I took acid earlier and my trip is becoming bad, edgy, anxious and bordering on panic. I've got 10mg of diazepam and 20mg of zopiclone I set up next to me for this reason. But my anxiety is so bad I'm anxious about the pills I'm like holy shit they're just alcohol in pull form they're terrible and brain damaging what are you doing? And those zops are literally Indian pharmaceutical YOU REALLY trust that? Huh? So now my panic is getting worse and my means to end it are getting less accessible. What a terrible position I've put myself in. I'm gonna try watching porn hopefully that helps. Yeah yeah go watch videos of women and men being exploited and degraded for money while you jerk your disgusting cock faggot. And it actually is. Like honestly, my body is pretty tainted like spiritually from my sexual encounters- trans prostitutes women other guys anonymous risky insane shit. I'm oversharing. I do that when I'm nervous.

And the worst part? I brought a qyy of these to flip ideally tonight, brought a test kit for them which they passed, but STILL I can't just out my name/brand on a product like that so need to personally take this drug I hate (I am so fucking neurotic LSD is like rocket fuel for my alphabet soup mental disorders (which are themselves big pharma nonsense that's another topic..)) just so I can sell it and not have people be like hey bro, I'm gonna fucking stab you because you sold me shit acid.