I think I’ve developed a newfound anxiety around something specific. Warning it’s kind of an info hazard, if you read it you might start thinking about it too kinda like manually blinking but this is much worse.

I cannot believe my whole life I have never noticed how scary/gross/weird/freaky it is to swallow food. This is not a self conscious about weight thing at all, I wanna gain weight but it just freaks me out and I overthink how to swallow to where I almost forget how to and I hyper focus on it going down my throat and it stresses me out.