Saw some transfems hanging out at an event in college the other night and I felt so hopeful.

I wish I said something, they were so beautiful. But more importantly, I just wanted so badly to be apart of that world. When I saw them I knew in a second, that had I any trans friends of my own I would already have transitioned. I would already be, her. So I suppose, what stopping me from starting now? Why am I still so scared to jump off this cliff, and start living my life on my own terms. Why am I so scared. I don't enjoy being a man but sometimes, its fine. And I didn't always NEED to be a girl, when I was young I really loved "If I were a boy" - beyonce. I would tell my mum "thats like me but if I were a girl". So I know i've always wanted to this to some level, but now that im an adult, why can't I just do it. Why do I hold back.

SHOULD I START TRANSISTIONING!!!?!?