>>81703447
yes my level of intensity. i don't think I am the healthiest but I don't really want to change this part of myself. In my scrambled brain, love isn't real unless it is chaotic and overwhelming.

>it somewhat filters shallow people
I totally agree. And I think it applies to relationships beyond romantic. A lot of my normie irl friends would be shocked to learn i browse this board quite frequently and have a lot of friends I have met through anonymous chat websites. But since you can't immediately perceive a person's social value or other materialistic attributes, your connections are a lot more genuine and in-depth. I have no issue with distance in regards to the pursuit of something so precious.

This is also why dating apps simply do not work on me. The anonymized aspect of certain platforms allows me to see the true insides of a person before judging them on rudimentary standards like height and body fat % and social circles. When I had those dating apps (social pressure + curiosity) I would get 1k matches and arab millionaires attempting to buy me. Unsurprisingly, this sort of thing disgusted me deeply.