>>213172568
לא עשיתי את זה בתיכון. זה הופך ליותר קל או יותר טוב אחר כך?

>wanted to be a video game developer when I was kid
>see how corrupt the industry is

Phew, dodged a fucking bullet there.

I was smart enough early on to realize that I needed mental help. I was getting bullied at school (getting beaten up and made fun for no reason), and reporting them to the teachers, principals, and school police did nothing. Fighting back did nothing but get me in trouble and make them bully me worse. Going to counceling did nothing. Asking my parents for help did nothing. It was all the same empty platitudes or "you don't need friends".

I am and always have been fully aware of what's causing me to be depressed. I'm lonely and feel unwanted. But nobody ever actually helps me fix the problem that's making me lonely and depressed, all they give me is platitudes, copes and pills.