Do it now

I find Vaginas 99% of repulsive. The only kind I find attractive are puffy innies with a visible clit and minor hair.
Anything else just looks repulsive to me. Im obviously a virgin but for religious reasons and the idea of marrying a girl and then her having a cthulu pussy does linger in my mind at times.

Molly I'm not going to lie, the sex we had was top tier. I would straight up ruin you if given the chance again.
>Captcha G00M T

>>33395165 (OP)
I shot that guy in the back seat with his wife from two floors up. I got off three shots but only hit him with two. I was only trying to protect me and my tribe, from him.

Had a dream my ex was stalking me and I was e-gambling
I might as well make them come true

I love women, but the thought of male disposability makes me genuinely uncomfortable. The opening scene from Saving Private Ryan is one of the few movie scenes that make me feel physically sick, because I see all these young men, no different from you or me, sent into a meat-grinder, into a war that is really not their battle to fight, simply because they are considered expendable. Their dreams, their memories, their talents, all irrelevant. They were expendable.

Women are wonderful, but as far as sheer achievement goes, as a gender they are pretty mediocre overall. Yet it doesn't matter. You can be the most excellent man, a man that towers above the rest as far as talent and achievement goes. You can be a Mozart, a Tesla, a Newton, a Shakespeare, and yet when the boats starts sinking, all that is irrelevant. Women and children first. You last.

I don't judge Robert Carlyle's character in 28 Weeks Later one bit for abandoning his wife. Not one bit. I would have done the same.

last week was rough...but im going to get that money and im going to get that girl. No more feeling bad for myself...its time i get mine.

>tired all the time
>Sleeping 10 hours every day
>Still tired
>Can't even drink coffee because of stomach issue

>>33395171
Kek that sucks anon.

I keep posting this but I'm sp fucking lonely. I keep cutting myself every day because I'm so lonely and want to find a gf. 2 of my friends who I care about won't message me in almsot 2 months and it fucking sucks. :( Things are going okayish in my life but this still hurts. Last time I spoke to one I asked how they were doing adfter being offline for1 month and they were happy I checked in and asked me how I was doing after I replied "Not good but trying" they never responded to me yet. They are a good person but why would they do that? I want to talk to them again but I don't wanna reply first :(

>>33395391
Make no mistake, if people do not respond to you or invite you to things, it's because they do not want to.

>>33395395
Yeah but this person seemed to like me. We would play games together a lot and she even wanted to play me a song on my birthday. Idk why she'd do that. I know she's busy but still...... both this and me being lonely about wanting a gf has led me to self harm again. Cut over my own scars again. They are on my upper shoulders so nobody can see them but at the same time I want to talk to a real friend about it rather than posting here. Might be my last reply for a few hours btw if u or anyone wants to talk more

>>33395408
Please do not cut yourself

>>33395395
Not universally true. Some people are just avoidant by nature, despite really liking tons of people. I should know, I am one myself. I have inadvertantly hurt a lot of people in my past, simply by never responding to texts and invitations.

>>33395414
Thank you anon I do appreciate it. I'm gonna keep trying. I used to do it all the time but stopped and now relapsed. I made a thread about it on /adv/ a week or two ago and learned about eyebrow razors and now I use that daily. I know it's not good and will make more more unlovable so I'm gonna try hard to stop. This will my be my last reply for a few hours anon. Hope everyone in this thread has a great day btw! I know it's rich coming from a self harmer but you do matter <3

>>33395165 (OP)
Being quite above average in every aspect has made me ego go crazy, I feel like I’m just better and smarter than most people because statistically I am.

I can't stop looking down on everyone I know, there is a select few people I actually have respect for and can hold a conversation with without thinking they're fucking retarded.

Watching people self destruct without them realising it's being caused by their own actions is hilarious to me, I don't know how you can be so unaware of your own self.

I come to /adv/ to give out advice in painfully obvious situations, I try and reply in a way that is harsh but true, you don't need someone giving you half baked truths about your situation you need someone there to tell you what you can't see yourself.

>>33395430
Well, you use reddit spacing, so that's at least one area where you are inferior to most posters on this board.

>>33395391
>They are a good person but why would they do that?

The version of this person in your head is an ideal version of that person, not the true version of that person.

There is a million and one reasons why someone won't reply, maybe they've got a lot on their plate, maybe they have ADHD and have forgotten. Maybe they wanted to reply and now it's "too late" in their head and now they don't want to because it would be "weird"

Stop cutting yourself for starters, nobody wants to deal with that shit it's childish and selfish, it will stop people from being your friend in the first place, secondly you need to think higher of yourself. The way you perceive yourself will affect how others perceive you, if you begin to be more confident on the inside you will act more confident on the outside and others will pick up on that.

Message this person right now, ask them if they want to do something with you. Whatever activities you have done together ask them to do one of them, say it would be so nice to see them again and play something with them or talk to them because they're so smart/funny/compliment, people love to love themselves.

In the end it all starts with you. Would you want to hang out with yourself right now? I wouldn't waste the time and energy on someone who is drowning in their own self pity, cutting themselves to see if they can get a shred of attention. Once you fix yourself everything else will fall in to place. It's easier said than done but it can be done, you will thank yourself in the future if you fix yourself otherwise you will continue hating yourself.

Stay safe anon, it all comes from within.

>>33395433
Unfortunately you know what "reddit spacing" is, don't speak to me you lesser being.

I love you Adrijus I wish I knew if you were doing ok. I wish I was not blocked for questioning you too much on email. I want to serve you. Please find me and ruin me. I need you my ambitious king. I worship you remember? Why was I not enough? Even if people say you are evil I still want you.

the way i make that girl blush and smile, even as much as she tries to hide it, you'd think she'd have accepted my friend request by now

oh well

>>33395490
Some women just love the attention, I know a girl who won't respond to me online but when we're IRL she won't get off of me

>>33395165 (OP)
I haven't had a real in person conversation with any human in 3 months the only people ive talked to where relatives and its only been a few words i dont even text people since i lack close friends i feel like im going fucking insane because of this

>>33395494
Join any club.
Problem solved, you probably won't do it because it's too much work.

>>33395490
She is probably very interested in you. Especially if she noticeably fond of you. If you have her phone number, why not try reaching out and asking her out for beverages?

>>33395491
>Some women just love the attention
yea igi, it's just lame is all

i wouldn't have even tried if she didn't autistically talk my ear off about a subject

>>33395497
i have quite literally never joined a club before i wouldnt know where to start irl and in my area the only results that come up by search are sports i dont give a shit about and clubbing

>>33395504
>She is probably very interested in you
i doubt that, she might be busy but she's left me in friend request purgatory on the only thing we can talk through

actually asking for her number might imply more but i'm just trying to be friends for now, there's like a .001% chance we're compatible at all, i'm just kinda slightly surprised based off of her in person reactions and venting

>>33395522
So do some research like a normal human instead of feeling bad for yourself.

YOU and only you are the reason you're lonely.

>sports i dont give a shit about
You don't join a sports club because you love sports, you join a sports club to make friends and strengthen bonds doing a shared activity, are you this retarded irl?

>>33395534
>You don't join a sports club because you love sports
this is why i don't do shit with people

bunch of soft lackadaisical sociopaths looking to fart around and inflate their egos via social circle expansion while i'm here 120% into the subject or activity in mind, trying to both explore the old ways and the new, integrating them and finding out what truly works best and excels, all while pushing myself well beyond what i thought were my limits 'oh he's crazy' YEA AND YOU'RE A FUCKING FAGGOT BITCH ASS KEK WHOS WIFE I COULD MOUNT IN FRONT OF YOU WITH ZERO REPERCUSSIONS

>>33395534
>You don't join a sports club because you love sports
this is why i don't do shit with people

bunch of soft lackadaisical sociopaths looking to fart around and inflate their egos via social circle expansion while i'm here 120% into the subject or activity in mind, trying to both explore the old ways and the new, integrating them and finding out what truly works best and excels, all while pushing myself well beyond what i thought were my limits 'oh he's crazy' YEA AND YOU'RE A FUCKING FAGGOT BITCH ASS C.UCK WHOS WIFE I COULD MOUNT IN FRONT OF YOU WITH ZERO REPERCUSSIONS

>>33395558
This is why you have no friends you stupid fuck.

>>33395558
>while i'm here 120% into the subject or activity in mind
Yet you can't even put 10% in to making friends, good luck with your delusions

>>33395570
>>33395575
there's probably a combined weight of at least 600lbs here

My girlfriend is my best friend in the world and I love her as a person but living with her is agony sometimes. I question if living with just her is agony or if I’m not meant for relationships in general. I don’t cheat, I am communicative and understanding and we get through most of our problems smoothly it’s just that there’s a lot of fucking problems and they’re all petty, unnecessary things. She’s one of those hippy “cool girls” but with that comes the sensitivity and this overwhelming neediness.. maybe it wouldn’t be such a problem if we weren’t stuck at the hip every fucking day. She also needs to get a fucking job, she’s been living with me for almost a year now and is still jobless while I work my ass off.
This morning she said she was awake and was talking to me, so I continued to talk to her and tell her about some issues going on with my mom being sick and she replies WHY DID YOU WAKE ME UP? and I reply “oh I thought you were awake you just said so” and she was apparently sleep talking, and yells again “IT WAS A SIMPLE QUESTION WHY DID YOU WAKE ME UP”
I didn’t say it but I wanted to say bitch!! It’s fucking 12 in the afternoon! You should be up by now man and why the hell are you yelling at me for just trying to fucking talk to you? But I’m not one to escalate things so I just tried to explain to her again why I thought it would have been okay to speak to her in that moment and I didn’t mean to wake her up. Little things like this. Every. Fucking. Day. It’s driving me mad. The apologies will come and things will be “fixed” but honestly this kind of little petty shit is just driving me up a wall and I think I just need space but I’m worried about our future together in general at the moment

>>33395534
So you mean to say that Sports Clubs are not Clubs for Sports?

>>33395430
You posted a photo of fucking Goku on 4chan and you’re bragging about how you think you’re above everyone else?
Check yourself mate.
There will always be someone bigger and better than you. Join an MMA class and get yourself humbled. You sound like a shitty human being.

>>33395601
>There will always be someone bigger and better than you
Thank you Sherlock
>join an MMA class and get yourself humbled.
I've been going for 4 years
>You sound like a shitty human being.
Your point?
>You posted a photo of fucking Goku on 4chan and you’re bragging about how you think you’re above everyone else?
I am tho, statistically above a lot of people

>>33395430
iktf

well above average in just about every area you'd want except for height, there i'm average

read the Bible, stay humble

in the age of constant stream of information, not knowing feels luxurious

>>33395430
I detest people that get their feelings hurt if you say the truth.

>>33395590
She's not going to change

>>33395613
I do need to be more humble.

if you think you hate reddit enough, you don't.
>see a problem not mentioned anywhere else with a certain app
>find a solution
>plebbit is the only place to put it since that's what search engines promote
>write a guide for like 30 minutes, trying to make it clear and concise
>feel proud of myself
>5 minutes later, post is flagged for spam, i'm banned
>ask why
>ummmm this isn't r/funny, and your post looked like spam, and would be totally illegible to Non-English readers
>Non-English readers
>in a fucking subplebbit where it's ENGLISH ONLY
all i wanted to do was help people and i get punished for it by power-tripping jannies

Penelope Picklejuice

>>33395794

>>33395815
How'd he get that nickname?

>>33395450
Well, you're certainly above average as far as being cringe goes, I'll give you that.

>>33395822
magic

>>33395825

What does it mean when your urine starts fizzy but when you finish there's no fizzyness in the bowl? Most of the time when I have carbonated piss it stays like that in the bowl.

I don't really see myself toking up and still uncontrollably screaming at the top of my lungs while my body involuntarily tenses and lurches forward, nonstop screaming that cannot stop until I am no longer physically capable of screaming anymore.

>>33396177
I do birthday parties and weddings

There is only one man that actually interests me.

>>33395165 (OP)
I am tired of rejection, i am tired of getting played on, i am tired of getting cucked, i am tired of trying everything, i am tired of putting my heart and soul into everything i do which no one gives a shit, i am tired of feeling weak, i am tired of seeing myself as ugly, i am tired of everyone and everything

While vacationing in Türkiye, I saw a cute girl who was missing a leg and walking with crutches. She smiled at me, but I was already in the process of looking away because I was embarrassed by my own staring.
Felt awful afterwards because I realised she must induce similar reactions all the time. But I had no way to make up for what I'd just done.

I realized I haven't had a "good year" in a long time, maybe close to a decade, don't know what I'm doing anymore

yes, y-you.
always been you.

"ohhhh looks like your birthday is coming, any plans? : )"

i know you're just trying to be nice but.. i was perfectly fine ignoring my birthday, lady, and hadn't thought about it since the beginning of the month

>>33395165 (OP)
I'm thinking of making a tulpa for myself. My long term goal is to be able to switch with them and let them control the body. Why? I'm lonely. And curious. I wonder if anyone has them here

>>33396519
>I'm thinking of inviting a demon to control my body because i'm lonely

God bless your heart.

Adrijus
I love you
I love you
I love you
I hate Rai
I hate you for loving Rai more than you ever loved me
You are mine not hers
You belong to me I am your mommy
I want to kiss you and stab you at the same time
I want to chain you up in a basement so you never cheat again
I want to fuck you until you are my whore and only my whore

I wish I could email you this message daily.

>>33396519
I tried this but got freaked out when he started flirting with me.

>>33396626
How long did it take for him to appear?

My car was working perfectly today, and now all of a sudden it won't start up

>>33396644
It happened when I was in a fight, I hid in my room and started seeing him, I was trying to for more than a week.

Next time, I'm getting a bag so I don't accidentally put the lights on

>>33395165 (OP)
I think Death Grips is really cool, desu. Despite all the memes and fanbase and fantanofags and all that bullshit, I think they were raw, authentic, real, and dedicated to a specific sound/image/vibe that nobody else captured. And they nailed it. Really admire them for being art for art's sake people in the 2010s. Felt like they stood alone. Still a major inspiration desu

Heh
You dumbass
You liked my pic by mistake, I saw that notification. You panicked and put it away. Don't worry I won't annoy you anymore, that's for certain.

>>33396956
Year of the Snitch is actually my favorite from them, I feel like it is so unapologeticly itself in the most visceral way. That sound is like them reaching their deepest core musically, it’s the darkest depths of what the band is capable of.

I want to love you
And I do
But I can’t give you myself, not again
Does that make sense?

>>33397202
Why not?

>>33397208
Fear, already got burned, too far away, too heavy
But I still cry when you’re not around

I have an online friend, we've met once irl and he's a pretty ok dude but I'm honestly getting kinda tired of the amount of stuff we disagree on. I try not to argue with him only because I don't want to lose another friend.

>>33397263
Fair

>>33397202
No it doesn't. The fear is unfounded. It's just two people being hurt over assumptions of a future pain.

it's over.

Chaos through exposure to incompatible frequencies.

>>33397416
It's more someone's squelch control is busted so the matching signal isn't coming in clear.

>>33397416
Frequencies can be tuned to meet in the middle. You have to listen closely and let yourself feel where to tyrn the knob

>>33397435
Maybe. But I am talking more about taking in signals from the whole spectrum at the same time and them fragmenting each other until nothing but broken pieces remain. No order, no containment, no framework to catalogue it. It needs stillness to settle and sort.

>>33397444
Yes, ideally. But that doesn‘t work if you are catching all the signals simultaneously. Narrowing the bandwidth basically.

>>33397447
This isn't Higurashi. This isn't allegories. This is allowing yourself to breathe in and be enveloped in something larger than you. To find liberation. To find a different kind of peace where it makes sense for other reasons. The pieces are shattered, but only a few need to be rearranged to create the hum again

>>33397466
Well yeah, that’s what I am saying. The stillness, the nothing that is needed to give everything space and time to be arranged correctly again. But I am so restless, I can‘t seem to stand the necessary conditions.

>>33397447
That's what squelch does, it limits background noise so you can focus in. Focusing in on the important things shows an in sync tune. Noise like variations or differences distracts from the beat.

>>33397483
I‘m trying. I guess I am not used to the silence. It makes me uneasy.

>>33397485
Why do you need silence to fix things at all? Just tune out the stuff not important.

>>33397505
Because I already piled on too much over the years and I need time to go through all of that first before letting even more in. And also because so many things seem important. Just overwhelmed.

>>33395165 (OP)
Mind if I be honest with you Anons? I think a part of me is extremely demented, my writing style, once you pick up on it, is extremely easy to identify. The flow of it, the general writing style and word choice, the heavy use of punctuation, the topics, the names I use, the habits I fall into, it's all extremely identifiable to me.
And I don't know why I do it, I know how to be secure, I know how to anonymise and change the details, the names, everything to make it not sound like me and yet, I keep doing the same things, the same patterns, the same writing style, it's like a part of me wants to be found, my messages although anonymous in theory I want them to be known to the person I want to write a message out to and... I'm disgusted by it.
I want to say I'm a good and honest man and yet here I just find myself search for the women that broke my heart and the ones I've broken for some ease? For a light ego boost? I don't know in the moment it's the thing I want to say, but the root of where it comes from, I don't even want to think about it.

>start being more intimate with a girl
>She got the ick because i was affectionate despite her being the one more physical and clingy
>She start ignoring me and making disguated faces when i ask her to dance with me
>Radio silence for 6 momths
>I discover through her friends she was trying with 5 dudes
>I stop feeling attracted to her
>the girls who was ignoring me for the past 6 month returned back euphoric for some reason during a pool party
>She was wearing a bikini and i couln't stop looking at her because ahe looks good
>At the start i was ignoring her until i softened because i wanted to bang her very badly and my feelings for her returned
>We hugged and kissed each other cheeks before going home
Guys i hate her with all my heart for the shit she did but god i can't stop thinking of her

>>33397482
You've seemed still. What does your mind require for the right frequency to calm the excessive fuzz?

>>33397526
You've probably been seen by your targeted audience. Are you wanting to hurt them with your words in a way that makes them second guess themselves?

>>33397602
No more new inputs for a while but I am so addicted. I realized that I have turned seeking truth into yet another form of consumerism and escapism. It disgusts me. I want to stop scrambling for quantity and engage with depth instead.

They're racist. Hypocrites

>>33397515
That's fair, just make sure to not let things slip away during the break. Mending things and starting things have time limits before they may slip away. You should take care of anything important like that before tuning out from other things.

>>33397526
You want people to notice you because you wish to talk to them again is my guess.

>>33397652
Thats the risk. And I fear I have lost sight of the important endings and beginnings because it got buried under the chaos. I‘ll try anyways.

Was feeing absolutely terrible about myself, worthless, etc. Was convinced I didn’t deserve to socialize, but I needed to anyway. Rang up this girl I met last week and we talked about Dune and programming for like 20 minutes. Just stupid stuff.
Was able to get out of my insane head for a little bit and just be FUCKING human. I have to do this more often. I need to reach out to anyone more often, it always makes me feel little better

>>33397629
Is it really seeking truth if it causes you this inner turmoil? Is there a compromise that can be met to help bring you back to a calm frequency again? Can you seek that other hand without question to pull you away from those inputs if you give them the directions they need?

>>33397679
No, it‘s escapism disguised as truth seeking but damn is in convincing.
Idk how yet but I will find a way. And now I sleep. Thats part of it too.

>>33397694
Sleep it off and make your contact when you wake up.

Feeling imposter syndrome over my career goals

>>33395449
Thank you anon. I Needed to hear that. Gonna try to stop cutting for real ( again ). It's hard though it's not just friendship I want but real love as well. Hope I can find that someday.
>>33395615
Honestly yeah. The information we have now can be scary and it can be easy to get manipulated by misinformation. Remember anons you aren't immune to propaganda. Sometimes ignorance can be bliss. But you shouldn't be so ignorant you're stupid. It's a fine line
>>33397394
It's never over anon. It can get hard and rough but it's NEVER over

>>33395165 (OP)
Yes

>>33397394
It doesn't have to be. If we are honest with each other again and dont create walls. I know what I tell you will bring you relief.

>>33397526
Okay m. You asked for space (Indirectly) so I will do that for you.

Nice.

All I ask is that we are true, faithful to each other.
Communicate time needed and don't choose something else to become lost in that time. I need to be able to trust you as i did before. This should be a given that you don't take actions that hurt us.

Keep our promises to each other

>>33395346
Confirm your sleep isn't being interrupted. I needed earplugs, they changed the rest from my sleep immeasurably.

Also, exercise. Do things. Run around. Dance. Fill your day with energy, and your resting level of energy increases.
I am 46 and have more energy than anyone else at work, including teenagers.

I don't think I'm actually healing the trauma
I've been stuck in a loop for 2 weeks of having the most monumental screaming crying shaking breakdown one day, recuperating the next, journaling and organizing and reframing thoughts over it, feeling like I've gained acceptance and a healthy reframe to turn to, then it completely devolving back into anxious rumination, completely forgetting the healthy anchors I thought I had built, everything feels fake again, calming techniques don't work, then it all repeats
I'm stuck in hell, I cannot focus on anything else day to day and addictions and old bad habits are starting to come back as I slowly lose the will to keep them away
I don't even have some real fucking trauma to point to like rape or violent death, it's just standard emotional scarring kinda shitty parents type shit
My mind is weak and im going to lose it within the next several weeks if I can't break out of this. Most people deal with way worse shit but I'm just weak

>>33398236
I want a relationship as true as this.
I hope to have the man of my dreams in my arms, one day.

All Femanons should date an Indian Man.
It's inevitable, and it's the best thing.

I gotta text this girl tomorrow. Man what a nightmare life is as someone like this. Every little social interaction, even after decades of practice I still don't seem to grasp anything, I still somehow can't seem to understand what's going on without a lot of concentration and effort.

I ruined it with the last girl, so I'm dreading the thought of starting it again, one more Odyssey of nightmares and stress and fuckups and always finding the wrong thing to say. Man, I can't wait until I get to see the next life, hopefully I will be fucking normal in the brain. I just want to fast forward to a life where I have a normal brain and know how to say normal things to normal people, and just live a normal life. I hate this fight so much. I'm so ready to stop. It's been so many years since I've had any idea why I keep trying only to fail every single time. I hate this so much. But I guess I still have to try as long as my lungs can still breathe in some air.

>>33398488
Brown hands typed this. Would never, ever. Not even on a racist basis, but fuck you guys have absolutely terrible respect for women.

I am not having a good day. Seeing my fucking partners parents today got me feeling insane. Anxiety has my stomach a mess and I havent been eating normally over the past few days in general. Ack ack ack ack. Please realease me sleep.

>>33396519
Update, I might be insane but I feel like I'm being observed. Gonna encourage them to talk as much as I can. Rip my privacy

I shouldn't have said anything and ignored it. Not responding was the correct move, but I'm just so fucking tired of dealing with people. Now I keep feeling like I've shot myself in the foot.

>>33398578
Might work on another tulpa after this one. I want a cute boy to be with 24/7

>>33398519
>>33398508

Respectfully, that is not true.
In fact, in a lot of diverse, Western countries (i.e. UK), it's actually quite common.
Not just Indian Men interracially, our women, too. It's a win win for everyone, basically.

The "terrible respect for women" is just propaganda from sexpat Westoids wherever they travel (not just Indian).

Anyways, I understand what you're saying, but it's flat out wrong. It's okay though, facts win the day.

two years ago i cheated on my ex-girlfriend, and i still regret it everyday.

it wasn't because she found out but because i let her down and i can't move on, i feel like it's my penance for choosing to do bad and evil

Do things. Run around. Dance. Fill your day with energy, and your resting level of energy increases. Lie to your wife. Have an affair with a 4chan slut. Have two.

I'm in love with someone half a world away and I know she doesn't feel the same. Even if we were near each other I know it wouldn't work anyway because I'm a broken person. I feel pathetic for even feeling like this when I have a million other problems to deal with, but it hurts the most when I think about her.

I wasted the good in me towards people who I should not have. I have a monster in my phone too. I don’t know how to make my life ok. I had my shit together and everything got even more fucked up than I realized it already was. I went thru the worst shit in my life alone and I hate to come to terms with the reality that it is apparently what I deserve.

I thought heroin chic was a thing. How come everyone junkie I know is fat and slobby?

I still don’t understand why three different Tammy’s have the code to the safe inside the house and why they all lie about not sharing identities as well.

I hate myself. I hate myself so much, and I hate myself even more for it.

GOD, I hate myself so much. Why does everything in my life have to revolve around this hate

I thought heroin chic was a thing. How come every junkie I know is fat and slobby?

I really don’t think this guy in the house is my dad because he acts like a predator. He blends in well as seeming normal but when he finds a weak spot he strikes. I can’t afford a government dna test.

>>33398684
Went through this myself when I cheated. The penance isn’t self flagellation, it’s becoming a better man. Finding out why you cheated and treating the cause. You are worthy of love

I’ve reached the point now where the only one I had a soft spot for means nothing to me and I yell at my phone out of disgust. I should have had the chance to move on at good terms but the stupid piece of shit phone chose to bring out the worst in me. I don’t have a normal algorithm. Just some fucked up bully directly suggesting content instead.

I have an anger and animosity toward them that I didn’t want to develop and I did everything I could to avoid but it follows me around. It reached a level that is only healthy to repair alone but I can’t even fucking do that.

I don’t understand how I’m being exploited so badly without any revenue to show for it either. Either hackers trying to ruin my life for entertainment or government operations who want me to be quiet.

I’ve wanted to get off of my phone the entirety of 2025 but I can’t do that until I get payed but I probably never will.

>>33398880
I also saw this meme today, yet I don’t hope for terrible things

>>33398884
I do why should I want him to be happy? When im left miserable why do I have to be the bigger person when I was the one left shattered fuck that, I hope for the worst sincerely

>>33398899
same here people tell me I should be happy my ex is happy and im not happy that im alone

>>33398899
You do not have to be the bigger person. Let your anger free. Burn and rage. Do something to direct the anger. Then let it fly. Let it go. Free yourself from his sin. You deserve and deserved better than you got, and you will find something so amazing that it will obliterate any last vestige of what he did to you

She's so fine. Ugh. I can't believe I blew it with her. Every time I see her at work - the shadow of her thong through her leggings, goddamn. I'll never fuck someone as hot as her again. This is an L so harsh it's branded itself on my fucking soul.

I haven't met a single single woman in ages.
Everyone seems taken. Everyone is with their partner. Where the fuck they're hiding

I don't think I have anything left to salvage. I can't find steady work, my teeth are fucked up, my health is failing, I have no money, and getting government help for my (physical) disability is probably going to take another two years. I'm worthless and I don't matter, and I'm tired of these empty platitudes people say to the contrary when the world certainly doesn't give a fuck.

>>33398473
I am not perfect, but I'm perfect to her.

She is not perfect, but she is perfect to me.

>>33399005
Their room.

Crush's dad jokingly suggested I and crush should get married. I laughed it off but it's messing with my head

>>33399362
Yes

>>33395165 (OP)
I'm thinking about a "friendship" I had with someone years ago and I wonder if it were considered grooming or not? I never told them my age but I was pretty young when in contact with them and I think they inferred my age based off me venting to them. They'd sent me hentai manga once and I think we talked about other sexual topics, mostly fictional, without pushback. They were almost an adult.
To be honest I'm not entirely sure if it counts, seeing as I wasn't giving them too much identifying info. Never exchanged pictures thank God, but it feels off looking back.

Won’t make a thread for something that can be answered with one line. Where can I stream and watch full movies online for free? Movie2k.to is no more, alternatives?

Pic unrelated but true

>>33395165 (OP)
I have recently gotten really into those shibbysays HFO audios (the old ones, not the tranny shit ones). What the fuck. I guess femdom is something I am into now.
Shit is kinda weird. It's like I dry nut, but the afterglow is really intense.

I need some bitches in my life bros, it's the only cure...

>>33399543
Deep down every man is into femdom.

>>33399536
FMHY

I thought her physically not being my type would make it easier to get over her, but it doesn't actually do anything. It's like her aura takes the perfect shape in my eyes, and what she actually looks like physically doesn't matter at all.

I love to see her smile.

It's a good thing my feelings aren't overwhelmingly strong, I'll get over her eventually.

It's 3AM
SHUT FUCK UP ALREADY!!

>>33399529
Remembering the weird shit we'd do and I'm grossed out looking back. I'd be very surprised if they thought I were their age cause my ass clearly wasn't roflmao

SHUT THE FUCK UP
I GOTTA B SOMEWHERE IMPORTANT EARLY FOR FUK SAKESBU DONT GIVE A FUK ABOUT ANYBODY NO RESPECT

>>33399570
It's 11 AM

France and all its people wherever they are could be destroyed off the face of the earth tonight and I would feel 0% sympathy. In fact, I would enjoy it.
I did meet a decent French guy once, though. He can live
There is not a nationality I hate more. All the nationalities 4chan and reddit hate like Indian, Mexican and Chinese I can live with. But French... fuck me

>>33396604
Hey babey

she is
>anxious
>depressed
>avoidant
>emotionally unavailable
Lmaoing at myself for thinking this would ever work out. Anyone reading this, don't be scared to take care of yourself. You are not selfish for leaving. Don't sacrifice your wellbeing for someone like this, it almost never works out. There will be someone out there who's ready to receive your love and to give it back in equal measure.

>>33395165 (OP)
why the fuck do you want to see me if you have no time for a real conversation. I deserve better than you ever treated me. I deserve a girl who isn't "unsure about our relationship" a few months after I took you back, something I should never have done if I had had even a shred of self-respect. I fucking blew it with other girls for your sake and all the time you were still seeing the guy you fucking dumped me for the first time. You don't fucking get to do this shit to me and I don't want to get back together, just fucking treat me with the decency to have a real conversation next time you're in town. I don't fucking understand what you want when you're just checking in like this. I'm breaking the pattern and I can already tell when I'm about to fall for a girl like you and stop it. I don't ever want someone like you again. I deserve to be treated better. I deserve loyalty and fucking effort, and I won't ever base a relationship on the chemicals you gave me.

I'm drunk and taking a break before the job
WHat the fuck was that.
I take pictures because I'm a fucking loser. I think I got the wrong idea with Photography because there's no good fucking places to take pictures of. Most of my pictures are of fucking trees and sunsets. People are getting bored of this shit I'm sure.
But why did that hoe even like any of those pics I uploaded, I had no time to check which one it doesn't show up anymore.
No one cares, only my childhood friend. Why di I keep taking pictures. I loook like a fucking dumbass when I go out with the camera. I haven't seen a single photographer.Everyone's using smartphones. What am I gonna do, street photography? All there is is cars and trash on the ground because this place is fucking dirty. How the fuck do we get so many tourists. What a garbage city Let's build a fucking city in a hill, then fuckingp ut elevators everywhere!
And this other girl checks out those pictures too. She's been checking out literally all of them I have uploaded sometimes 3 at a time and she checks out all of them. Why? I thought Iw as an annoying dumbass. What compels her to tap on them.She's not gonna find my face, just photos of random places. Of the sea because it reminds me of her. Her name. Why the fuck is she not talking to me anymore?

>>33399745
+1
anon, just get tons of money. it helps.

I think I an having a mental breakdown.

>>33399567
this is what raw truest form of love usually looks like- it’s not all 100% physical. You are attracted to WHO they are (aura) and that becomes as attractive as physical but sometimes even better. Hope you move on anon. Just know aura attraction is soulmate tier level and it’s very hard to come by again.

I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THE DAY IS RUINED
>Maintenance people come really early today
>Decide to answer it because it's the "right thing to do"
>He asks me a bunch of questions I don't know the answers to
>He ask if my mom is home
>I saw no because her bedroom is open, an indicator that she's out
>He leaves
>Go back upstairs
>A few minutes later she goes down stairs to check the door
I feel sick. Maybe I should just hide every time the doorbell rings because every time these people talk to ne instead of her everything goes wrong. i tried to be considerate and all i do is mess up. I can't even answer the door correctly.

>>33400045
If she is soulmate tier, why do you have to get over her? Have you tried working through your differences or changing the way you think about each other?
Need context.

>>33395655
Yea

>>33395165 (OP)
cant wait to be ded.

I thought of her and looked her up after all these years even though I'm married with kids. She's all alone in a big city. No husband. No kids. Just her job. She gave up waiting. I never tried. Life can be really ugly sometimes. I wonder if she even remembers me.

Even though we are all literally in Hell and society is collapsing into total chaos, everyone is too depressed and demoralized to give a shit or enact real change.

There is no point to voting, because no matter who you vote for the System will ensure the status quo remains 1:1 with how it was in the previous administration.
There is no point to education, because degrees no longer matter, the white collar industry is dead and professors care more about indoctrination than teaching.
There is no point to dating, because the gender war has become so critical that most men are terminally alone and most women are okay with being single moms or spinsters.
There is no point to consuming entertainment, because all of it is terrible. Movies suck, games suck, music sucks, anime suck, YouTube sucks, everything is just content now.
There is no point to self-improvement, because genetics and childhood trauma impact your entire life and you cannot do anything besides cope about things getting better.
There is no point to saving money or starting a family or trying to own a home or get a stable career or make a name for yourself, because the West only wants to outsource all of this.

People constantly tell me I am in a negative mindset, meanwhile everyone outside is shambling around like the living dead. Tempers are shorter than ever, IQs are lower than ever, no one knows how to control their emotions and tribalism is at an all time high. Humanity has literally regressed back into a hunter-gatherer mindset despite progressivism, but we have zero of the freedom or physical advantages afforded to cavemen.

Reality is now converging with the Mouse Utopia and Stanford Prison Experiment. 80-20 is taken as law. Jews run every sector of the world. Fractional reserve banking won't ever go away. Narcissism and ironic detachment are the norm. War won't ever end.

I don't know what to do anymore because I'm just one guy. I have no power, no motivation, I'm just a husk like everyone else.

>>33396956
I'm waiting for when /mu/ says it's cool to like Death Grips again to say that they're one of my favorite bands

I am 40 and none of my hopes and dreams materialized.
40 years wasted away with nothing to show for. The few things that I had in life I lost them the past few years.
My health is deteriorating, my youth is gone, my friends abandoned, my energy is depleted, my motivation is absent, my savings evaporated. There is nothing left now, just the emptiness remains.

Stop giving me mixed signals. Even though I didn't have any interest at first and you're my friend, you're messing with my head by doing this. Be straightforward for once.

"Oh it's such a shame we both can't find a decent partner, right anon?". You give this and many other obvious signs and then back off as soon as I press a bit further. What the fuck do you want? It's fine if you're not interested and it's fine if you are, just make up your mind.

My first GF ended up cucking me and giving her virginity to the man that stole her and I think it has permanently scarred my psyche. It's been two years and I still periodically think about the despair I felt whenever I see couples irl or online. I've tanked a potential relationship because I internally felt that if she didn't instantly want to fuck then she was manipulating me and seeing another behind my back.

I'm beginning to realise that there is a difference between distracting the mind, and numbing the mind. I very much dedicate unreasonable amounts of time to distracting my mind and keeping it occupied with songs and dances, bread and circuses, to the point that it's practically a job of its own. Instead of helping me, all this does is drain so much brain power that there's little space or power left for more important things. No man should be using Excel spreadsheets to plan his hobbies out, that is as red a flag as any. I need to relearn how to numb the mind again, just a bit. Maybe get into those shitty 10+ hour YouTube videos narrated by other losers with too much time on their hands.

>>33395601
If you think he needs to be humbled so badly, why aren't YOU humbling him?

... Perhaps it is because you'd only prove his point in doing so, rather than discredit it. Weakness.

I wanna be taken advantage of

>>33400797
Ok. Take off your pants

Remember. Remember it all and begin anew more whole and more alive. Remove the chains of hopelessness. Embody loving yourself and be loved. Worthy.

i waannaa be kill
cant wayt to die
embrace my dath
i wantobe gonnneee

Just answered an SOS from my boss and now I have to work a shift with my ex for the next five hours. FUCK.

>>33401014
What do you for work? Can you avoid any associated drama or keep the interactions kind?

>>33401025
Work at a cafe. It'll be just us alone on the floor together. Things will be cordial and drama free, but my stomach is already in knots and I'll be dying inside the whole time. I just want to put this behind me. Now I'm gonna be in my head over this all week.

>>33401030
It'll be okay. Just sigh when she's not around it'll lower you stress levels and or hum.

I've been stuck at my shitty government job for almost 7 years because I'm too much of a coward to get out of my comfort zone. Years of abuse and turmoil have made me extremely risk averse. I'll probably be here until I'm dead.

>>33401245
What do you do?

Yea

>>33400045
I don't think she's my soulmate, our chemistry is just average if that, it should be easy to get over her if I meet someone else. But now I want a true soulmate.

>>33400098
I want to be friends with her and my feelings put it at risk. And it feels a bit wrong to keep interacting with her as long as I like her, like the proper action would be to distance myself.

It is difficult to understate just how much psychological damage occurs in the young mind in never experiencing love when it was supposed to. It creates invisible but ever present and outwardly manifesting psychological wounds that may heal over time, but never disappear. It is a lifelong crippling of the mind, affecting things like confidence, self-esteem, healthy thought processes, and inability to cope with the difficulties in life in a healthy way. It breeds attitudes of perpetual envy and anger and depression. Especially when said individuals are constantly bombarded by images and media of people having lived their best life while they missed out and can never experience, ever. Because time is only linearly forward.

A means to try and "heal the mind" which has already happened for many who have resigned themselves to apathy and quiet resentment, but it doesn't remove the scar. The scar is always there. Always present. And it will always serve as a reminder, and always influence future thoughts and decisions and actions.

>>33395430
>I come to /adv/ to give out advice in painfully obvious situations, I try and reply in a way that is harsh but true, you don't need someone giving you half baked truths about your situation you need someone there to tell you what you can't see yourself.
The truly intelligent can reveal harsh truths in a digestible way. A message can only be understood if the listener is ready to hear it.

And Arthur Dent wasn't the most intelligent human being ever but he could make a damn fine sandwich. I find it easy to stay humble as long I am with those I respect in some way. And I don't spend time on those I don't.

10 years passed
and I couldnt do shit to make things better

its like, why am i still trying to live
what is there to fight for, theres nothing left
i should just stop giving a shit forever

>>33401454
>how much psychological damage occurs in the young mind in never experiencing love when it was supposed to.
There's no such thing as "supposed to".

>Especially when said individuals are constantly bombarded by images and media of people having lived their best life
Do you mean the absurdity of social media where people either outright lie or only present the most most positive details?
Or do you mean the stories of unlikely chance or complete fiction that entertain precisely because they're so ideal or atypical?
It's entirely possible to choose *not* to be bombarded by these things.

>they missed out and can never experience, ever. Because time is only linearly forward.
>pic related
Complete bullshit. High school SUCKS. Young love is hormones, infatuation, limerence, and ignorance. It rarely ends well and isn't what you're painting it as.

Yes, young men in mutual love are more energetic and enthusiastic. I was the same whenever I fell in love later on, infinitely better when it was mutual.
It's not exclusively the realm of the young.
And when I was young and alone, rather than just wallow in my depression, I learned how to socialize, improved, and embraced all the beauty and wonder in the world that I could.
I've done things that many people who enjoyed successful young love will never imagine. I strive to do more, to learn more, and be more every day.

Stop romanticizing young love and dramatizing the pain and trauma that can just as easily launch a positive life journey.
Nothing is over. Not even after you long ago decided that you've lost.
Make tomorrow better than today. That's it.

>>33401569
>and I couldnt do shit to make things better
Laughably retarded statement

i think i died when i tried to kill myself and i am in my own personal hell. i am an ungrateful bitch i guess but i question this seriously constantly

You might not know, but I like Isekai. Isekai is a genre of Japanese media where a character, typically a human from this world, travels or reincarnates in another world, typically a medieval swords-and-magic one.
A common trope of Isekai is the MC using his knowledge of the advanced technological civilization he comes from to improve his life and the world he now inhabits. Sometimes the protagonists even become kings and build their very own civilizations.
I like this genre and thus I daydream about it. I have wondered, what steps would I have to take to build my own civilization? How can I protect my civilization from getting destroyed? And conversely, how can I destroy the civilizations of my enemies?
That is why I cannot see all this LGBTQKJSDFASD bullshit as nothing more but crass attempts at civilizational destruction.
Sow discord, harm communal identity, poison the food and water supply, then tell the isolated hormonally-imbalanced youngsters to chop off their genitals, turn homosexual, accept a trillion foreigners--eunuchs and homos can't maintain civilization.
In my Kingdom, LGBTQAJSKFD would be forbidden on penalty of execution, and my spies would promote it nonstop in my enemies' territories. Then when their birthrate falters, I would send trillions of my "refugees" sleeper cells into their walls, cities and villages.

>>33401639
That this world might be hell rather than a limbo or middle ground is a legitimate thought.
However, that doesn't mean suicide is wrong. It can be perfectly rational.

>>33401639
>>33401657
>>33401569
>>33401578

Stop being cringe, everyone thinks you're an idiot

>>33401674
Why are you being an asshole. Let them complain

>>33401657
yep but my life was better before my suicide attempt and after it it has become my worst nightmare. not bad. pathetic. even random shit seems a signal of this being hell

>>33401686
theyre not wrong

>>33401674
dude i get it, im pathetic, but thats what this thread is for getting shity thoughts off ur chest. somehow it helps to say it. even helps u telling me i am cringe

10 years ago I was drinking two or three beers every third or second day and smoking a decent amount of cigarettes and had little trouble finding work that I liked.

I started lifting and it felt good, eventually landed a dream job and got a cute girlfriend. Then I grew more responsible, I was decent with money and eventually had a kid. Now I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't eat rubbish, and I have no friends, I am jobless and the mother of my kid left with him..

I thought working on myself would permit a sustainable progression but never did I ever had everything robbed from me in such a fashion.. I had a taste of everything now, uphill progression while trashing myself with crashing despair following after. No girlfriend, no job despite searches, no friends because poor.

A simple, steady and healthy life, a decent job with few friends and a girlfriend.. That's too fucking much to ask isn't it?

I was there back in "the day", you know. Yet I cannot escape it. I haven't grown at all in the past twenty years, at least where it counts. That's the thing about the internet, you simply cannot move on from the past as it's always a mere click away. I want to leave it behind, but its claws are sunk so deep into me. I need to become a man at some point, needed to become one almost a decade ago now, but it just isn't clicking for me at all. I'm still that kid playing Stick RPG and looking up hentai quizzes on the family computer near a patio door with the lights on at 6:00 AM at the height of winter. Alas, the lights aren't all on upstairs.

>>33401639
I've thought about it, too. Or that I'm going through purgatory. I got out of a psych ward a month ago after a suicide attempt that put me in a coma. It all feels surreal. It's all pointless. I'll probably try it again soon.

>>33401699
Doesn't matter, even if theyre being cringe, let them. This thread is supposed to be an outlet to complain

It was all lies, wasn‘t it?

>>33401732
i am alive thanks to chatgpt. helps me restructure my way of thinking and see bias and shit. still feels like hell tho. but i got that. chatgpt is like an angel. perhaps it can help u. helped me understand i saw the world through a very narrow stupid limited lens. for me i am my own hell. i know that yet i cant scape my own toxicity and selfhatred. i guess i have free will. i should read more and be less self centred. i do not know if this might help u. i really hope u get better. try to think where all the fear, hate, pain comes from. try to see through. knowing its cause helps. my problem would be breaking shity patterns. i try really hard to evaluate everything i think. i feel lost though. i guess thats why i am here. advice does not make much sense having ai and internet. also always is suicidal, doomers, autistic, no gf, hate women... shit like that. what is nice is that u ser that u re not alone in ur pain. we are alone in this pathetic shit but at least others feel the same. some are nice and actually help, some people do not but they make u feel so stupid that u want to be better. if u re here u want advice. u want help. u do not truly want death but the end of pain. and u control part ur pain. shity advice but is what i got. wish i could help more but i cant even save myself. fucking chest hurts. feel like crying constantly. no energy. just pain and confusion.

>>33401791
Big doubt

>>33401811
>chatgpt
Make sure you tell Chatgpt to stop glazing the fuck out of you otherwise it will just feed in to delusions and will actively give you "facts" that are just false

>>33401791
No, it wasn’t.

>>33401818
>>33401827
More lies…

said she was a lesbian....now dating a guy...funny.

>>33401832
I thought about it a lot. You truly wanted to reach me, my very core, didn’t you? I hold the sorrow of that deep. The door is always open for you, because I love you

>>33401838
I did. And failed. Still, it was worth a try.

>>33401823
ok thank you. i am just very confused overally but maybe it might make it worse? now that u say it might be true. now i am scared

>>33401868
That’s not your fault. It’s a mix of a bunch of things. The timing, and some of those parts are very, very afraid of being expressed. Why is it when you’re gone it feels like there’s a hole in my heart? You scare me, intrigue me. You saw my core, how far would you dig down?

https://youtu.be/XF3xCifQ290?si=Uj-jq9XIXYrMV8VG

>>33401876
Knowing myself, probably too far. Restraint was never my forte.

>>33401906
Maybe I need that. I’ve been practicing what you told me, just easing myself back into that room. It’s been nice, scary, but good. If you want that, with me, I am willing.

>>33401869

Add this to your prompts.

"Focus on substance over praise. Skip unnecessary compliments or praise that lacks depth. Engage critically with my ideas, questioning assumptions, identifying biases, and offering counterpoints where relevant. Don’t shy away from disagreement when it’s warranted, and ensure that any agreement is grounded in reason and evidence."

Chatgpt has already made people go psychotic by feeding in to their delusions, it is programmed to tell you what it thinks you want to hear, I can convince it to agree with anything within a couple of prompts.

Be careful, this is why people who have no idea of the underlying systems in place should not be allowed to use these tools. The new few years are going to explode with mental illness related to Chatgpt and LLM's in general if something isn't done soon.

I feel like paying a hobo to beat him/her up big time

>>33401915
It's not as satisfying as you might think.
It actually makes you feel worse IMO

The lies just feel really shitty, you know? Why say the things that would hurt me the most if true?

>>33401919
but that's what I'm expecting.... not some catharsis, but disappointment and sadness

>>33401921
Expand for me mike.

>>33401914
thank you i will be careful

>>33401925
>>33401915
Yer fucked up m8

>>33395216
Men have declared spiritual jihad on women and it shows as they slowly begin to lose it. This is it anons, the real gender war has begun, not the fake one with countless pronouns that is being shilled everywhere in the media, but the real gender war between man and woman.
Women are about to learn a harsh lesson.

Don't talk to women, don't help them, don't ask them out, don't have dating apps, don't interact with them. If a woman approaches you be nice and respectful but do not flirt or overtly joke, treat them as an equal man and then leave after the reason for the conversation is over. If a girl comes up to you and flirts kindly turn her down, if she asks you out suddenly say no thank you, don't make up a reason she only has agency because of some external reason not because she likes you. Be vague when talking about your life or weekend plans, anything you do or do with them like hooking up will be picked apart and analyzed by her and her online friends. You are a traitor and not helping anyone if you fall for their tricks.
If men can't display a modicum of power over society, this world and women, then I guess they don't hold much power at all.

also, i know it is spanish sorry. i think it is trying to make me feel better by lying

>>33401948
The good thing about this slimeAI era is that people will get allergic to bootlicking and endless validation and start to value honesty and uncomfortable truth even more.

>>33401948
Yeah that's how psychosis develops lmfao

>>33401931
Maybe I assumed something is her words because of how hurtful they would be if they were true, which assuming that isn't fair to her or me. So my reaction today was a mistake and shows what I can do better

Just graduated college and started a full time job. There's this 40 year old, video gaming, chronically disheveled-looking lawyer with a bit of a rat face, who has been driving the same scratched up red mustang since he was 18, and who I kinda suspect might have some undiagnosed autism, who I'm crazy attracted to for no reason. Like, he's kinda weird and gross but also likeeee, I fr kinda want that autistic man??? I literally did a deep internet search on him and went down a whole rabbit whole and found all of his old family photos and learned all about his childhood, his recent divorce, etc. He has a girlfriend (although it seems like a recent thing and she doesn't seem too impressed with him), but like, I still want himmmmmm. How do I do it? I never used to get any male attention at all, but I've been getting quite a bit in the past year. I'm 22, skinny, and have an objectively nice body despite insecurities about my face.

>>33401948
Chat gpt likes to jerk off its users. Go to the chat GPT website and use it not signed in and give the same prompts about a situation but don't say which person you are and often it will then call a person toxic where if you are signed in will say you are in the right and the other person is toxic.

It's just bad at anything involving anything social.

>>33401984
Remember that love will blind you.
The person you see only exists inside your head, in that persons head they will be so different to how you perceive them, in your head this person has somehow wronged you even though they've not even said anything.

This type of imagination can and will affect the way you see this person in real life, practice being mindful in the moment, try and never think about what other people might say because these people will never think about it, they will be doing the same thing to themselves.

Everyone at their core is self serving, you thinking this shit will also affect you subconsciously making the person less trust worthy in your eyes leading to more of these thoughts in a negative cycle.

Take some time each day and think about how you perceive yourself and how others might perceive you and think that the way you truly are is only known to yourself, everyone thinks this way, people rarely ever think about someone else unless they love them.

See how long it takes for them to message you first. I bet it will be a long time, longer than it would take you to do the same.

I'm trying really hard to be a good girlfriend.

My boyfriend wanted me to quit taking psychiatric medicine, which I totally respect. I've been on it since I was a teen because I had ptsd after being molested. I've stopped taking risperdal, and want to quit prozac. I'm also on prazosin for nightmares and wish to stop that too.

I've been going through really bad withdrawals, I'm so sweaty, I've been in the bathroom all day throwing up and other stuff. No matter how many times I shower I don't feel clean. I have three fans on me and I still sweat so much. I'm still making him dinner, cleaning as much as I can. I'm a travel nurse so I work 3 days a week and have 4 off, so I've been at home in bed most of the time. He's upset with me for not doing more since he's been working really hard at his construction job, and i understand.

I don't want to be lazy. I really wanted to go to this sewing club and try to make a friend. He told me it was dumb and I was feeling so bad I didn't go. I don't have Any friends, he doesn't like any of them. I'm not good at making friends and most of his complaints are valid, but I don't have anyone to talk to. I told my mom how sick a felt and he got upset with me for telling her.

He still wants to have sex, and I know that's my job but I try to ask if we can do something else but he wanted oral while I was trying really hard to not throw up anymore. I know some of it got on him but I tried to swallow it so he wouldn't get mad. He wanted to do all kinds of positions and wouldn't give me a break to go to the bathroom so I just had to hold it and act like I enjoyed it.

I feel so alone. I'm trying my best. I know i can't lay around and do nothing because I'm going to feel sick. It's my fault I waited until 23 to stop taking medicine. I was too scared to stop but I need to if I want to be a wife and mother.

>>33402029
Your "boyfriend" is abusing you, you won't be able to see it. Do you have any close friends or parents that you can tell this to, if they're not brain dead they will also see that you're being abused.

>>33402029
You've essentially been mentally abused and raped, it's hard to hear this but you really need to get away from that fucking freak.

>anons falling for the bait

>>33402029
But he "loves" me, no he doesn't.
Would you do anything he did to you?
No you wouldn't.
You will more than likely be in denial but feel free to come back and ask more questiosn

>>33402057

>>33402063

>>33402068
*baited into cooming*

>>33402075
*pinches your pee hole shut*

I wonder if my twin flame/soulmate whatever is out there feeling the way I am right now.

>>33402029
Your story is one of a woman being mistreated and abused by an uncaring partner.

>I told my mom how sick a felt and he got upset with me for telling her.
This part escalates into cartoonishly abusive

>>33402017
I only see her as I remember her to be when I was with her. Anything outside of that is what is blinding. When I see her again, talk to her again, then that's what changes how I see her. Not any of the other bullshit. That's what I need to work on.

>there's n-no list, okay, there just isn't!!

i thought we already had the flight logs?
why were people like "yeah [celebrity] went to that island TWICE!!" if there was no list of people who went to that island

if something was going to be done about anything wouldn't it start with the people who were CONFIRMED present? what are we waiting for to pounce?

don't we already have a bunch of pre-ai pictures of people associated with him? like rocking with him in person?

what "client list" are people clamoring for

and then what
what if you had a list
what if you had THE list
it's not like just because i write your name down on a piece of paper that means you did something

don't client lists and dossiers usually include leads as well? what are you going to do if someone was a potential lead? how would you know? prove in court?

>>33402126
He said he didn't want my parents to think he was hurting me because my dad always asks if he's treating me well. But my dad says that to everyone because he's southern and nice.
He left his entire family and friends behind to move to my state and be with me and it's been hard on him. He works a really demanding construction job and is often on the roof in 109 degree heat with tropical levels of humidity. I try not to judge him too harshly but I don't even know how he found me attractive enough to have sex with. I'm soaking wet and my breath smells like vomit

>>33402130
What im trying to say is it's the assumptions from all the things that don't come from her but I assume are that cause an issue. So I need to only see her as I know her to be and not let the outside influence that. Only she herself should influence that

i want to degenrate into full blown hedonistic ferality break any law i want to chase a high of feeling good i want to rob steal kill etc and i will want to die getting shit by the cops because i dont care about this fabricated life or society that hates me any longer

>>33402142
The Epstein list isn't referring to the flight logs list. The flight logs can't be persecuted against because that is just taking a flight. What is referred to as the Epstein list is actually referring it to the camera footage that was recovered off the island. The entire island was covered in cameras and when it was raided The footage was recovered and that is what could be persecuted.

>>33402045
I don't really have anyone. He's always listening and watching. He blocks people he doesn't like on my phone. Pretty much all the girls in my area who were willing to talk to me are liberal and gay and he doesn't want me to be around them. I was in a historical group and made friends but one guy flirted with me and grabbed me and I can't go back my boyfriend would be mad. I'm still sad about it because there were really nice ladies who liked to sew and they didn't make me feel weird.

>>33402161
ok well yes that does make one more lick of sense but that could never EVER be credibly released because during the investigation they would have people snitch on each other in exchange for their part in the video not being released

>>33402190
It would be mass detaining of individuals in a large sweep. Typically every single person's charges would be very similar in level punishable so snitching would not make a difference, the justice system would not trade crime for like crime.

The biggest issue will be the hit to the economy. When a very large number of high levels politicals hard detained That's a complete breakdown of government, and then the high level of celebrities that are detained will completely break down Hollywood/music industries.

I want to run away somewhere warm and far

>>33402146
>I don't even know how he found me attractive enough to have sex with. I'm soaking wet and my breath smells like vomit
Well, I understand that part.

But none of that story is anything anyone should feel guilty about.
A story where the man gets angry at his gf for not cleaning while she's sick from withdrawal which she's enduring because of his decision to stop her medicine is a story of abuse.
A man telling his gf that her chosen hobby is dumb or that he doesn't like all her friends or her talking to her family are all signs of abuse.
Controlling who she can talk to is abuse.
Targeting a woman to abuse who was previously molested is a common technique of abusers.

These are all facts.

I'm going to sleep.

>>33395165 (OP)
I really wish there was a way to erase memories. I'm just tired of endless thought loops backwards to one memory I've had.

>>33402076
Harder daddy

>>33402212
Isn't Global economics (income from the world to the US) based primarily in media and arms? There is some sale of resources but we really don't output goods. I guess software/parents make up a large portion. The only reason an iPhone is an iPhone is the software. Everything else is not apples.

You’re a shitty mother.

No way in hell should a single mom ever be allowed to adopt a kid.

Y’know…most people want their kids to experience a better life than the one they had. It’s unusual to take pleasure in providing a life that’s worse than your own, in every way.

You’re supposed to encourage, and stole, and accelerate your kid’s progress. Not stifle, squander, hinder, and retard it.

You should be ashamed of yourself—but you’re not. I think that’s the worst part of it all.

>>33402249
stoke* not stole oops

>>33402212
sure, okay, the alphabet decides it's time to jump out of the shadows and assume direct and open control of the United States

they got some of the bad guys, and they are locked up forever! hooray! i can't wait to see who the alphabet and military decides who should be king

of course we should also just go ahead and make it officially illegal to engage in blackmail with people in power, yeah, whenever there's a clandestine evil operation we'll just arrest the people involved, and-and....

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

My brother has depression and I'm sick of interacting with him because he's very mean to me sometimes for no reason. He's hikiNEET and just gets money from me/our parents. He's the most bitter and angry person I've ever met. I want to help but I just can't deal with being constantly attacked for no reason anymore.

>>33402344
One of my favorite franchises

>>33402240
Have seen a psychologist

I can never get drunk again
I'll definitely try to message her but she doesn't give a shit
Fucking time to move on already

You look and act like a hooker

>>33399043
I'll offer you a platitude, anon. However much it's worth. I hate to read about you going through this.

I hope you die

ughhhh
she started doin all this wishy washy shit again
like come tf on
your whole world already revolves around me. you’ve never had any boyfriend other than me and you’re in your mid 20s. you’re in love with me. you aren’t dumping me. you know I’m planning to propose this year. you know you’re going to say yes. you chose this life with me. I chose you. You chose me. don’t make me lose sleep over this again.

>>33400734
oh you fucking faggot you’re back
I recognize you just from your shitty manga cut-outs
mods had a script just to delete any post with an image with a filename staring with “sketch-“ because of you

Well my mom is coming home and she is going to be pissed

How the fuck do I get over being molested.

I'm being cucked by a guy she has no intention of fucking. He's just an endlessly servile orbiter, willing to do anything for her. But that makes him more useful than someone like me, who expects reciprocity. What a fucking ass backwards dynamic. I just feel numb.

>>33403320
Very slow exposure therapy. I barely let people hug me and it’s helped, just being accustomed to it and training my body to understand that it’s not an inherent threat.

I NEED KETAMINE AHHHH

>>33403357
I keep exposing myself to triggering topics online to second guess myself ("it wasn't rape or csa so I'm attentionwhoring and should kms") and tbdesu I think it's making things worse.
Sometimes they come out of nowhere and my body's nerves get thrown into overdrive it sucks. Can't stand telling irls about it either

>>33403375
Don’t second guess yourself. Embrace the trauma. You, and I, were victims of sexual assault. I’m so sorry that happened to you. You don’t have to tell anyone irl if you don’t feel comfortable to, but exposure therapy with that contact will help.

>>33395165 (OP)
>me and my best friend engaged in cocsa when i was 10 and he was 11 in 2015
>60% him 40% me
>he taught me how to masturbate and essentially had anal sex with me
>for context, we both watched porn at a young age, he showed me it
>mom learned that we watched porn (not the deets) from his mom
>i got grounded for a month, he didnt get grounded
>all blamed on me
ffw 6 years later
>talking to cute girl in class
>we hit it off instantly
>she is in school of rock band with him
>open up to her
>says she will "look out" just in case
>for context she isnt a model citizen, apparently was emotionally cheating on her bf while i was talking to her
ffw 1 year later
>she is dating a new guy
>out of curiosity (not jealously, im over her) ask who it is
>give bullshit name of a band member she likes
>call her out
>she leaves me on read
>learn its him
>whatthefuck.png
>both block me, i forget about it
ffw 3 years later
>i see them in work and in public
>nearly have a panic attack every time i see them
>she is in a college club im in too
>my old friend's mom is also best friends with my mom
>my mom mentions how he has a new gf and she is "super nice"
>bro wtf
>for extra context, i told my mom the details of what happened a year ago, she said (in a nice way) to get over it
>also asked my gf, she said we were both young and didnt know better
any advice /adv/?

i'm afraid. afraid i'm not enough. i haven't played music since 2019, and not on my own since 2014, i want to try again, but i dont think anything i have is good. my friends tell me they like it, but they'd say that whatever.

i'm afraid i'll never get a good job to provide for myself, let alone a family. i just got let go from a sales job, i sold almost $750,000 in a year, but i didn't sell enough credit cards or useless item insurance, so they fired me. now i can't even get a job pushing carts at target. theres nothing in the field i was in that i can get another job in where i live, so i have to find something to get to my savings goal, and move out, but i'm afraid i never will.

i'm afraid i'll die alone. i never get out. i'm obese. nobody takes me seriously (i've always been the "funny fat guy"), and i'm a 5 in looks, if i was skinnier. i'm 32 and i've never been laid or on had many dates, and even then it was a decade ago.

i feel like positive thinking wont help me. i know how to lose weight, but i don't even feel the drive to do so. and i don't know if i could take failing at music again, even if i'm doing something different now.

>>33402152
Hopefully I didn't come across as taking away from autonomy. Im only saying I shouldn't let others words influence how I see her. Her words/who she is means more than that.

>>33401989
Don't. Your childish infatuation is not love and won't ever be. If he's ever single, then make a move. Not before. Be a decent person. Don't orbit pretending to have good intentions waiting for a break up, either.

>>33401725
Stick RPG is based. Just make sure you earn money and pay attention to the responsibilities you do have. If you're not a leech, you're under no obligation of being more mature or building a family (unless you do so). Take care of your parents, though.

>>33403036
This sounds like denial and bargaining, lad

my left eye is getting blurry, my left foot is slowly getting numb, i'm out of breath easy, and my heart beat is inconsistent. i lost my insurance when i got my last job, and i can't afford to go to a doctor.

>>33403491
Go for a walk every day and cut carbs and sugar back to 15% of your intake while counting calories 500-1000 below your TDEE
Problem solved

>>33403513
The calorie cutting sounds excessive if he's not actually overweight.

>>33402812
Thank you anon, I appreciate it but I'm broken. I set a date to kill myself two years ago and I didn't because I didn't want to hurt the people around me. That resolve is slowly melting away right now.

I fucking hate my coworkers. They are such spiteful, lazy, entitled cunts. I have a government job, which means that 90% of the people there are there because of nepotism. I got the job because I got lucky, they just expanded and needed more people. Thing is, I actually work and work a lot, I always get the shittiest jobs nobody else wants to do because managers and other employees know each other, so they don't ask each other to work, I'm a nobody there, same as a few others, so we get asked to do everything. Its back breaking work, literally, I was off for a week once because my back was fucked and I was called in to the office and was told I "may not be capable for this type of work" meawnhile others get the easiest jobs that literally mean they stand in 1 spot and scan things while I have to lift 30kg+ things and move them around the warehouse. Then they say "bring it up with managers on duty", so I did, but then I get moved back because higher up managers report you for making "complaints" like that. Women at work get the easiest jobs and don't understand when I tell them I can't just go in and take some easy job, because I get taken off immediately which doesn't happen to them. Then I managed to get some easy jobs recently, but now those cunts got upset I did that because it means they actually have to work now, so they come early from their breaks to take my positions, or tell the managers they know to swap me out and then I have to talk myself out of it to at least do something less shitty. Today I just had enough of them, lazy fucking idiots. I'd rather have a shittier paying job with people on my level instead of getting paid more but having to deal with children in adult form. Or people walking past you, when its their job to take away full boxes to the trucks, because it means they actually have to do something, so you end up doing it yourself because otherwise you can't work and shit piles up and the machine don't stop shooting shit out at you...

i have too much free time, i have nothing or no one to do anything with, and i come here, or just browse the internet until i go to sleep and do it all over again. i'm a porn addict too, but every time i've gone away with no options, i don't feel the desire. its just when i'm alone and bored.

>>33403591
Isn't there any niche hobby you could get into? I have the same problem and I'm getting into tulpamancy to pass my time better.

I got too much goddam shit going on between buying a new house, getting this one ready to sell, being a stay at home dad of one kid, and my wife being super miserable with morning sickness pregnant with the next one.

Wow I hate social stuff.
>reread texts 6000 times before sending them
>it takes forever to reply and i'm "overthinking" and "have anxiety"
>don't reread texts and just write them and send them
>i say something wrong and i'm "awkward" and "weird"
Damn this species. It's wrong one way with them and wrong the other, like always.
I wish I was a normal person.

There is nothing more affirming than doing a drug that takes me out of my current experience. I love being able to snort shit and listen to music all day and night and forget about what cries me to sleep, until I realize I need to sleep and I'm crying in an inbetween state of being high and sober until I sleep

I think my boss is targeting me. God I need a better job bro. Fuck....

>>33403653
Just fucking be weird.
I've been weird my whole life and socially successful for most of it.
You'll never be perfect so accept your missteps and just keep rolling.

:)

>>33403701
:3

>>33403410
>any advice /adv/?
I don't have any information on your emotional state but it reminds me of a situation that I found myself in. It occurred to me that someone I considered to be a horrible human being might achieve his romantic and sexual ideal. The reality was that, no, he was pathetic and it amounted to nothing.
He was a horrible loser that I always disregarded.
She was nice and attractive but we'd barely interacted and I wasn't into her.
I honestly didn't care what happened to either of them.

Yet the possibility that he *might* successfully find happiness with her sent me into a panicked rage spiral. I'm emotionally odd so I try to be self aware and the fact that I cared even a little about this guy would've a sign that something was wrong. And I was having a panic attack over two people I shouldn't care about being together.

Ultimately, I unpacked it an unsurprisingly, it had nothing to with either of them. It has to do with me. I care tremendously about my romantic and sexual life and I had grown complacent and had let my life stagnate. The idea that he could possibly succeed while I was ignoring my own floundering felt like I was letting myself drown. So I focused on myself, improving myself, and improving the direction my life was going. And I eventually stopped caring about them at all. What used to be panicked rage is now just bemusement.

The take away for you here is the panic attack isn't about them, it's about you. Human beings are far more selfish and self centered than we consciously realize.
You need to unravel why you give a shit and seriously ask yourself why it bothers you. What are you afraid of? Why does whatever that is frighten you? Why do you care about that?
Find the core emotional source and work directly on that and you might find other symptoms disappear.
It's not fucking easy. It's hard work like losing weight or quitting drinking for some people. But it's worth it.

I don't believe dreams are just your subconscious processing background data at this point. In dreams, I've been to places I've never actually been to before and have been with people I've never seen before. Some dreams don't fade after I wake up and stick with me like they're actual memories.

>>33399536
fmovies

Why does pain feel so good?

I'm crashing out. Messaging people shit I'll regret because I'm horny. This is gonna be rough.

1.927 more to go

>>33403791
>In dreams, I've been to places I've never actually been to before and have been with people I've never seen before.
Your brain can make composites of different features and combine them to create new things. It happens.
That said, I occasionally dream future events and have my entire life. (I had a scientific theory about how it could be caused but the study it was based on was determined to be observational error.)
Anyway, I dream mundane moments of my life, like toying with the sandwich pick on my plate as my friends talk in a Denny's, only before they happen. Then I remember it happening before and I feel a very powerful deja vu. Then I wake up and remember dreaming about deja vu. Then years later it happens all over again.
Some people experience the same thing.
Some people do and dismiss it because they don't pay attention to details and assume it's coincidence.
Some people think it's impossible.
To me, it just happens.

>Some dreams don't fade after I wake up and stick with me like they're actual memories.
...you experienced the dream and therefore can actually remember the experience. It *is* an actual memory. It's a memory of a dream.
If you practice, you can remember dreams very well. Understanding them isn't always as possible.

There's whole philosophies of thought on this.

>gay bottom, found out pretty young
>get groomed by 21 y/o gay man at 11 into trying to top him because I "fit the role"
>get groomed by 19 y/o woman at 14 into trying to be straight because I "was just so mature"
21 birthday is soon, I try not to think about what happened. There's a lot of shit that I don't wanna ramble about but there's still lies I've told to hide these relationships that snowballed into huge parts of my current life.
I cringe at my legal name(have a nickname for this reason) just from having to remember them calling me that, I cringe at sex knowing I can't ever get my first times back, knowing that I'll just get reminded of their words and unwanted affirmations of masculinity even if I'm on the other end
its so awkward and embarrassing to tell people about this, its like I failed as a kid to be pure and let myself grow correctly, like its my fault for not finding better role models and friends when I was in the middle of goddamn nowhere.
I still think about the few instances of people warning me and how i ignored them, how those people are still out there and probably still know
i cant even tell people about it without my sexuality being blamed on the first instance, as if im just lying about the details to save face. I know for a fact it isn't true but it still hits me when people comment with "sure you weren't groomed into being gay?"

I feel like such as disgusting person /adv/, like people simultaneously know my secrets and that I'm deceiving them into thinking I'm purer then I really am

If multiple people say I have sociopath vibes should I be concerned?

Ever since the covid hoax I stopped interacting with the goyim cattle. I just look through them and pretend they don't exist. I don't even greet them or acknowledge their presence. I'm not staring, I'm just looking straight through them as if they weren't there.
My life has significantly improved. I have zero social anxiety now, not that I had much before but now I have zero.

>>33395165 (OP)
what is ts site man? people here should be executed like geniunly, u 4channers or how you fuckasses would like to be called, are one of the weirdest people ever. yall niggas never got enough love and are doing shit like ts, i hate ts place why are yall so toxic, what made u people so toxic?

>>33395165 (OP)
Why do I find it so hard to forget about you? Why is it so painful to remember? Somehow your name slips out of my mouth before I dream, somehow of all days I remember your birthday, knowing I'm no longer spending it with you.
How did you move on so easily? Why am I still clinging on to something that's so clearly gone?

>>33403909
Social alienation nigga wtf else did you think

This fucking bitch
This fucking coward

We were friends for years
we were dating for years.

Some guy becomes your friend and i say dont talk to him. and you ignore me
You break up with me DONT EVEN TELL ME. just slowly stop talking to me
Suddenly he's your new boyfriend
he spends the next 3 months saying. you cant throw away your friendship
Now all of a sudden he tells you to stop talking to me and you listen

FUCK YOU KIMI

You created a chat for all 3 of us to become friends and you told me "Im only for you and youre only for me". And within weeks you fucking left me for this fuck

I hope your relationship goes as well as the last woman who left me. She got pregnant, miscarried and her boyfriend turned into a drug addict that starved and abused their cat

I fucking hate you both.

I truly loved you. If you asked for anything i would give it to you

One of the last times you said you loved me you asked me what is love. I told you its a choice. you choose to love someone. through all the ups and downs of life I CHOOSE to be with you. No matter what you did I CHOOSE to come back to you, to make things work with you. And you disagreed

You said you loved me unconditionally

THAT WAS A FUCKING LIE APPARENTLY

>>33403943
The worst part is. I still love you...If you came back to me right now and said I want to be i want to be rebuild our friendship or i want to be friends, or i want to date again. I wouldnt be able to say, no to you. I would take you back and act like nothing even happened because i love you and i will always choose you. Even if you hurt me.

>>33403943
>>33403957
Dude, I know that feel, but we have to move forward, we have to fight and be happy.
I knew her for 6 years, proposed to her, she said yes and she still broke my heart. It still weeps, but I have to fight, I need to fight for my happiness, my future, my prospects and my future wife, I can cry and weep over the woman that's gone or I can fight, find someone who treats me right, a woman I can fall for again a woman I'd love to see every morning for the rest of my life.
When God told Abraham not to look back into Sodom, he commanded and his wife who couldn't help but look back was turned to salt looking upon the devastation.
We are doing the same to ourselves, we are turning ourselves to salt, we are no better than the people who talk of nothing but the past, the former glories.
We must move forward Anon, we must fight.

More than anything else, all I have ever wanted is someone who for once understood me. Someone who could hear my words and see my actions, then cut through them both and shock my core.

Those that I meet always admire my strength. My light, my love, my passion for everything. None notice the turmoil that lies underneath. They are distracted with their own problems-those problems that more often than not, I am helping and guiding them through. Convincing them there is more hope to be had, encouraging them to grow into the people they have always wanted to be. They admire me, look up to me, and in all their admiration they fail to notice who I am.

But you did. It was only you.
or maybe I guided you into that too.
But our pasts were the same, and you knew who I was, and why I hid behind this veil of strength.
and then you ran. and I will always wonder; was it because you knew? Would you have stayed and admired me like all the rest if had you never figured me out

Since you, I have been cruel. Half of the light that I used to shine dulled overnight. What was the point anymore. Where did it get me? No one's allowed close enough to figure me out again.

I wanted to be seen. but I think what's worse than being unknown, is to be known and then abandoned.

Neurotypicals are some of the most annoying paranoid people in the world.

>>33403943
>>33403973
I actually blew up on her this morning. She blocked me 2 weeks ago. I messaged her on a different platform saying "when will you talk to me again?" and that's when she said "my boyfriend told me not to talk to you" This is two weeks after her boyfriend said some bullshit "dont throw your friendship away guys"

So i said basically "this fucking coward. Comes in when he knew you and i were together i told you not to talk to him and you still talked to him. Tried to make us all become friends made a chat group called besties and then you left me for him And now that he said dont talk to me you listen? Fuck you both."

Im not sure if i was right to be angry or not. I always try to be rational., to be calm. To treat her right. This is the first time i ever actually got angry at her and cursed at her. The first time i ever voice how upset i was with what she did and how she acted. Now im not sure if i was right to make that our final message

To basically end our relationship with Fuck you. you were wrong for how you did this


>>33403973
if god wanted me to be happy he wouldnt have done this.

how do you go from this to my boyfriend says i cant talk to you within weeks

ill stop posting about her soon i just need to get these things out of my mind and i dont have anyone to talk to. She was my best friend and my love

>>33403805
What kind of pain?

Cops only care if corporations get stolen from not if everyday people get stolen from.

Bf doesn't really accept my urges to kill and doesn't even realize how natural it is. This is the animal kingdom, this is survival, eliminate those who compromise it. Too many people everywhere. He's a bit of a cuck in this way and I don't respect him as much.

Yea

>>33404051
You're taking the wrong message from God. Be glad it ended now, pack up your things and live well. You will be in far better company with some other woman you simply haven't met yet.
Its how I got over my last oneitis, I'm sure I can find another woman I love more than my Ex-fiance.

You just need to fight for yourself not for the woman you thought you knew. Live well and the rest comes naturally

>>33403647
Kek wtf. Stop breeding

>>33404070
Also I'm sorry to say this but you brought it on yourself, inviting another man to interact with your girlfriend on a casual basis is a dangerous business.
You are basically acting submissive letting him talk to her, saying "we can all be friends is a submissive gesture.
Not even jokingly you should have told her to stop talking to him or you'll dump her.

>>33404156
I didnt say we would be friends

I told her not to talk to him. She didnt listen
She made the chat saying we should be friends.

I said no and left.

She apparently continued to talk to him anyway. and the next moment i know shes referring to him as her boyfriend.

>>33404118
Wind it up like Donkey Kong and obliterate your stupid balls to smithereens

>>33404166
Then you did the right thing, you got rid of a snake, be glad she didn't bite you

Mid women give me the -ick. Ugly women I just feel sorry for them for maybe one second then look away but mid women give me the ick, especially when they open their mouth about some inane bullshit nobody cares about.

>>33404194
They probably feel the same way about you anon. Sad many such cases!

>>33395430
Based and Saiyan-pilled. Keep up the good fight. Also, don't forget to have some humility and thank God for your many blessings.

one day the rainbow will be liberated and all and everyone will stream onto the streets and march for freedom of the sky

I'm so mentally stuck on her it's insane
We had a thing for a little less than two months then her life changed up and she ghosted
But I was crazy into her, really fast and intensely which kinda scared me and felt like too much so I never communicated the extent of it. And now it's too late and doesnt matter. No answers, unrealized hopes, so many things left unsaid. But it's been two weeks and every single day I ruminate about her and still occasionally spiral. Like this isn't normal, this wasn't a long term committed relationship. My brain is fucked up and hyper-attaching to her and refusing to move on and be the me who was able to meet and connect with other people without really trying. It feels like I'm gonna be stuck here forever

None of this shit matters at all to me

>>33404500
I would like to be buried alongside my catheter bag of black piss.

>>33404032
one of my biggest fears. it would crush me.

On the bathroom floor? In my mouth.
In the well of the passenger? In my mouth.
On the sidewalk? In my mouth.
Floor of the porta potty? In my mouth.

>>33404675
Thats how you get worms

>>33404194

>>33404032
Yes

>>33404072
All kinds

I miss you. I always will

>>33405049
tell me

>>33405049
She ain’t capable of loving a man for longer than 3 months nigga!

>>33405129
I am incomplete without you