so anyway. I have an ex, who used to be trans, now he's decided to not transition and we broke up (mutually)

at the time while dating him, I id as a lesbian...

Maybe two or three months later I went on to date this guy who reminds me of a videogame character that I'm madly in love with, I took his virginity (one of my best days ngl) he treats me like a princess, like a queen. I love him and I wanna marry him.

I also think hes kinda stupid and annoying and honestly I don't respect him like I should, I keep telling him but its like he doesnt notice and thinks I'm good to him (lack of self respect?)

I wanna marry him anyway. I just wanna be good to him and learn to respect this manchild, (he is good. he just lacks maturity. maybe if I stay with him he'll mature but I don't wanna mother an adult man.)

my ex is now dating a girl I used to like a little but also see as a little sister to this day. and I wanna tell her hes not worth it so bad but also it'd just make me the bitter crazy ex. (which I am. sore looser) and it drives me crazy when I see them together.