>>11332155
i dont know if its normal to be paranoid about disapointing an online KH
i do know however, that putting yourself into situations that cause paranoia or stress is unhealthy.

you are going to have to reconfigure your thought process regarding this aspect of the fetish.
or get an irl KH

Try this. Find an online KH, keep in regular contact with them, spend time with them, form a relationship (even if platonic) with them. Really get to know them
Perhaps after some time, you may begin to want to stay locked for them because of the the bond and the urge to unlock will be overshadowed by the desire to impress them...

other than that... pic rel as a last resort