I turned 30 recently and I am still a virgin.

I had a date my parents set up and I got nervous at the last minute and didn’t go. She was 33 years old and was cooking dinner at her house (her parents were gone) and I cancelled at the last minute but I only got nervous once my parents gave me a bottle of wine to bring and it made me panic because alcohol always leads to sex and I felt pressured.

I want to get another date but my dad won’t set another one up.

I have recently started watching videos about performing oral sex on women and how to make it feel good for them so I could attempt to appear like I know what I am doing in bed because my penis is kind of small small (only 4 inches) so that’s why I have to learn how to eat pussy and be good at it

My parents do not want me to vent to them anymore so now I am posting on here to vent