>>33380195
I wish my death had some type of benefit to someone, preferably my ex. I'd be more motivated to neck myself if my ex got some lump sum out of it. I couldnt be the man she needed me to be, but if she got like 10 million from me dying, i'd do it instantly because i love her sm and would do it to make up for being a shitty boyfriend. I could have been so much better to her. She was my sweet angel princess and now shes gone. I never judged her but i got mad at her often and i hate myself for it. Shes just a sweet baby girl and im a fucking loser. My baby. My innocent angel. I would do anything for u, including taking my life to make u rich. I know the world is hard but i would fr take my own life if you benefitted from it. My family can fuck off. You were the only person who was pure and kind to me and if i didnt have an insanely fucked up life i would have had a shot at having a healthy relationship with u. If i go to hell, im going to tell the demons torturing me how wonderfull you were and by me chanting that, it'll be the only type of goodness coming from the absence of God because you were my baby baby sweet angel innocent princess. I dont deserve you but ill watch over you in the spirit world when im gone. Theres nothing you can do or say to make me dissapointed in u, i'll always love you no matter what, nothing will change that i promise.