>>40402982
i dont want to
physicists get away with talking about dark matter like its actually real so honestly fuck it

>>40037540
thats fair. then acting normal will make you more normal too. maybe you can appreciate the aesthetics of normalcy? Theres a really good essay by junichiro tanizaki about that called in praise of shadows. might make you appreciate it more? idk. sorry. but i think admiration leads to aspiration leads to aesthetic pursuit and aligning it can be good perhaps.
>>40037542
meds dont stop the development of symptoms. estrogen helped me an extreme amount and my hallucinations went down like 80% and i dont know why. i dont really want to deal with teh side effects and i already have an irreversible drooling side effect from it. id rather just get ect and reroll lol