It's very difficult to be responsible, dignified, to make choices and take responsibility, to keep up appearances and care for how people perceive you. It's quite liberating to imagine losing your human rights, and therefore responsibilities, and simply submitting to orders and never feeling ashamed no matter how shameful you look or act.

That's why I like to imagine the process of losing my freedom to be gradual and start as voluntary, temporary and joyful abandonment of "some" rights, but then become deeper and deeper thanks to manipulation, abuse and pushing my boundaries.