I wake up daily wanting to kill myself
and everything im forced to deal with in each passing second only exacerbates that
I should know better and Iโve spent everything trying to convince myself otherwise
But my mind/body wonโt let me
Iโm at a breaking point
Iโm actually gay
I hope you can find mental health, maybe you should leave the internet for a while, I did and I feel slightly better, I hope that works for you
>>12446200I canโt itโs lonely
I started recording again and it only made everything worse
>>12446208Sadly
I hope you get better someday, and anyone reading this can feel better too.
>>12446222Thanks moloko, and sorry youโre back here
I managed to cry about it and I think thatโs all there is left for me to do about anything at all
You just need to stop being a little bitch
>>12446250how?
im not about to try and prove myself to anyone anymore and it took the entirety of my life to realize that
>>12446339yeah I know
>>12446373yup Iโve been spit on before too
>>12446332done trying to make things pretty
>>12446381then leave bro no one wants to hear ur sob story wrong damn board u can circlejerk with ur depressed groupies on discord
>>12446384yeah sorry for not tryna ragebait u bruh
I've become immensely disappointed in drawing.
the last drawing i drew was boring as hell
this here
>>12446398I liek that one
Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
I see drawings made by people like you and get immensely jealous. DAMMIT. Why can't i have the drive to keep going.
>>12446194 (OP)copy and paste depressed teenager who needs to constantly talk about how depressed they are and want everyone to talk about them constantly
fuck off
where do you get source material for copying?
>>12446411>>12446400>>12446200dubs in the horrible attention seeker thread
>>12446222trips in the horrible attention seeker thread!
what a disappointing waste
Your fortune: Outlook good
>>12446400and then i drew her again in mario paint
>>12446419beary niceu
Your fortune: Better not tell you now
>>12446411we'll have to copy Magical Girl Spec-Ops Asuka.
>>12446398who is she? Feel like I seen her before. Bury nice!
>>12446397immense disappointment is everything unfortunately, but itโs not like we have any other choice in anything
>>12446398itโs nice, keep going
I force myself too
>>12446403itโll find its way to you as it does for everyone
>>12446419thatโs dope
there was this nigga who also drew but i wonder what happened to him
It's okay to feel bad.
You might feel bad most of the time so it's important to do shit you need to
do even when you're deep in despair or desparate for relief from the passing moments intensity.
That's life. People will sell you a million ways to fix things, erase the pain, "heal from it", but that's all bullshit.
You have to carry your weight and it's unpleasant. Nothing can change that.
It's just learning to get stronger from it so it's less in the front of your mind.
Keep busy, challenge your mind, don't let your hands be idle. That's how you lessen the pain.
You can complicate anything, make anything seem unreasonable and pointless, but you don't live in the past or the future.
You live right now until you don't live anymore so none of that shit matters.
Right now is what matters. You can make shit worse or you can make it better. There's inbetween.
There's lame bullshit you need to do and you're not going to like it. You need to work your mind or it goes sour.
You need to work out your body or it begins to rot.
You have to find a way to make money, this world runs on it and if you don't have it shit will get a lot darker than it is now.
Start slow, start small, keep consistent. Do five squats a day, read a chapter of a book, write a page of something, take notes
in a five or ten minute math video. Those little things add up. Maybe in a few weeks you'll want to do ten squats, read a little more,
write and learn a little more. If not that's fine too. Just do it everyday. It's easy when it's easy. Build up in small chunks.
You have to get a callous to do that shit when it's hard. Anyone can do shit when it's easy. Life isn't easy and when is it doesn't last.
You can't count on anyone, you have to be the person that is the leader of your life. There's no choice, you have to do that.
Don't be a shitty leader. It'll only make shit worse.
Your life will get harder and it will hurt, you need to toughen up. Everyone has to do all this shit and you're no different.
niggerpression and potentially undiagnosed ADHD makes me not want to draw (I'm still pushing myself to get through drawabox every few days tho)
Your fortune: Godly Luck
>>12447131unfortunately commiserating will make it worse
Every day I wake up I want to die but that's fucking gay so I'll never do it lol
Your fortune: Excellent Luck
>>12448180Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem
Ir I could go back in time I would tell all those kids that is temporary and don't..fuck I'm crying
Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
>>12446194 (OP)me me me me i myself me i i i me me me my my myself i i i me me myself i'm i'm me me me
>>12448186every fuckin namefag every fuckin time
By the way, it's up to you to give a fuck about life.
https://youtu.be/c7B97fdmNRw?si=svIXgTBZA0eHFlGU
Your fortune: ๏ฝท๏พโโโโโโ(๏พโ๏พ)โโโโโโ !!!!
Your fortune: Outlook good
>>12448184>and then i drew her again in mario paintawwwww fatfish we looooooooooove youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
>>12446200I wouldn't have thought you would bring up randy. he doesn't have that "cool, alt appeal" that ur other selections do. people treat randy like a lolcow, but I'm fond of him a lot for making such intimate entertaining and comfy videos. I enjoyed hearing him complain about his life and try to put the pieces together on where things went wrong. his afterlife scenario is very poetic and moving to me as someone that relates to growing up shaped by cartoons on tv. going through randy deep dive in the winter alone was very comfy and appealing. he put so much of himself out there that it's like by the end you're saying goodbye to a good friend.
>>12446194 (OP)WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DON'T BE AFRAID TO ADMIT THESE THOUGHTS AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I THOUGHT JUST OFF OP'S IMAGE THAT IT WAS YOU!!!!!!!!!!
>>12448578I love Andrew tbh , I have identified with her
In practically many things or maybe everything, I really hope everyone finds some kind of peace.
>>12448186wow check out this selfless egoless esoteric wise poster whoโs escaped the cycle of samsara and doesnโt have to refer to themselves in any manner
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IreKVO4RVfY
Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger
>>12449533ใใผใฝใใฏในใใๅใ็ป่งใซๅ
ฅใใชใwwwwwww
Your fortune: Godly Luck
itโs all my fault since thatโs all it ever is
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