I have been for the last three years of my life stuck in the same problems. Every time I try to make an intervention is goes 90% wrong. I've been stuck as an porn addict, not disciplined and I do not see worth in myself from who I am now.

Every time I try to get better it eventually goes wrong. Spiritually and physically. I try to go for the moderate option and it doesn't work and if I try to go for the extreme option I cant stuck with it. I am not begin for mercy, I am asking for help.

I know what must be done but I wont make it. I will try somethings but It will no matter what going to fail.

Please, I am asking this in despair, but please, if you know how to get out of this cycle or you have gotten out of it, please tell me what I need to do. I am tired and I think that I am the only problem in this question. I need to change myself, the one who acts.

I am begging for the way out of this. Please help. Sorry if this is not the place for it.