I took way too much bendryl and apparently the police got called up to my parents cottage and they found me hiding in the anchor well of a boat.

They took me out of the compartment and accused me of doing shrooms and I was super confused. They left after i denied any medical attention.

That night apparently I was running through the woods searching for cops hiding out watching me. They came back this morning and changed their approach complimenting my sweater etc and I broke down sobbing and the officer gave me a hug.

They let me sit in the front of the cruiser and showed me how the sirens work etc. They said they might periodically check on me but i’m worried I should just tell them not to come back since the hospital is going to let me out tonight. The police are still here they want to drive me home but I’m worried I could be getting set up or something. They keep saying I’m not in trouble and I must be so exhausted etc but is this just a trick?

Anyone ever been in this situation? They said I had severe psychosis and hallucinations.

I go into these periods where I become extremely hateful and then calm down. Its like I can either care about nothing or plan a full on hate campaign against somebody and then go to prison and ruin Christmas when the reason why I did it happened months before.

I’ll go back to just not engaging and being docile and then next thing I know I’m calling someone who used to hit me to tell him to kill himself and other obscenities.

I’m a neet because every time I get a job or go to college I usually just end up not going because of how tiring socializing is.

I don’t even actually possess crazy views or desires, I just utilize them to shock people who have wronged me.

I guess TLDR: I get tipped and my tank is on empty. But I never did this stuff to anyone who wasn’t trying to provoke me previously.