feeling so oddly indifferent and empty today. i wish i truly didn't care, but it makes me feel down anyway. feeling lonely and pathetic; no friends, losing interest in hobbies, slacking off academically. i crave the comfort of familiarity so badly. having a close friend or a partner that actually cares and wants to be around unlike my own partner, who seems to drift away more each day. i feel like i'll never be able to achieve that sense of
peace and comfort from true friendships and relationships because i'm socially crippled and i hate being around normies but i'm not too interesting myself. ngl this is the least of my problems right now between school, debt, work, health, etc. but idk why it feels so bad right now. some days i spend talking to no one at all, not even messaging. i know i should worry about more important stuff, which is the worst part. i know nothing can fix how i feel so all i want is to get over this but i don't know how and don't even got the will to do anything