if i didnt have my gf i might actually be dead right now
i hate my fucking life and every aspect of it
i hate everyone
i hate how people like me enough to talk but never enough to hang out
i hate how i put in effort and get none back
i hate how im told nice things but it never materializes
i have a single person that gives an actual fuck about me and shes all i have in this world and i hold onto her and cherish her but its so lonely when shes not around
and still i force myself to behave and not act clingy because i dont want to push her away
but im alone right now and crashing out in my room and crying because of the loneliness
its not like i havent tried
i simply have failed in spite of my efforts