>>40065215
>I really want them to become successful and financially independent, so we can seperate ourselves from all of this mess.
>Then slowly try to fix what we can fix.
I think you have a good outlook on that front, yeah.
>I feel like I'm always slipping no matter what I do.
And none of it is your fault. The sooner your surroundings are mopped up the better.
>>40065240
>It always feels like it.
Which is why I am pushing back, yeah. A lot of the things I talk about, what Navy mentioned too, is about self-conditioning. You know we as people are super prone to self deception and sadly the only way to undo it that I know of is basically reverse gaslighting.
>This very hard for me to do.
It is hard. Really damn hard. It's more a training regimen than a thing you can just "turn on". It's a habit to form, and is meant to rob you of those shitty feelings. Emotional detachment will later get in your way, the above has no drawbacks known to me.
>>40064471
I was.. and.. thank you, Anon. I appreciate it. Thank you. You are all so kind to me, and I have so few words to really express it, but: it really helps.
>But if people had been through it, I just need to be more patient with myself.
>Even if it's the hardest thing I can imagine right now.
Healing is such a trial by fire in a way, by God, you are doing as well as could be expected in such a situation. I'm proud of you for fighting this fight. It is hard. This general is dedicated to people like you because it is so hard.
>>40066933
I'm happy to hear that, Anon. In this general we are there for one another. I think that's beautiful. And if you can relate, remember, you are part of that beauty.