>>33415349
and so
she announced her marriage and im miserable
i dont want to be i didnt try to like, get weird about it like this and it just came out of nowhere and it's ruined me i cant eat or sleep or do the things i used to do to distract myself or enjoy my time
i can hardly cry and when i do it comes out in spurts and it gives no catharsis
i cant function at all im miserable
its just a streamer getting married but like, she's such a catch and the guy's lucky to get her and i just have no one and nothing and the light has shined on that
i cant enjoy any streams any more and im just wallowing

i dont even know what advice im asking for
i just hurt so much and i cant get away from it
i boot up a game and i shut it down in 5 minutes when i think about nimi
i lay in bed and she comes up
i go to the gym until it doesnt hurt any more and i fail after 5 hours
i cant sleep, im not hungry

sorry i dont really post anything anywhere, i dont chat in streams or post here or anything, i just read, so my writing is shit
actually, looking at it, no one's reading all that
fuck you guys or good luck or whatever