Guys. Guys can we just stop a second? Yes. It's me. Well, one of us. I've made probably 40% of the antinatalist threads on /lit/ in the last 3 or so years. Yes I'm the guy who got "buck broken" by that study and wrote a massive reddit response to it and even emailed the author. I am so deeply entwined in antinatalism that the last few weeks I've been consumed by the drama that Bartkus and his bombing has caused between the efilists, Amanda, Gary, and that weird guy "no efilism" channel. Steve Godfrey I think his name is. He blocked me because I called him out for being a fucking angry weirdo and calling Karim akerma (of all people!) a cunt. And now what do we have this weirdo Norwegian guy what's is name Matti hayry trying reinvent himself as antinatalisms consent arguments founder. And the Marzipan nonsense? Fuck this shit is bizarre. I even paid actual money to subscribe to substack so that I could read a Google translate version of am interview David benatar did in catalan. I'm deep in this rabbit hole I don't know how to get out. Guy we gotta stop. Alright I do a fat line of ket I open up lit and its just the same fuckig thread with like the same 4 people and this thread is like a ditto of the other 297 before it. This has all just been so crazy man. I want to go back to Julio carbrera and smoke cigarettes and heroin in my garage and watch efil blaise videos. And yeah he was problematic. So what. The older inget the more I self reflect the more I see I am just a very seriously mentally unwell person. I don't like this world. I don't like being a human body. I have serious issues, to the point of moral outrage and just deserts when it comes to my infliction of my being in this world, as this body. I dunno where I'm going here Guys I just want antinatalism to be antinatalism again. Not this crazy whatever ivf clinic bombing retard study debate fedora shit it is now. I just don't want anyone to suffer like I have. I don't want my life, for anyone else. That's the root of antinatalism for me guys it's empathy. And I don't know what to do about all the animals man. I mean its horrific. But how do you stop it? With unimaginable violence? I'm talking about the natural world the vegan thing is a no brainer. Maybe I just need to turn my empathy switch off. Have no kidd if my own die quietly and hope that's the end. I hate this world, I regret my own birth so much, being this body, it's horrific. Oh just kill yourself? It will come but realize this is not a solution. Was the dark night a bad movie? Would the solution be to have some guy blast an ar15 round in your face? No.

Of course just while I typed this like 60 babies were born. It's a tsunami. Mostly brown as well. Yeah I'm racist.