I’m just about 4 years on HRT and only just started girlmoding. so far it’s been awful. some of my coworkers are superficially supportive and use my girl name but only ever call me “he” or “they” aside from the small handful of other mtfs I work with. customers are still exclusively “he” and “sir” despite having a girl name on my name tag. a customer in the drive thru said what a “handsome young man” I was and I almost started crying a bit later. I’ll never be a girl in any way that matters and nobody ACTUALLY, AUTHENTICALLY sees me as one. is there any reason not to just keep taking the HRT for my own sake and go back to presenting as a normal, slightly fruity guy? how hard is it to put this back in the bottle now that it’s been let out?