But how do I overcome being gay? Firstly, to clarify, I'm not a full blown homosexual, I wouldn't really say I'm "attracted to men", and secondly, I'm not just going to "accept" this thing about myself so don't even think about telling me to just "accept it" please.

I firstly, just feel gay, I feel like a week somewhat timid homosexual. Am I really? I don't really think so, but that's how I am.
Secondly, I have debased myself with homosexual behavior before, I've watched gay porn and cucked porn and all sorts of shit, and worse. Never done anything with another person, thank God.
I've thought before that this has fundamentally done harm to my manhood. How could I even call myself a man when I am like this. It's sick, as far as I'm concerned.

What I know I can do firstly, is obviously make efforts to repent of this and put an end to it, no more homosexual activity. What I am looking for advice on however, is how I can make myself a man, and not be debased an defiled. Maybe what I already know to do is what it takes, but in general I need to be more of a man and it has been a long time since I've felt a desire to be masculine or be more of a man. I don't want to be a homoseuxal, I don't want to be weak, and internally timmid and soft like one, which I definitely feel. Afteral no normal well adjusted heterosexual male subject ones self to thoughts or fantasies of sexual submission to a male, I don't think.