I am extremely socially awkward and mentally ill so I find it amusing in a self-deprecating way (towards myself) and schadenfreude way (towards her) when going on dates with girls. However I am very direct and when I ask her to have kiss or have sex things often go to that. Throughout my entire life I've been extremely isolated, I have only a few close friends, my mother is schizo and I have a very distant emotionless relationship with my father.