>>40411679
>i have severe life ends at 25 brainworms
As a 33 year old I will gladly help pull those.
>and im honestly just anxious that ive pretty much missed out on any opportunity
I think I generally understand where you are coming from. But.. the thing is, that even if it feels like everyone in their 30s is settled down, I look at myself and know that my career won't settle down for another 2-4 years. I still live like a student, that is what life in academia is just like. It sucks. But.. I still make friends in my 30s. I developed wonderful, deep relationships in the past few years. Your efforts will matter. The only difficult thing is finding people, but that is true at most ages, and there we can cook up something actionable for you.
>>40413080
>No matter what I need to find a new job, I can't keep this up anymore.
I mean aren't you basically working on that as we speak with the navy thing? Is it unpaid?
>It's gonna bite me in the ass probably but I just can't deal with being analysed.
To chime in there but.. I understand the inhibition. I really do. And the only thing I can offer is that we strike the deal I mentioned earlier. I have a doc's appointment I need to take care of and am not super comf with as well. We could make each other commit.
>>40415630
>>40415604
Would you be alright expanding upon that?
>>40417584
>I allow myself ni free time
What is your inner reasoning for it?
>executive dysfunction
Hm, do you suffer from adhd or something? Or what do you mean?
>My transition is an utter failure
you mean hrt has not done much, or something else?
>I’m let down by everyone and everyone is annoying or I am annoying to them
I infer there is nobody you are emotionally close enough to to let your guard down?
>Dunno why I’m typing this.
I am glad you do. I really am. You want help, and I think that is a very sensible thing to look for in your situation. Can you try to put the aspects of your life that are stuck into more concrete terms?