>>34134374
24 m middle of nowhere

from a mental standpoint, i am absolutely wrecked right now. have been dealing with autism, anxiety and depression all my life, and i feel as if all three are only getting worse and more intense with age.

i'm very stupid and can barely even type out coherent sentences anymore. i used to have many hobbies but it's hard to enjoy anything anymore because of my constant loneliness and hopelessness.

physically, my face is a scarred, deformed mess because of severe acne in my teens. i want to puke every time i look in the mirror. i don't go outside because i don't want people to look at my disgusting face. i'll never receive any sort of affection because of my horrible looking face.

i don't know how to cope with knowing i'll never be able to live a normal life and have fun experiences. i'm at the end of my rope aaa

i'm serious. even though i've dealt with these feelings for most of my life, they usually came in bursts and passed, but i've been feeling this day for months this time and it only gets worse every day and never passes. i don't know what to do anymore. i just want it all to stop and end. my life is empty and meaningless and it'll never get better than this. i have nothing to look forward to and never be able to do the things i want to do because of the place i was born in. i just want everything to stop. i need something to latch onto to, anything right now. i can't take this anymore