>used to be autistic about growing cubes
>loved it
>had incubators and everything
>first trip was as heavy as you could get and I was able to enter ego death and experience a fractal world within my mind, even meeting an entity
>made me explore into other substances like LSA and made me more considerate of esotericism
>last trip I did last year fucked me up so bad that I got PTSD due to a panic attack when undergoing ego inflation
>can't do them again due to flashback risk and the possibility of putting my family through further stress in trying to rehabilitate me
It sucks bros. What's another mushroom I can get into cultivating for fun other than cubes?