled with suffering.
The thing is though it seems as if this world isn't the only one and we are actually from another one which we can access when we use salvia.
This may be why it is so familiar and it feels like the entities are long lost friends.
I don't know. I won't pretend to have the answers but I just hope someone else can feel better like I did thanks to this amazing herb.

>>83065629
>I started to notice I could change habits of thought and behavior
i already could do that , psychadelics are unrelated
> I met this loving maternal Goddess which showed me love
i recall arguing with and attacking any spirit guide i met in life , including ones of simular description, i recall smashing her head with a cinder block, no regrets

>>83065932
LMAO Salvia is far too powerful for you to have ever done anything to her. She would turn you into a cinder block cutie

>i already could do that , psychadelics are unrelated
I found the salvia helped me lots in this area and it was initally what led me to continue using it.
I could notice myself about to do something out of habit and have a chance to catch myself before I acted and choose another option and have that choice make a lasting change.

I wish you well man, thanks for reading and replying anyway.

>>83066478
some like me will just never enjoy life , its who we aere, but i am glad you seem alright