>>81651183
there wasn't any moment that was the worst. There was always just a pervading sense of alienation throughout it. I did get lightly bullied a few times though. Like one time I fell from my chair at lunch and a table full of older girls laughed and was like "is the chair ok LOL?" that hurt my feelings, fucking holes.

To see other people have fun and interact and not being able to be a part of that was so alienating and very painful. I used to skip lunch and just lock myself in the bathroom to wait it out.
Also in graduation year the guy who was elected to give the speech decided to comment on what he liked of everyone and he literally skipped only me lol. He also called me soulless one time. But I did have a few friends. Also one of my friends became suicidally depressed for a few years, he made it through though.
>>81651253
i'm also 5'6 manlet
>>81651304
>they were obviously trying to cheer me up but I was so terribly anxious that I couldn't be polite.
I can relate to that (being too anxious to reciprocate even people who are nice to you) It fucking sucks. It's a very helpless feeling.