Thread 12491846

i have a problem everytime i try and date someone, i've always liked the thought of people being scared of me but i always pushed it off as me just being a little sadistic but more recently i've began to really act messed up with my ex boyfriends. i'll start being rude to them and push them away, degrade them and overall be a bitch because i like seeing them sad and depressed, but i cant stop it's just so fun and entertaining for some reason. i seriously think im some kinda huge sadist now and idk what to do, just knowing i can bring pain to someone while they still love me and are attached to me is so endearing in my head, but it's not like i'm just being rude all the time i'll actually act like a decent girlfriend but then go back to being a bitch. i can't help how fun it is to toy with people's emotions. yeah i'm actually a sicko and i'm getting away with it

your problem is youre a boring stupid bitch and should shut the fuck up and die

You’re a weird bitch go crawl in a little slut hole and cut yourself to death bitch

>>12491846 (OP)
same tbh

boys like that I think

>>12491931
speaking from experience?

>>12491846 (OP)
You know... have you ever dated a guy who never gave a shit about what you did? That if you tried to pull any sort of shit-testing or sadistic mindgames that he just doesn't care? Maybe he leaves if you pull too many games, or just talks to someone else or, hell, might even cheat if you pull too hard?

Because ultimately the only things that'll ever happen with men you date, should you continue this behavior, is you either push away every single man into such a broken and depressive state he may never recover, or he gets used to your games and it no longer affects him.

And anyhow, is it actually sadism or just narcissism? If you like the idea of acting like a bitch or seeing someone cry is one thing. Specifically getting joy out of being THAT ONE PERSON to make someone else cry could be another entirely. Potentially narcissistic on top of that, since you have to be the one in control and see yourself as, in a way, superior in that sense.

Yeah, seeking therapy might just be the best option if you genuinely want to find something that is stable enough that you can at least tolerate 29 days out of the month without pulling another case.

>and i'm getting away with it
proof that you're at least either a genuine woman or a godlike-passing of a trans, or only ever chose such bottom-of-the-barrel dregs of men that were desperate enough to begin with

>>12491937
no I'm guessing

ugly picture ugly mind

>>12491949
are you guessing because you're a boy who would like that to happen to you

>>12491944
>Specifically getting joy out of being THAT ONE PERSON to make someone else cry could be another entirely.
OP sounds psychopathic

>>12491846 (OP)
tis likely that you will become a christmas cake and die alone after your beauty starts to fade

>>12491960
>The function of sadistic aggression appeared to enhance the psychopath’s grandiosity and omnipotent control over his victims.
>a psychopath’s victims seem to have a symbolic meaning to them, as there was an interpersonal association between them. Indeed, all the sadistic psychopaths’ victims were known to them. They were either partners, family members, friends, or acquaintances. They were people who the sadistic psychopath had an intimate relationship with.
yup

>>12491846 (OP)
>another thread about a mentally ill s4s anon
wow

>>12491846 (OP)
> I think I'm a sadist

I think you're conflating sadism with being a sociopath given the context.

You could also be both! But I think first and foremost sociopath fits the bill.

the vague pseudoscience terms expert

>>12491846 (OP)
this is why we used to burn "witches"

Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger

>>12491846 (OP)
okay flowey the flower

>>12491846 (OP)
This is so fucking me, hell yeah It's an indescribable feeling, it gives me some satisfaction and sometimes I just want to have more boyfriends so they buy me things and then treat them badly until I cheat on them or simply dump them, it's quite comforting

>>12491944
>>12491944
>have you ever dated a guy who never gave a shit about what you did?
never, they all cared one way or another
>might even cheat if you pull too hard?
i always go for the desperate ones because i know they'd never leave despite what i do
>THAT ONE PERSON
not really a specific person but i guess a specific sex, i only find pleasure out of making specifically men sad because i think seeing them cry is the most attractive thing ever
>Potentially narcissistic
maybe but i'm actually a pretty good person in real life and i have decent reputation which is why i said i get away with the things i do since nobody knows about it except the "victim" basically. it's not like i wanna make every person i meet depressed, just a selective few of men that i deem to be pathetic. but something about a man being pathetic is oddly endearing to me
>29 days out of the month without pulling another case.
lol i'm not doing it that often, i'd say maybe a couple times a year

I love getting boyfriends and I am nice to them and then when they let their guard down I ram a metal pipe into their throat

>>12492250
that's basically it but i'll still sometimes be a little nice to them after i shove a metal pipe down their throat. only sometimes