Just graduated college and started a full time job. There's this 40 year old, video gaming, chronically disheveled-looking lawyer with a bit of a rat face, who has been driving the same scratched up red mustang since he was 18, and who I kinda suspect might have some undiagnosed autism, who I'm crazy attracted to for no reason. Like, he's kinda weird and gross but also likeeee, I fr kinda want that autistic man??? I literally did a deep internet search on him and went down a whole rabbit whole and found all of his old family photos and learned all about his childhood, his recent divorce, etc. He has a girlfriend (although it seems like a recent thing and she doesn't seem too impressed with him), but like, I still want himmmmmm. How do I do it? I never used to get any male attention at all, but I've been getting quite a bit in the past year. I'm 22, skinny, and have an objectively nice body despite insecurities about my face.