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Very minor nitpick from a Civit user, and moreso venting about my autism, but I hate the daily buzz use being slapped to my face for wanting to check if someone on my content's reception. It's like money, even if I can afford I hate being "on the red" even for just a day, I hate the mere idea of it.
So i'm sitting here with 4.5k, mostly on my comfort zone, sometimes i'll explore a LoRA I think looks neat, but i'm still a beginner in all but knowing a few Touhou artists I like. Sometimes it looks okay, other times it has potential if I experiment some more, but with high-res cost and other fixes, it quickly adds up and i'm already "done" for the day. Pic sorta related.
That and lacking confidence in my modest needs to be happy clashing versus that little voice that's more ambitious and that i haven't completely shut down, and seeking acceptance from the good will of those who only wish to see me improve. I guess that gives me a microscopic glimpse of what artists go through and that annoying phenomenon of them suddenly deleting everything and disappearing.
Sorry for the wimpy blogpost.