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>>40004144
(Sorry, I thought I would wait a little)
> I've got nothing aside "my emotional range isn't shot to shit and I dont want to disassociate from seeing myself”
That sounds reasonable enough as a justification to my ears. I know it’s easy to dismiss personal comfort as “nothing” when society drills into your head that discomfort and emotional responses are worthless excuses for being weak, but in reality that idea is borne from weakness and discomfort itself. Some will always seek to push others to accept discomfort in order to decrease their own.
>contradictions
>expectations
Hmm I think if theres one thing that can help on that front it’s making the people you meet aware of these contradictions early on. It doesnt have to be a long speech or anything, but a few hints and casual mentions here and there are better than nothing. I’m aware that doesnt really solve the issue of not knowing how they’ll react, however. If it’s taking up a lot of space in your mind and causing you anxiety I’d recommend reading up on body language and statistics related to sociology and psychology, to create a mental library of known behavioural patterns to refer to to keep yourself calmer. Being able to fight your own fear with numbers can be quite comforting.