>>712524887
I won't tell you to not kill yourself, though I wouldn't recommend it, but I will tell you to do some research before seriously attempting to do so, there's actually a vast amount of literature focused on suicide and its methods. One of the most complete books on the topic is Suicide and Attempted Suicide: Methods and Consequences by Geo Stone. You can find it for free on Anna's Archive, I would give it a read before actually attempting it.