Thread 12366042

I discovered not too long ago I may likely be schizoid, psychologist confirmed I definitely do have a schizoid themed personality and tendencies, but I know that its not the answer for everything.

I still can't explain the reasoning behind the fabrications of people in my head that to me, are very real. They're friends and family. And I'm tired of feeling ashamed about it all the time.

Is there any reasonable cause for this at all? Or am I actually just a loser. Just wish I had answers, but the more you differ from the average, the harder they are to get. Goddamn impossible.

when i read the wikipedia aricle for shizoism it is me it is literally me nothing has ever described me so well except thjere is nothing i excel at LOL LIFE FAILED LIFE FAILED

you are not a loser nor a schizoid whatever it means. psychologists are a scam literal parasytes. go achieve ur goals anonymous

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>>12366042 (OP)
i gave up asking myself question i will never have an answer about but it sometimes still make me angry if im honest, just live your life and try to be a good person

>>12366042 (OP)
i'm also a psychologist with decades of experience and your case falls undoubtedly under the category of being a stupid faggot

>>12366042 (OP)
thez are going to give zou anzthing they can especiallz if zou ask for it

>>12366058
Nothing you write makes sense retard. Learn English

>>12366098
for you

>>12366042 (OP)
I'm a diagnosed schizoid. Shit sucks. I only have one real friend.
What I found as help is turning my inside world into art. Drawings, paintings and especially writings, I wrote both short stories and complete novels.
I also painted several pictures and currently practicing digital drawing because its cheaper, but imo harder.
You can get on neetbux for it if you're as dysfunctional as I am, your psychologist will probably help with that too, so you don't have to interact with the outside world.
Start making art and eventually you will accept it. At least, it worked for me.
Good luck fren. I hope you will achieve greatness.

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>>12366123
Thanks, I do make art. Making money is incredibly difficult due to other outside and inside factors, so I've considered drawing for money, but don't really feel confident in my abilities. Hope I can get over it.

>>12366131
Then what I recommend is to get on neetbux and spend most of your free time on making art. Maybe make a patreon, and post your art there. Probably you won't get enough if you don't take commissions but its still more than nothing.
Also, don't take meds. I was on antipsychotics for a few months and they definitely don't help with personality disorders. Only makes it worse.

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>>12366055
Psychiatrists and psychoanalysts are the scammers, not psychologists. Psychologists only study the brain whereas the other two claim they already how it works and/or are capable of fixing one.

>>12366042 (OP)
it was the way you coped with trauma and survived. at least, I'm certain that's how I got mine. you might find some answers if you read about other people's experiences in the subreddit

>>12366294
true

>>12366123
this is good advice. i love to draw and write. i wonder if i will ever achieve anything with my art that i'm actually proud of but i know i am the only one getting in my way. so that is my problem.
i relate to pretty much everything i have read about schizoid personality disorder, though i hate psychiatry and do not want to have another diagnosis nor do i want the risk of getting put in a psych ward for telling a medical professional about my schizoid behaviors and thinking.
i do like the idea of understanding myself better, and the idea that everything fits in a neat little box, but brains do not really work that way. so i've shied away from the schizoid label even though it is probably the one that holistically represents me.

besides autism. LOLE

sorry for sperging out

>>12366140
>Then what I recommend is to get on neetbux
Easier said than done. Parents aren't supportive of the idea and I doubt I would be able to afford my own place with neetbux. I live in canada, theres a housing crisis right now and its expensive as shit.
Might be stuck here.

>>12366456
>I live in canada
so we know what's the source of all your problems
dogshit depressing country on its way down

>>12366460
the calgary stampede starts this week, canada is going all the way up babey

>>12366460
Will I really just have to kill myself?
Its not really that upsetting to me if true, maybe just disappointing.

>>12366468
you don't need to kill yourself, just get yourself to the calgary stampede and sit by the bow river eating bannock with saskatoonberry jam watching the hot boys go by

>>12366042 (OP)
did you go willingly to the exam or were you coerced?

>>12366319
Autism and SzPD has a lot in common. Schizoids are kind of like autists on meth.
>i wonder if i will ever achieve anything with my art that i'm actually proud of
Just keep doing it and never stop making them. Some will only be good for practicing, but others will reach through the skies.
As for writing, read as much as you possibly can, and write down anything that comes to your mind, I always keep a document open on my PC for this exact reason. You may never know when comes the best idea, you only realize it later.

>>12366456
You should try talking to them about your issues, I'm sure your psychologist can help you with that too. Its not something that will go away. Also, living with your parents imo is better than living alone, even it feels better to be without anyone.
>>12366468
No, you can always kill yourself tomorrow, so why not live today?

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>>12366977
I can't kill myself tomorrow. I'm going to East Side Marios for dinner.

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>>12367503
I'm op, but east side marios is probably one of my favourite places. I love pasta

>>12366977
>You should try talking to them about your issues, I'm sure your psychologist can help you with that too. Its not something that will go away. Also, living with your parents imo is better than living alone, even it feels better to be without anyone.
Ha, I've tried, they expect me to do everything in my power to push through it, which I am trying to solve this and be a normal wagie, the thing is though, they underestimate how severe the condition is.
Another unfortunate thing, the psychologist I saw.. I find it very hard to believe he's ever worked a day in his goddamn life. I'm lucky to have insurance to cover the very expensive costs, but he could have just given me a bandaid and a slap in the face and it would have been the same as what he left me with after the assessments were over.
It honestly pisses me off just thinking about all the things he's overlooked, best thing I can do is get a second opinion but prompt for therapy FIRST with the individual before asking for an assessment.

>>12366294
no retard psychologists study the psyche which DOESNT EXIST without following the scientific method in any way. its like parrotting the scientific method. they dont know anything. u zoomers are so brainfucked by these modern sciamans its bewildering.

the BRAIN is studied by neurobiologists and neurologists study how to cure related illnesses

>>12368961
What about neuropsychology?

>>12368977
probably the least bullshit branch of psychology bc people in it realized psychology is bullshit during their Bsc and Mscs (probably the brightest of the field). they tried to run away from it. its still a knockoff of neurology

>>12368991
I read a book about neuropsychopharmacology once and it seemed solidly based in facts.

>>12368998
why would i trust what a 15yo say though? name the facts and ill judge them by myself

>>12368977
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>>12366042 (OP)
You're lying.

>>12369003
are the 15 year olds in the room with us right now?

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I just want to know and get solutions for whats wrong with me, where am I supposed to go

You're just different to the norm, and thats ok
Bee you'reself

>>12370919
The only thing I care about under the umbrella of 'being different' is the fact that the more you differentiate from the average, the harder life is for you.

>>12366311
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>>12371195
What's your conclusion regarding schizoid? Is it a diagnosis, something you're exploring, or something else?

>>12366977
dub

>>12366100
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>>12373455
You stole mine

>>12372293
I've done a lot of exploring and a psychologist I was seeing said that I had a schizoid themed personality (I'm not 100% sure I should take his word for anything he said though because he overlooked a bunch of stuff and basically did jack shit and got a ton of money for it but I wont go too deep into that bullshit)
I suspect now recently that it may be more schizotypal than schizoid or a little bit of both. I'm trying my best to get support/ a proper diagnostic for this and possible treatments.
I've been doing a lot of my own research looking at the dsm book because it feels like everyone around me has been letting me down a lot recently.

My mother once told me that people who have more niche issues eventually have to end up becoming their own doctors in a way, carve their own path. It makes sense. The less you differentiate from the average, the harder is it to get support, because nobody knows how to help you.
I just got a bad draw of cards.