>be me 21yo
>have one and only friend he is my family i dont have a mother and father
>he was my brother and part of my soul
>know him for 12 years
>24/7 together
>talking on skype then teamspeak everyday
>i was 100% myself next to him and could be myself
>he was 4 months older he was my big brother he loved me unconditionally of who i am
>he said i was a gift from god
>i looked up to him
>he looked up to me
>gets meningites
>doctors tell they cant do shit its to late hes gonna die
>bring him daily 80mg methadone
>alyways with him in hospital from early morning till night
>we make jokes prank people steal drugs and meds
>his last words were "i love you see you tommorow"
>he died from multiple organ failure at 4am
there was no tommorow
this was one year ago i got benzo addicted
im so fucked i already went trough rehab and im at 0mg but im still withdrawing after months of quitting
how tf am i supposed to cope i lost the most important person of my life
im tired but life is getting better
>have one and only friend he is my family i dont have a mother and father
>he was my brother and part of my soul
>know him for 12 years
>24/7 together
>talking on skype then teamspeak everyday
>i was 100% myself next to him and could be myself
>he was 4 months older he was my big brother he loved me unconditionally of who i am
>he said i was a gift from god
>i looked up to him
>he looked up to me
>gets meningites
>doctors tell they cant do shit its to late hes gonna die
>bring him daily 80mg methadone
>alyways with him in hospital from early morning till night
>we make jokes prank people steal drugs and meds
>his last words were "i love you see you tommorow"
>he died from multiple organ failure at 4am
there was no tommorow
this was one year ago i got benzo addicted
im so fucked i already went trough rehab and im at 0mg but im still withdrawing after months of quitting
how tf am i supposed to cope i lost the most important person of my life
im tired but life is getting better
