all my life i wanted to embody a cutesy aesthetic but i became a monster. usually im kinda happy if i dont look in the mirror. any tips? im thinking of maybe getting surgery but it's all very bizarre maybe im just mentally ill. im also not even gay or trans.

aging raped my face i used to look cute, i look even worse than this pic its from a year ago

i have to get surgery to change aging related changes, it's satanic

From a cost benefit analysis I shouldn’t become trans since I’m cis and just AGP. But when you see my nasolabial folds and receding hairline I just can’t help it. I can’t be this ugly. I have to fight it. At the cost of having a fake identity and becoming a hated minority? I just look in the mirror and I see pure ugliness (depending on the lighting)