>>40170188
The gender of my partner doesn't matter much. I'm attracted to regressors and people who've been abused. I like comforting people, although sometimes I question what empathy actually means and whether I only like the positive attention it gets me. Doing vulnerable things for people like brushing their teeth or bathing them turns me on much more than penetration, and seeing people cry or hearing them say that being abused felt good gives me the biggest boner ever. I'm a sadist. Not into 24/7 stuff. Got OCD and C-PTSD and sometimes I just let the intrusive thoughts win. I've never told my partner or therapist any of this.