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- No.12446194 >>12446339 >>12446401 >>12446404 >>12446570 >>12447131 >>12448186 >>12448581 >>12449195 >>12449774 >>12450323 >>12451369 >>12453820 >>12454838
I wake up daily wanting to kill myself
and everything im forced to deal with in each passing second only exacerbates that
I should know better and I’ve spent everything trying to convince myself otherwise
But my mind/body won’t let me
I’m at a breaking point
I’m actually gay
Moloko No.12446200 >>12446208 >>12446417 >>12448578
I hope you can find mental health, maybe you should leave the internet for a while, I did and I feel slightly better, I hope that works for you
- No.12446208 >>12446222
>>12446200
I can’t it’s lonely

I started recording again and it only made everything worse
Moloko No.12446222 >>12446244 >>12446417
>>12446208
Sadly

I hope you get better someday, and anyone reading this can feel better too.
- No.12446244 >>12446302
>>12446222
Thanks moloko, and sorry you’re back here

I managed to cry about it and I think that’s all there is left for me to do about anything at all
Anonymous No.12446250 >>12446296
You just need to stop being a little bitch
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>>12446250
how?
im not about to try and prove myself to anyone anymore and it took the entirety of my life to realize that
Moloko No.12446302 >>12447579
>>12446244[dubs]

I like being here
Anonymous No.12446332 >>12446381
Anonymous No.12446339 >>12446381
>>12446194 (OP)
>>>/r9k/
Anonymous No.12446373 >>12446381
- No.12446381 >>12446384
>>12446339
yeah I know
>>12446373
yup I’ve been spit on before too
>>12446332
done trying to make things pretty
Anonymous No.12446384 >>12446386
>>12446381
then leave bro no one wants to hear ur sob story wrong damn board u can circlejerk with ur depressed groupies on discord
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>>12446384
yeah sorry for not tryna ragebait u bruh
Anonymous No.12446397 >>12446460
I've become immensely disappointed in drawing.
Anonymous No.12446398 >>12446400 >>12446451 >>12446460
the last drawing i drew was boring as hell
this here
Anonymous No.12446400 >>12446417 >>12446419
>>12446398
I liek that one

Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12446401
>>12446194 (OP)
Anonymous No.12446403 >>12446460
I see drawings made by people like you and get immensely jealous. DAMMIT. Why can't i have the drive to keep going.
Anonymous No.12446404
>>12446194 (OP)
copy and paste depressed teenager who needs to constantly talk about how depressed they are and want everyone to talk about them constantly

fuck off
Anonymous No.12446411 >>12446417 >>12446444
where do you get source material for copying?
wl4f No.12446417
>>12446411
>>12446400
>>12446200
dubs in the horrible attention seeker thread
>>12446222
trips in the horrible attention seeker thread!
what a disappointing waste

Your fortune: Outlook good
Anonymous No.12446419 >>12446435 >>12446460
>>12446400
and then i drew her again in mario paint
Anonymous No.12446435
>>12446419
beary niceu

Your fortune: Better not tell you now
Anonymous No.12446444
>>12446411
we'll have to copy Magical Girl Spec-Ops Asuka.
Anonymous No.12446451
>>12446398
who is she? Feel like I seen her before. Bury nice!
Anonymous No.12446452
let's copy
Anonymous No.12446454
some hooker
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- No.12446460
>>12446397
immense disappointment is everything unfortunately, but it’s not like we have any other choice in anything
>>12446398
it’s nice, keep going
I force myself too
>>12446403
it’ll find its way to you as it does for everyone
>>12446419
that’s dope
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Anonymous No.12446514
some broad
Anonymous No.12446518 >>12446529
there was this nigga who also drew but i wonder what happened to him
Anonymous No.12446529
>>12446518
lole fail

Your fortune: Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12446547 >>12446633
It's okay to feel bad.
You might feel bad most of the time so it's important to do shit you need to
do even when you're deep in despair or desparate for relief from the passing moments intensity.
That's life. People will sell you a million ways to fix things, erase the pain, "heal from it", but that's all bullshit.
You have to carry your weight and it's unpleasant. Nothing can change that.
It's just learning to get stronger from it so it's less in the front of your mind.
Keep busy, challenge your mind, don't let your hands be idle. That's how you lessen the pain.
You can complicate anything, make anything seem unreasonable and pointless, but you don't live in the past or the future.
You live right now until you don't live anymore so none of that shit matters.
Right now is what matters. You can make shit worse or you can make it better. There's inbetween.
There's lame bullshit you need to do and you're not going to like it. You need to work your mind or it goes sour.
You need to work out your body or it begins to rot.
You have to find a way to make money, this world runs on it and if you don't have it shit will get a lot darker than it is now.
Start slow, start small, keep consistent. Do five squats a day, read a chapter of a book, write a page of something, take notes
in a five or ten minute math video. Those little things add up. Maybe in a few weeks you'll want to do ten squats, read a little more,
write and learn a little more. If not that's fine too. Just do it everyday. It's easy when it's easy. Build up in small chunks.
You have to get a callous to do that shit when it's hard. Anyone can do shit when it's easy. Life isn't easy and when is it doesn't last.
You can't count on anyone, you have to be the person that is the leader of your life. There's no choice, you have to do that.
Don't be a shitty leader. It'll only make shit worse.
Your life will get harder and it will hurt, you need to toughen up. Everyone has to do all this shit and you're no different.
Anonymous No.12446556
Now, let us draw more.
Anonymous No.12446570
>>12446194 (OP)
<3
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>>12446547
bait

u don’t know me
Anonymous No.12446665 >>12447027
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Anonymous No.12446697 >>12447027
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not furfagmaster No.12446723 >>12447027
niggerpression and potentially undiagnosed ADHD makes me not want to draw (I'm still pushing myself to get through drawabox every few days tho)

Your fortune: Godly Luck
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>>12446665
cute
>>12446697
saved
>>12446723
dang ur getting good
Anonymous No.12447131 >>12447200
>>12446194 (OP)
I feel the same way too
- No.12447200
>>12447131
unfortunately commiserating will make it worse
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- No.12447579
>>12446302
take care of urself
Anonymous No.12447682 >>12448163
Anonymous No.12448163 >>12451645
>>12447682

Your fortune: Godly Luck
Catfish No.12448180 >>12448184
Every day I wake up I want to die but that's fucking gay so I'll never do it lol

Your fortune: Excellent Luck
Catfish No.12448184 >>12448578
>>12448180
Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem

Ir I could go back in time I would tell all those kids that is temporary and don't..fuck I'm crying

Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12448186 >>12448219 >>12449109
>>12446194 (OP)
me me me me i myself me i i i me me me my my myself i i i me me myself i'm i'm me me me
Anonymous No.12448219
>>12448186
every fuckin namefag every fuckin time
Catfish No.12448228
By the way, it's up to you to give a fuck about life.

https://youtu.be/c7B97fdmNRw?si=svIXgTBZA0eHFlGU

Your fortune: キタ━━━━━━(οΎŸβˆ€οΎŸ)━━━━━━ !!!!
Anonymous No.12448301 >>12454666
Your fortune: Outlook good
Anonymous No.12448578 >>12449008
>>12448184
>and then i drew her again in mario paint
awwwww fatfish we looooooooooove youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

>>12446200
I wouldn't have thought you would bring up randy. he doesn't have that "cool, alt appeal" that ur other selections do. people treat randy like a lolcow, but I'm fond of him a lot for making such intimate entertaining and comfy videos. I enjoyed hearing him complain about his life and try to put the pieces together on where things went wrong. his afterlife scenario is very poetic and moving to me as someone that relates to growing up shaped by cartoons on tv. going through randy deep dive in the winter alone was very comfy and appealing. he put so much of himself out there that it's like by the end you're saying goodbye to a good friend.
Anonymous No.12448581
>>12446194 (OP)
WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DON'T BE AFRAID TO ADMIT THESE THOUGHTS AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I THOUGHT JUST OFF OP'S IMAGE THAT IT WAS YOU!!!!!!!!!!
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Moloko No.12449008
>>12448578
I love Andrew tbh , I have identified with her

In practically many things or maybe everything, I really hope everyone finds some kind of peace.
- No.12449109
>>12448186
wow check out this selfless egoless esoteric wise poster who’s escaped the cycle of samsara and doesn’t have to refer to themselves in any manner
Anonymous No.12449144 >>12449164
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>>12449144
wow
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Anonymous No.12449195 >>12449388
>>12446194 (OP)
i feel you.
Anonymous No.12449382 >>12449388
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IreKVO4RVfY

Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger
- No.12449388
>>12449195
yfm
>>12449382
:D
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Anonymous No.12449533 >>12449535
Your fortune: Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12449535 >>12451300
>>12449533
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Your fortune: Godly Luck
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- No.12449650
it’s all my fault since that’s all it ever is
- No.12449773 >>12449780
lying to myself
Anonymous No.12449774 >>12449777
>>12446194 (OP)
I am sorry that you are going through this right now, I've been there too, trust me you can get through it
- No.12449777
>>12449774
thanks idk how u do it
Anonymous No.12449780
>>12449773
about what
- No.12449870
that’s so funny
I am literally about to crash the fuck out like I haven’t spent the entirety of my life doing exactly that
Whoever swatted me u should’ve told them niggas to just fucking kill me nigga the fuck
- No.12449939
nah fuck u
- No.12449950
now y’all fat shaming me too
- No.12449955
im the lame one per usual lol
- No.12449969
I fucking hate u fucking people
- No.12449975
I say im at a breaking point when I’ve been broken for how long now
Anonymous No.12449988 >>12450008 >>12451296 >>12451373
nigga u gay
- No.12450004 >>12450813
I want to laugh at someone more miserable than I am just to know what u feel like laughing at me
- No.12450008
>>12449988
Aye yuh im a fat shameless ugly tryhard incel pretentious faggot tell me more as a matter of fact just kill me over it
Anonymous No.12450285 >>12450809
Anonymous No.12450323
>>12446194 (OP)
>I should know better and Ive spent everything trying to convince myself otherwise
This is not a healthy way to live your life.
- No.12450809
>>12450285
Lmao
Anonymous No.12450813 >>12450852
>>12450004
what's your discord

Your fortune: Average Luck
Anonymous No.12450848 >>12450961 >>12452406
- No.12450852 >>12450961
>>12450813
irredeeming add me
Anonymous No.12450867
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48Zo30GdXvQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mVNGl-GAUg
Anonymous No.12450886 >>12450961
Anonymous No.12450949 >>12450961
last piece i did that i enjoyed, i'll have to be consistent again.
- No.12450961
>>12450852
Lmfao
>>12450848
>>12450886
>>12450949
these are actually sick as fuck
- No.12451069
https://youtu.be/64YmnJMtEzQ?si=6iMpUuYUJIF3qVjO
Anonymous No.12451139
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgQlM2cT6Rw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6iD0Wo5J9Y
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDN5PD00CpQ

Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12451161 >>12451260
It was the LAMENT OF INNOCENCE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZLRnQqEyt0

Your fortune: Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12451254
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbYWxROQb4I

Your fortune: Bad Luck
Anonymous No.12451260
>>12451161
An Empty Tome.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UImoQhzaOJk

Your fortune: Better not tell you now
Anonymous No.12451289
ARABIAN NIGHTS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gktJi8lXtMc
Anonymous No.12451291
Not sure what to do
Anonymous No.12451296
>>12449988
Gloomy boi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYzSfLWhAek
Anonymous No.12451300
>>12449535
をラジン

Your fortune: キタ━━━━━━(οΎŸβˆ€οΎŸ)━━━━━━ !!!!
Anonymous No.12451369
>>12446194 (OP)
Cute and real
Anonymous No.12451373
>>12449988
trible dubse
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Anonymous No.12451638 >>12452332
Sonic Penis Advance & Chu Chu Rocket.
Anonymous No.12451645
>>12448163
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>>12451638
Who
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Moloko No.12452406
>>12450848
I just want fuck military girls
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- No.12452616
I did everything I could just for it to turn out like this?
Every passing day is a new low
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- No.12452660
If ppl only like u bc of monetary/social media numbers I don’t think I want to associate w u anyways
- No.12452759
an appeal to what now
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- No.12452778 >>12452836 >>12452983
people only like you if they can see that others like you lol
Anonymous No.12452836 >>12452907
>>12452778
I've been trying to kill myself for years and still here, it's been a little over a year now.
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- No.12452907
>>12452836
unfortunately it’s the same thing with everyone
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Anonymous No.12452983
>>12452778
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6pRGNMSiQqc

Your fortune: Bad Luck
- No.12452988
stay loyal to your man won’t you
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GET SMOKED!
Anonymous No.12453040
I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS I HATE NIGGERS
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Anonymous No.12453050
clean it up janny
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- No.12453060
im just another loser online bitching over his nonsensical delusions
Anonymous No.12453062
poop and niggers dying
- No.12453067
It took the squad this long for that
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- No.12453120
yeah sorry for even trying
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there
Anonymous No.12453176
- No.12453182 >>12453197
Ouch
Anonymous No.12453197 >>12453211
>>12453182
- No.12453211 >>12453215
>>12453197
Bc u def have it worse
Anonymous No.12453215 >>12453243
>>12453211
no my nigga, i deliberately had my mentor redline it for me so i can get the character on model so there is no le mogging if that is what you were thinking, i asked for his help to touch it up a bit and give me a few pointers on the drawing im working on (the one above yours)
Anonymous No.12453224
now we must take a break
- No.12453243
>>12453215
Everything isn’t supposed to be the same proportion
It looks fine to me
Anonymous No.12453255
>Error: Our system thinks your post is spam. >Please reformat and try again.
that is because i wanted to reply to the gore/qa spam in this thread.....
well done mods, i hope this site gets nuked out of existance
Anonymous No.12453311 >>12455014 >>12455025
Your fortune: Excellent Luck
Anonymous No.12453352 >>12453405
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8AMZmWqgRM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKOcfZtKvYQ
Anonymous No.12453366
Your fortune: Godly Luck
Anonymous No.12453380
They SMILE IN YOUR FACE all the time they wanna take your place, the back stabbers. BACK STABBERS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcAt3le3oas
Anonymous No.12453405
>>12453352
why dont you just kill yourself?

a chat on 4chan
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Your fortune: οΌˆγ€€Β΄_ゝ`οΌ‰οΎŒο½°οΎ
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:3
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Your fortune: Reply hazy, try again
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here is no, "rest of it"
is there? there is, isn't there
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Anonymous No.12453820 >>12453857
>>12446194 (OP)
Same here man, its a shame we're all here, i really don't know what to do either
Anonymous No.12453836
- No.12453857
>>12453820
I’m still failing everytime
10^28 No.12453863
Maybe you should go to a psychologist?
- No.12453885
no, I know what’s wrong, im too short fat and unpopular, like being associated w me is social seppuku
and everything I do is cringe tryhard jank
Catfish No.12453887
You have the same face as cobra fps lol pls shave

Your fortune: Good Luck
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c'mere i'm gonna eat 'cha
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Democracy, uh Manifest.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mn77gzjBl1U
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Ganja
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Anonymous No.12454648 >>12454666
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>>12454648
>>12448301
Anonymous No.12454838
>>12446194 (OP)
fag
Anonymous No.12454967
Act 1 boss
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W2rN7ivfjzU
Endless mines
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Fv1ae8e5AI
Another part of me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEEzpahlcAw
Digital Manual.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGzmJvqQHkA

Your fortune: キタ━━━━━━(οΎŸβˆ€οΎŸ)━━━━━━ !!!!
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnP87yU-9pk
Anonymous No.12455014
>>12453311
do they stank
Anonymous No.12455019 >>12455115
SonicN.
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>>12453311
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>>12454633
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>>12455019
Anonymous No.12455118 >>12455652
Your fortune: Average Luck
- No.12455128
Imagine being actively rejected by all the taken girls you’ve mused over
And nothing ever came about from anything you’ve ever created (it all flopped)
niggas can’t even mercy kill me like the fuck
- No.12455133
I have no reason to draw or record
Anonymous No.12455156 >>12455426
uh, yeah motherfucka

Your fortune: Good news will come to you by mail
Anonymous No.12455169
>I’m actually gay

hmm. Maybe i know how you will want to not kill yourself
- No.12455196
everything points to me being an unwanted broke loser and my hearts not in it anymore so im more than entitled to just quit
Anonymous No.12455198 >>12455218
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQVYQtpV2MM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qy-RMnxxoGg
Anonymous No.12455218 >>12455221
>>12455198
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gh32mOGvNSA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6p9AMLhalXk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otoDW1M5Wsc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cOYsQcZhBEQ
THIS IS A RADIO MESSAGE
TO MY
BABEH
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=isUevnE0GyI
Anonymous No.12455221 >>12455229 >>12455300
>>12455218
is this the secret radio
Anonymous No.12455229
WACKY CLERKBENCH
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIqXq4ycXJA
>>12455221
Yes
Anonymous No.12455233 >>12455237
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJAzPmaRv9I
WACKY BERKWENCH G mix
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izAtaijcXj4
doctor dooooooom
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VISC0BSUdQI

Your fortune: οΌˆγ€€Β΄_ゝ`οΌ‰οΎŒο½°οΎ
Anonymous No.12455237
>>12455233
DOOM??
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8clv2G1E2w
Anonymous No.12455300
>>12455221
Penis limits
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eeZK3-NNTcY
Anonymous No.12455420 >>12455607
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>>12455156
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Red Mountain Red Hot Skull Crying World.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4UCNcCPQCA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NiIlFV36s6E
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Genocide City Zone.
Anonymous No.12455607
>>12455420
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_u0B75HpMl8

Your fortune: οΌˆγ€€Β΄_ゝ`οΌ‰οΎŒο½°οΎ
Anonymous No.12455652
>>12455118
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgRrPAkNTrY

Your fortune: Bad Luck
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