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Being born ugly and then also being a sloppy loser with dead eyes was the reason people had negative reactions to me no matter how polite I acted.
I used to think it was some "I'm the only player among NPC sheep" kinda shit or that I was cursed.
Not really... being ugly and then not taking care of yourself on top of that will result in many frowns, scowls and hate.
Being a pathetic weak spineless fag on top of that is prime prey behavior of course I was abused everywhere...

Kinda sad really all things considered as whenever I worked as a cashier as a student I never hated on the random hobos that showed up every now and then with some insane stench either, while normies scoffed and were offended.
So I always somewhat expected people not to care as much about me either. I at least tried not to smell bad if nothing else.

I also realized long ago that life is mostly if not completely deterministic.
If you observe your thoughts you can find their roots eventually in something outside of yourself.

Genetics, family, environment and how your genetics reacts to these is the way life plays out.
Big sad.