>>83077312
This along with the fact that I'm just not very in tune with my body.
It feels really good to get drunk. It doesn't feel very good to come down. So what ends up happening for me is I'll start drinking then I drink some more and every time I stop getting more drunk it no longer feels good so I have to drink more to keep going up.
the other issue is not being in tune with myself. Like I feel like I never reach the point where I can go "yup its time to stop right now or i'm not going to have fun tomorrow" Like the biggest sign for me to stop drinking these days is when the room starts to spin. Only then do i know I drank too much but the room only starts to spin when I'm already coming down so its already too late. The only way I can realistically control myself is by hard capping the amount I drink but it by the time i've already got 4-5 shots in me i'm drunk enough to go "aaah whats one more drink" and then I lose count.