Thread 83078216

is love even real
i cant comprehend with my retarded brain how someone could love me or how i could love someone
it doesnt make sense how someone could commit themselves to me or how i could trust someone enough to love them
i need to blow my brains out why was a i born so wrong
im scared of dying alone but i dont know what else i could do, most people arent into autistic depressed twinks

Ok

In the most original way

>>83078224
what does this mean ???
pls explain Im retarded

>>83078216 (OP)
not sure if bait but I'll bite.
I'm a depressed autistic foid who looks kinda like picrel. autistic depressed twinks are my absolute favorite.
I love unconditionally but am losing my ability to trust because my love almost always ends in heartbreak.
make of that what you will .

>>83078250
this isnt bait idk how it would be
your response feels like a fed post tho
are you gonna try to groom me into shooting up a mall or something because im not gonna get assraped in guantanamo

kylarrrrr <3

>>83078216 (OP)
i, i,
i almost misread what you said and thought you implied someone did commit to you and youre questioning them
... unless thats what you meant
idk, srry, idk what 2 say :(

>>83078265
no I wouldn't we'd probably just end up in a 3 month situationship where I text you every minute and then get sad seeing a cat that reminds me of you after you leave

>>83078283
someone did express feelings for me
but she's a normie so i know she's just using me for attention

i just want someone who actually would care about me and love me

>>83078297
if it wasnt online id probably do this
but i cannot handle being ghosted anymore its mind breaking and causes me to spiral really bad

>>83078308
I don't really ghost or leave people unless they're 30 year old pervert dudes who add me on here to send me their peepees.

should i get drunk it would be easier to influence me and id want to hang myself less
i dont wanna be hungover but who cares anymore fuck you

>>83078317
ive been told this a lot and i always end up getting ghosted!!!!

>>83078328
well to be loved means to put yourself out there a little bit. What's so damaging about being ghosted by someone you barely know? After the connection is where it hurts.

>>83078302
ahhhh, well, you can try going through the motions, just to see how it is
maybe youll be lucky and she will be a rare good person

do you feel you have anything to lose by saying either yes or no to her?

>>83078341
because i get connected to someone long enough that i actually believe they care about me before they ghost me

>>83078347
day 100000 of forgetting to hit update before i post igjfiudnhjktd

>>83078347
i would lose time and money.
she also barely shares my interests, only talks about her interests, has had multiple relationships before, and said she would've randomly tried to kiss me if she could read my emotions more
i don't want someone who would randomly touch me without consent id cry and cut myself if she stole my first kiss like that

>>83078359
hm. I don't ghost people I'm connected to. What I'm getting from your replies here is that the only thing holding you back from being loved is the fact you've let your own ideas and previous connections affect you so much you're shielding yourself from it.

>>83078368
yes this is very true. im very scared of connecting because i don't want to get hurt again
even if i barely know someone and they ghost me it still hurts because
am i really that horrid that they'd ghost me even if they barely knew me??

>>83078384
you are sensitive. I understand because I am too. maybe the other person didn't feel the spark or maybe they just had other things going on. It doesn't mean they hate you or think you're horrid. You can't expect the majority of people to love or hate you, it's the small circle of people who do love you that matter, and the circle of people who hate you, unless you've done some great misdeeds, will always be smaller.

>>83078414
but no one loves me and everyone leaves me
so doesnt that mean everyone hates me

>>83078418
I wouldn't leave you but you refuse to take that as an answer. You're manifesting it. And no, everyone doesn't hate you. It takes far too much energy to hate someone for everyone you didn't properly connect with to hate you.

>>83078428
why are you so confidant you wouldnt leave me when you dont even know me

>>83078432
because I have kept people in my life long after I shouldn't have. I've fought to keep people in my life at my own expense, and I've never broken that promise.

Even if you made me rip my hair out, I doubt you'd be different and I'd make some magical exception for you because I suddenly decided to hate you.

>>83078441
youd be surprised!!!
idk like
im very picky about people i talk with what interests do you have

>>83078216 (OP)
I read despising as de-pissing. sorry anon

>>83078467
it's okay! im glad you found joy in my post!!

>>83078457
I'm mega autist weeb, I collect consoles and physical media, I draw, I'm a programmer and modder of stuff, I collect CDs, my wall is covered in sanrio, pokemon, music and vocaloid posters. I collect a ton of toys too, lego, virtual pets, dolls. I really have a billion interests, and again I feel like you're the one putting up these walls.

Another thread, b?
Go drink some tea, friend

>>83078477
that's really cool!!
yeah i know im putting up the walls but its more of a defence mechanism
also i dont know if id mesh well with another autist because the ones i know never let me talk about what i like

>>83078493
i would but i think I drank all my green tea
and i have really bad meltdowns when i can't get the drink i want when im alone (yes its embarrassing and yes I should kill myself for it)

>>83078495
a lot of autists lack conversational skills and don't know when they're monologuing. I've tried to train myself out of this. When they really love you you start to mesh really well and you get these walls and walls of you telling each other about your interests and sharing them and it's lovely.

>tfw silent brick wall who lets you talk all the time
i love listening

>>83078511
i wouldnt know but it sounds nice
i wish someone would reassure me when im talking about something i like i always feel like no one is listening to me or they find me annoying and then I cry

>>83078514
i like listening too but if im not allowed to talk about what i like i want to harm myself

>>83078526
I try my best to do so. When I love someone hearing them never shut up makes my day, and as I said I don't think you'd magically be different or something makes you more hateable than others.

>>83078538
i guess
i dont really have any good things about me so i think that makes me different
and I cry a lot and im really insecure and im really depressed and anxious and i hate myself

come back please i need attention

i... almost want to post my disc, so you can do the computer thing on the website thing
but... im avoidant and its mixed with other crap, so i would probably eventually ghosy

>>83078617
you dont need to but i like talking with people a lot

true...
wellllllll okay, thats motivation enough

moorrttaall.#0

im a pretty dumb, extremely boring rock that doesnt talk much, fyi
also, guy btw, if thats 2 weird, thats alright
anyone else wants to add, thats cool too

>>83078507
You just need to get dicked down and cuddled, it'll cure up your angst

didn't a bunch of people give you their discs last time or did they leave too? the allure of this site is that it's anonymous and non committal so a lot of the people here will be asocial. I'm so avoidant and emotionally closed off that I feel disgusted congratulating people for example

>>83078552
if any of you sad twinks wanna add me im deathcactus (the girl arguing with him)

>>83078671
you are a very sweet person for arguing with him

>>83078662
who will do that to me tho i wont let ugly or annoying dick near me

>>83078665
they did but most of them aren't talking to me ughh

>>83078671
>>83078660
added both of u btww

>>83078687
they both fell asleep im gonna kms

>>83078878
shame for you i must suppose, i am assuming your european or else you oughta go to bed yourself. What are you looking for when you add people here, you can assume most are antisocial here, which makes it a rather illogical place to look for friends. Good luck though i suppose, at least you have the balls to talk with people i cant lie and say i do.

>>83078908
cuz people here understand me the most

>wakes up
>first thing he does is necro his own thread
omg b go to work already

>>83080536
i don't wanna <3

>>83080545
have something for breakfast first at least

>>83080554
i don't eat breakfast. Also I hate that cat it pisses me off. Fagslop

>>83080575
my image didn't attach I'm going to kill myself

>>83080575
>>83080577
>no breakfast
is this how you stay skinny </3

>>83080587
no i eat like shit i just have a really high metabolism and sleep a lot

why does no one like talking to me im going to blow my brains out
have any of you read Centuria

>>83080673
they clearly do you have had like 3 maybe 4 threads where you have got over 20 replies. You just are impatient. It is very clear you are either underage or bpd. either way you should probably calm down.

>>83080712
im lonely. everyone who added me isnt replying to me. i need constant attention because im a pathetic faggot

>>83078216 (OP)
Kylaar!
Pls I wanna get to know you u seem cool and prolly share my interests
roosha_808 ,on cord

>>83080785
dis nigga is so sad i'm in tears i'm tellin ya your life would be 1000x better if you watched inazuma eleven

>>83080785
I understand u I was added by some people from soc and they didnt want to talk at all they just wanted me on their friendlist for some reason it was really annoying

>>83080785
I genuinely cant comprehend how people like you exist. Were you never ignored as a child, or sat in silence for hours with nothing to do? You should be used to non existence of yourself. It is not because you are a pathetic faggot. You are lonely because you think like a dog or animal. It is stupid. Learn to be invisible and silent like everyone does.

>>83080809
jus sayin if it was me that wouldn't happen. *wink *wink

>>83080800
is that a genshin thing or am i being retarded

>>83080809
LITERALLY just fucking message me omg it's not that hard

>>83080818
i am invisible and silent that's why im addicted to attention when i get it.

>>83080830
it is NOT genshin impact bruh what are you on... ts might jus be the worst response i've gotten to inazuma eleven. may even kill myself.

>>83080822
Im kinda scared to add people now cause I can get attached easily and there were 2 girls who added me in the past and love bombed me and I fell for them heavily but they both ghosted me later randomly. I don't want to experience that again.

>>83080845
inazuma is a place in Genshin </3 I'm sorry I'm so retarded please don't hate me

Holy shit why am i bothering i am retarded i mean even for 4 chan i am retarded my god i am going to bed.

>>83080855
this is why I hate foids. getting ghosted is year ruining for me

>>83080830
can this mf stop saying dumb shi and just add my discord already I have no aura don't ignore me
roosha_808 NOW

>>83080862
what does this mean??? bothering with what

>>83080855
nah i get you fully bruh that shit sounds horrible, but you seem chill so i wanna friend ya up and lather you in a thick coat of honey

>>83080857
i'll forgive you if you watch the whole series in the span of 2 days,

>>83080888
i can try!!! the fastest i watched something was HxH 2011 in 3 days

>>83080863
I feel no hatred towards those 2 girls I just want to know what made them do that considering they were both telling how much they love me at the start, I let my guard down and showed my vulnerable side to them and I naively believed I finally found someone who loves and accepts me so getting ghosted later really felt I getting hit by a truck.

>>83080870
THeres no point is there No effect. I will remain in stasis my whole life here and nothing will happen no matter my choices or actions, i should just go too sleep for the rest of the year. Maybe a war will start or something.

>>83080906
i'm cryin bruh do you need to include an image everytime you reply to someone i feel as if you'll run out of material eventually

>>83080940
nigga go do smth like come on you can't be witherin in bed all day long. believe in me who believes in you or smth like that. i promise you it gets better eventually

>>83080958
no i have a lot of art of him he's my husband

>>83080918
i hate them because i allowed myself to let them hurt me so i really hate myself

>>83081075
Yeah I get you. I got very depressed after aswell and that made me lose weight which is annoying. I sometimes have 0 appetite all day even tho Im already rly skinnny....

>>83081158
yeah ive started eating less too because of how much i sleep
it's really easy to spiral ugh

>>83081328
yeah I also sleep a lot and my sleep schedule is really fucked up

>>83081352
sleeping all day is so fun but i feel so miserable after it sucks

>>83081575
I feel awful too but I can't stop cause thats best way I can cope with being an antiscoial, friendless, weak, malnourished looking skinny boy

>>83081676
you're so me. sleeping is easier than thinking or cutting these days

>>83081965
Yeah, the only thing that keeps me from ending it is the faint hope of finding a girl who will love me for who I am, I don't care about friends or earning money if I just found one special person I would dedicate my life to them

>>83081965
holy shit b you cut yourself?

>>83082150
literally same. I just need someone who cares about me and actually loves me, then ill have a reason to live

>>83082244
not deep enough to bleed. I just use scissors cuz it hurts. if i left marks then people would find out

>>83082261
fuck you fuck you fuck you im falling in love with you

>>83082261
wow you're actually just like me I use scissors too for the same reason

>>83078250
please be in europe

>>83082768
why im a pathetic loser with no good qualities

>>83082791
it feels nice and no one can stop me because there's no proof it happened <3

>>83078250
>autistic
Check
>depressed
Check
>twinks
Fucking God damnit.

>>83083327
>good qualities
good or bad is relative
whatever the fuck you've got, i want to feel it with you

>>83083336
yeah exactly it also feels nicer to use

>>83083380
you can add me ig
vasilijia on disc

>>83083438
yah the dull dragging feels really really good on my skin
feels more like torture

>>83083472
no ;)
because i'm already in your contacts...

>>83083481
which one
ive added a lot of people
you better not have ghosted me

>>83083494
why would I ghost you?