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Accountability is a great motivator, that's why things like accountability buddies help. Check the pastebins for stuff that can help break down larger, overarching plans into tasks you are more likely to actually do. S.M.A.R.T. goals come to mind.
>I'll probably try to make an appointment with an advisor
Excellent! Keep us posted.
>I don't want to have to try to explain why
What is in a parcel should not be visible from the outside, and it is nobody's right to inquire about the contents of your mail.
>I live in an area with so many options to get HRT legitimately
Valid, but you can't do anything other than work on it, right? You can think of it as a band-aid solution until you can get it legitimately. There's nothing wrong with that, right?
>so many telehealth options I could take advantage of that I don't for some reason...
Break it down for me. What would you need to do? Step by step, like I'm 5.
>it feels more "real" and less like I'm faking it or something.
I understand, imposter syndrome and such. At the same time, in my experience
>It's a bit hard to work around the mental block I have internally though.
That is normal, every last one of us has internalized things we shouldn't have. It's quintessentially human. It helps SO much (me at least) to have people tell me things I already know to actually get up and do them. Because rationally knowing and convincing your inner little animal creature that pulls the levers are very different things. As such, maybe this silly trick helps to trick that part of your mind: I, OP of this general, personally grant you permission to interact with people significantly younger than you, and accept being held accountable for that in your stead. Now, go forth!
>2. If I make no choice, then I can't make the wrong choice
A common trap right? Since choosing to do nothing *is* an action.
>3. Doing something is a lot harder than doing nothing
Oh, absolutely. That's why people help each other.