>>81921712
The sleeping pills help. Also, this isn't my 'main hobby;' running is.

>>81650876
Puberty was weird for me. I mean sure, I definitely noticed the girls and their tits, but...that's about it. I was more into hentai, fully aware that none of the girls were *actually* interested in me, and this as especially the case when it came to sex. Vicious rumors were spread about me from middle school well throughout high school, cementing that I'd never 'truly' be in a relationship that matters. Though I did have a couple of gfs, but it was really just out of routine; they didn't actually like me, and they were just using me to appear 'normal' to the other kids. Discovered futanari at some point, and just gradually adapted it to my regular consumption, even today.
>so you're gay
can't say that, because gay men don't like me either, and there was one gay guy in high school who regularly (verbally) bullied me about everything, from my clothes to my interests.

Imagine that: straight women don't like you, gay men don't like you, and even transpeople don't look at you. I am the True Incel.