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>you never got her contact right?
no. i could maybe get it through friends of friends but that might be too weird. oh well. wouldn't have able to become friends with such little time anyway.
>However, if you ever want to talk about trans stuff, do prod me.
could try, but probably wont get anywhere. At this point it's been 7 years now, going off and on hrt. I think I'm more comfortable just being a guy. There are points where I want to be one, and it feels good and right. If I were to rewrite my post, because I dont even entirely agree with what I wrote, some of it was just passing feelings, keeping the part that I truly feel it would be:
>Also I guess I was upset that I was read as just a dude. I mean, I literally detransitioned, so makes sense, but I could just tell from the interactions. The queer women were sorta uninterested in talking to me it felt like, and the men at the party talked to me with very thick male socialization. It felt like I could just tell they thought of me as any other guy. And I really don't like being a man. I never have. But I don't think transition is right for me either. I just wish I could have been seen for who I am. All of me.
With empasis on me just really disliking make socialization, and always have, and I am envious of how effortless it seems women can make friends with each other, and I wish I was socialized female it feels like my life would have been happier I could have been myself more, and I feel like maybe wouldn't want to die anymore. But in terms of transition, the number onr reason I stopped was because it felt like I was trying to become someone else because I hated myself, rather than just being who I am